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[zzaaulaniaa]

[#writtenaugust #writtenaugustday3] Everything is a struggle and scramble. In spite of  the fact that this is so draining and time-consuming,  I will always hold it out      in order to gladden me;                                     one day. ─zza. [3:40 p.m., 3/8/2017]

p.s. I firstly uploaded on my line account.

[moonageloony]

because, when i do graphic design for work i do it to enhance my designing skill. because, when i do writing assignments in college i do it to improve my daily writings. because, when i clean the hell out of my house i do it to make myself have a little "work out" because, when i take care of my sister i do it to make myself​ a good mother for my child because, when i smile at people i do it to make myself feel relieved and happy because, when i lend a hand for people around me i do it to make myself..happy. i do it all.. for me. and that doesn't mean that im self-absorbed. its just because, simply, you need to love, cherish, and take care of yourself first before you put everything else above. because, in the end, the only person you can count on whenever you need him/her the very utterly most, is yourself. --so i ask you one more time, me. why do you do it all in the first place again? //krek

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"Aku jalan sama kamu ya." Katamu santai, sambil merogoh kantungmu, mengambil sebungkus rokok. Jantungku berdebar kencang. Iya atau tidak. Iya atau tidak. Iya. Tidak. Tidak. Tidak boleh. Tidak akan terulang lagi. Segelintir memori memandikanku basah. Tanganmu. Bibirmu. Bibirmu di leherku. Tanganmu di sela-sela pahaku. Aku. Kamu. Hatiku bengkak oleh cinta. Tatapanmu kosong. Keringat dingin muncul di dahiku. "Maaf, tapi tidak dulu—tidak. Ya. Tidak dulu, ya." Kakiku langsung berjalan cepat, mencoba tidak mempedulikanmu dibelakang. Aku tidak bisa. Tidak, kalau hanya dipermainkan begini. Hanya sekedar pemenuh nikmat. Aku cinta. Ini cinta, bukan gairah. Maaf. Aku kira milikmu juga cinta. Memori kembali membasuhku. "Iya, dia, dia. Indah sekali dirinya. Aku jatuh cinta." Katamu, bajumu masih tergeletak di lantai, tanganmu masih basah setelah memegangku. Gila. Masih sakit, rasanya. Aku menahan-nahan air mataku. Jangan jatuh, jangan jatuh. "Semoga kalian berjodoh." Kataku pelan, sembari membalikkan badanku, berpura-pura lelah dan tertidur. Jika aku berjalan menjauh sekarang, aku melakukannya untuk diriku. Hanya untukku. [Aku mencintaimu. Tidak sebanyak aku mengasihani diriku.] .80Hg I'm Doing This For Me #WrittenAugust #WrittenAugustDay3