Rien
I can't get a good edge this morning :( like even anywhere close. And not in a fun, sexy, my pleasure is secondary to others' way, but in a anxious, can't focus, unfun way.
I know it'll get better later but it feels awful when I've built edgeslut into such a part of my personality. I feel like I'm not getting a good grade in edgeslut.
I think this is probably the longest denial period (coming up on two months soon) I've done in a long long time. Maybe these ebbs and flows come and go naturally? Or maybe I'm overthinking the whole thing and by this afternoon will be drooling down my chest again.
I did get closest reading some chat transcripts, because they're so personal and intense. I'll hope it's just that I didn't get enough sleep last night or something.
Anyways, sexy thoughts and blasphemous prayers, please! I'll be back soon I'm sure.