It's really hard for me to write this. It's something I kept bottled up for months now, but I finally let it off of my chest with Luke, and I figured you ought to know about it as well seeing as we always tell each other everything.
My relationship with Luke has been extremely hard. It hasn't been his fault, he's actually more perfect than I could have ever asked for. I've been bullied for my sexuality for as long as I've been dating him. That's why I'm so quiet and nervous when it comes to talking about him and my relationship with him. I'm not really like that with you, but everyone else... I don't want to get called a 'faggot' anymore. I hate being shunned by some of my family members for the choices I've made in my life. I lost a lot of my friends in high school just because I decided I wanted to be with a boy and not a girl. It's the worst thing I've ever experienced, Z.
I'm hoping that letting these things out will somehow help me to cope. I get really anxious in public whenever I'm out with Luke, and I hate that I feel like I can't completely enjoy being with him because I'm so conscious of all of the people looking at us. I hope this isn't a silly pointless letter that I'm writing.
I love you, so much, Z. I mean that. You and Luke are really the only two people I have in my life that have stuck around. I could never lose you. You're my best friend and I can't imagine life without you. I can actually be myself around you, and that's such a relief. You make things so much easier, so much better. I hope you know that just like I told you my secrets here in this letter, I'm always here to listen to anything you need to talk about. That's what best friends are for. That, and buying each other fast food and watching Netflix on the weekends.
