if you need something to hold on to maybe you shouldn't rely on man-made works. it's funny you know precisely how it's made out of some code languages you don't understand and bits tiny little bits of your favorite colors and add the colors you hate taking shape what's so real about this life? go bang your head to the wall. now does the pain not feel real to you? it's funny you know exactly what you know some random curiously bright middle school girl or some lonely unemployed middle-aged woman sending codes in a language you do understand taking turns you're disoriented if that's even a word how come i can feel the spinning earth? you're facing down. if you need something to hold on to maybe get a hand a warm, real human hand maybe your right hand can find your left or the other way around isn't that the reason why there are two of them? a pair of hands. a pair. maybe you should stop talking. to me. to you. maybe rather than trying to find something to hold on to from without try within if you don't trust yourself that much, how can they? it's funny you know for sure the sky is clear no trace of shadow over the moonlight but what of the sweats and beatings of the heart was a good run, you said, haven't had that in a while when you dream a dream a hand is a stone a cold solid small stone such tiny hand, you thought to yourself it's funny you know matter-of-factly a stone is a stone but the hand is cold what's the difference, you said out loud when you sigh, you sigh alone because it was always about you and nothing else when you pretend to cry or pretend not to cry it's almost without effort it's funny you know unmistakingly the truth your problems are but a single blow of tender dry air that can't even lift a drop of dust a storm with raging winds are always at bay you're always safe at home and for some reason you can't see beyond the window and you always say, maybe tomorrow. is it because you are a dust that you chose to be insignificant? or is it because you are insignificant that you became a dust? if you need something to hold on to maybe look closely aren't you cold? warm, warm aren't you the coldest? warm, warmer it's funny you know when you close your eyes to open them you can choose what to see even the back of your eyelids is an option.
