#wspd17

[debbyryan]

Sunday is World Suicide Prevention Day. #IWasMadeFor doing life with others who fight darkness. What were you made for?

cc: @twloha #WSPD17

[sammyhale]

TWLOHA (x)

[youmatterlifeline]

This World Suicide Prevention Day, ‪#‎BeThe1To‬ to make a difference. Stepping forward and reaching out can help save lives. 

[im-nora-ephron-bitch]

10 years ago this year I made a decision to stay. Not many people other than some amazing counselors and mentors know this part of me. But given that it’s been 10 years and it’s World Suicide Prevention Day and I’m in a beautiful place I’ve been thinking a lot about that decision.

I thought that the bad decisions I made would shape my whole life. I thought the people I had at the time were the only people in my life that would ever matter. I had a lot naive ideas about what my life was and wasn’t.

As I’m standing here today, breathing in the wind and beauty of Kinsale. I can’t help but think of all of the wonderful things I would have missed if I had done something differently 10 years ago. I would have never spent countless nights in college laughing until I cry with some of the best people I know. I would have never gotten sick and then recovered multiple times. I would have never traveled the country in a Ryder Truck blasting Mat Kearney and Celine Dion on repeat. I would have never taken a dirt road through a canyon in the Navajo Reservation. I would have never gotten up at 5am in Scranton, PA to sing songs in Spanish to wake up the Virgin Mary. I would have never climbed mountains in Omak and danced around a pole praying to God with and sweating my life away with Native people and roommates who became family. I would have never fallen in love and then get my heart broken. I would have never experienced actual loss and grief and really realize the value of life and family. I would have never seen the sun rise over Lake Michigan and the sunset over the Pacific Ocean. I would have never met the people who inspire and challenge me every day. I would have never seen the rainbows and ocean views I have been seeing this week.

I’m not perfect. And sometimes I rethink that decision. I will continue to make mistakes and be imperfect. But I’m okay. Because I was made for all of the imperfections and mistake. I was made for these experiences from the last 10 years. And I cannot wait for 10 years more of adventure, mistakes, laughter, love, and life. #wspd17 #iwasmadefor #andsoikeptliving #mentalhealth #photography #solotravel #twloha (at Kinsale, Ireland)

[johnsonsm1]

Since I Chose To Stay

It’s been about one year since I last attempted to commit suicide. 

Sunday, September 10, is World Suicide Prevention Day.

I usually share my story and life with mental illness, but this year I want to tell you about the life I’ve lived since I last set down the knife and decided to stay.

Since I chose to stay, I moved 2,284 miles from Nacogdoches, TX and joined a unique community of people in Seattle, WA.

Serve Seattle was a place where I found more than some really awesome internships, I found a family. A family that was willing to be vulnerable but stand up in the face of injustice.

While I lived in Seattle, I continued on my medication for anxiety, depression, and PTSD. My mental illness didn’t go away despite how much I wanted it to. Honestly, there were days where I didn’t know if I was going to shower much less get out of bed. But then there was Jenna, Amy, Stella, Alyssa, Erika, Becca, Skyler, JB, Cody and the list goes on. These people showed me grace in my weakest moments and called out the best in me when I couldn’t see past anxiety.

I lived in a community that valued people as they were.

Since I chose to stay, I convinced my friend to hike on the side of the road for two miles in a downpour just to hike a small portion of Poo Poo Point in Issaquah, WA. I was able to hike in Mt. Rainier National Park, a place I’d been wanting to hike for years. I experienced a gnarly wipe out on ice when hiking in shorts in the snow. I hiked Rattlesnake Ridge and canoed with friends in Lake Washington. I heard the Lord tell me to drink from a waterfall to be refreshed, and even though I looked like a complete fool, I did. We built fires at Golden Gardens in Seattle and watched the sunset over the mountains. I saw the Grand Canyon for the first time, hiked through the Garden of the Gods in Colorado, and drove through the Redwoods in Northern California. I played in the snow for the first time in years and had a little too much fun.

I fought mental battles of feeling like my legs were giving out, but I pushed through them and kept hiking. That in itself is a success.

Since I chose to stay, I was able to raise $1,000 in one week for HeartSupport’s Warped Tour Campaign. I got to work the HeartSupport booth at two Warped Tour Dates and hear stories of others choosing to stay. I was able to go backstage to watch one of my favorite bands, Movements. I got to attend South By So What with my sister and cheer on a good friend, Clover The Girl. I got to be front row seeing Four Year Strong. I had the opportunity to see Mayday Parade play the same show I attended ten years ago. I was able to sing along with Drew Holcomb and the Neighbors in the front row with my friend Heather. I got to celebrate Jenna’s birthday by seeing Colony House in concert. I had the opportunity to play my first solo show when opening for my friends, Brothers and Brides. I got too excited when my all time favorite band, Paramore, released their new album, After Laughter. 

I got to write new songs where I decided to be honest about my mental health. Now I get to record and release those songs in the future.

Since I chose to stay, I got to see three of my best friends get engaged. I got to attend two weddings, one where I fulfilled a life-long dream of being a DJ, the other where I was honored to sing a hymn in celebration with the bride and groom.

While my mind likes to tell me I’ll always be alone, I am at a place where I can celebrate my friends and know I will have my own relationship one day.

Since I chose to stay, I was able to take my first journey overseas to London and Ireland. I got to see Big Ben, Westminster Abbey, Buckingham Palace and other sights in London. I drank the best latte I’ve ever had at a coffee shop owned by New Zealanders. I got to experience Bangor, Northern Ireland, the place one of my best friends, Amy, grew up. I had a chippie, digestives, and a fry. I got to hike Giant’s Causeway and swim off the northern coast. I drank my first pint of Guinness and watched the sunset over the sea. I met Ellen, Sarah, and Paula, three of the coolest and most sincere people ever. I went to a club and came to the conclusion that a pub is more of my scene. I got a tattoo in Ireland to remind myself of that trip.

There were nights that my mind wanted to wander and flashbacks popped up, but after that trip, I realized how far I’ve come. I no longer need people all the time, I can calm myself before anxiety takes over.

Since I chose to stay, I enrolled in college again.

Since I chose to stay, I get to see my niece turn four.

Since I chose to stay, I saw my sister graduate college.

Since I chose to stay, I can see Paramore in concert on September 30.

Since I chose to stay, I get to try and get accepted in to Park Ranger Academy.

Since I chose to stay, I can watch movies and binge Parenthood with my mom.

Since I chose to stay, I take five pills a day and attend therapy.

Since I chose to stay, I ask questions and advocate for people who don’t want to stay.

Since I chose to stay, I can live.

[twloha]

TWLOHA Music + Events Coordinator Elizabeth Wilder made this video in honor of our #IWasMadeFor campaign.

This year’s theme is: Stay. Find what you were made for.

Ways to get involved:

-Join the conversation on social by using #IWasMadeFor and #WSPD17

-Order a WSPD pack (that will equip you with ways to start conversations about suicide prevention) from the TWLOHA store.

-Be part of our video by filming a short (10 sec) video of yourself saying “Stay” and “I was made for _______” with your response to the prompt. Send your video to [email protected]. (Make sure your phone is turned horizontal.)

-Donate or become a fundraiser. All of the proceeds will be going to treatment and recovery for those struggling.

Learn more about the campaign here.

[this-youneed]

STAY ALIVE 💛

[carsforhope]

In 2015 we lost 3,027 people to suicide here in Australia. That’s 8 per day. 1 every 3 hours.

We created #IAMDRIVEN because these stats are unacceptable. We want to bring attention to the importance of suicide prevention, challenge the stigma surrounding suicide, and to give hope to people vulnerable to it. Leading up to World Suicide Prevention Day on September 10 we want you to answer our question: “What drives you?”

Submit your #IAMDRIVEN: www.iamdriven.com.au