I have a himbo surfer tiger paladin who is really trying but is starting to feel like they are in WAY over their head at this whole saving the world business. Bro is kind of wondering if they should just.. dab out and go be a surfer or just.. stick it out to the end. (Maybe an oath change?). Use the true black and whatever spread is best for that.
The face of your challenge is the Moon crossed by Death, falsehood and mysteries presenting a choice of total finality. Maybe the choice is not so final as you think. Or maybe the outcome is being hidden.
The 9 of Cups is what is real, showing that taking time for yourself and your needs is just as important as all the rest. Perhaps moreso, because you cannot help others if you yourself are broken.
The 3 of Wands is what is wrong: your path is not nearly as straightforward and clear as you believe, do not rush ahead.
The 5 of Wands indicates that you are missing information when it comes to the forces arrayed against you.
Temperance urges you to find a point of compromise, to balance the forces you stand between. Giving up completely is not the answer, but neither is grinding yourself to dust on your path.