There's Nothing Left to Say Now ~ Prompt # 6
Who knows how long I've been awake now? The shadows on my wall don't sleep They keep calling me, beckoning. Who knows what's right? The lines keep getting thinner.
She was asleep. The dream was familiar by now. She was wearing her cloak- the weight was familiar on her shoulders. She'd worn it before- but whether 'before' was just an endless history of repeated dreams or something more tangible, she didn't know. She was in a small cottage in the woods, sitting at a wooden table with a tea set. Paige knew that beyond that door to her left was an expanse of forest- she had traveled it before, though she never got too far before she lost her concentration and found herself again at the tea table. She could go places, wander around the little house, explore the forest, but only for so long before the pull of teatime brought her back to where she began.
He was late for tea.
She didn't know who he was, or how she knew he was late, but she knew that he should be here.
This was the dream. To sit, to wait, to wonder why the man was late for tea when she didn't even know his name, only that the more time that passed, the more the little girl panicked until she woke up thinking that she might die of it. It didn't matter that she had had this dream more times than she could remember. Every time, she expected him to be there, and every time... he didn't come.
Why didn't he come? He promised.
Trying to smother the familiar panic rising in her chest, Paige wondered if she would explore the forest again. Maybe it would postpone the breakdown, or avoid it altogether. That had happened a couple times. Some sound woke her via her physical ears, and the child was spared the ending of her nightmare.
At just that moment, she heard a sound.
Paige spun in her chair to see a man. He wore a dark coat and a purple scarf that hung down, untied to expose an angry scar across his throat. She felt... she felt as if she should recognize him. Wait, yes. He was Jefferson. He was Jefferson, her sad Hatter. And he didn't belong here.
"Jefferson?" she asked, standing and crossing the small space. "What are you doing here?"
"Princess," he said, his tone broken. "I've... I've come for tea."
Paige frowned, looking dubiously back at her tea set. "I don't have a setting for you. Perhaps I could find one..." This was a definite breach of protocol. She'd never had a visitor in this dream before. Especially not one who wanted to drink her tardy guest's tea.
"No, Princess, it's alright. Spare yourself the trouble." He looked pained, though Paige didn't understand why. Her heart hurt.
"Then... what do you want to do?" Why are you here?
Jefferson swallowed, one hand stroking the scar across his neck. "I- I don't know. I'm late for-"
"We could dance." Paige interrupted, speaking right as the idea occurred to her, a smile touching her lips. She loved to dance.
As if on command, her dream cottage supplied music. Jefferson looked hesitant, but Paige, ever the adventurous one, grabbed his hands and started stepping in time. Jefferson took a shuddering inhale, eye closing, and Paige's heart clenched as he did. Why was he always so sad?
And why did she always feel like it was her fault?
"Jefferson?" she asked, tone barely loud enough to be heard above the music.She didn't know how to phrase her question, or even if he would understand it, but this was her dream and he was in it when he wasn't supposed to be, so she'd decided that she deserved to know why he was crying and why she wasn't panicking anymore, even if she might forget it all as soon as she awoke. She deserved to know.
"Yes, Princess?"
"..... Are you... late for tea?"
Silence. For several moments, all that could be heard was the gentle thrumming of the music from nowhere and the sound of Grace's heartbeat, beating a much quicker tempo.
"Yes."
Paige wanted to cry. He was the one she'd been waiting for. He was the one that she should remember, and knowing that he was late for tea should have fixed everything and made all of the puzzle pieces fit together... but it didn't. She still didn't understand. Something was still missing.
"Jefferson?" she repeated, looking up at her dance partner with tear-filled eyes. She dreaded his answer, but she had to ask.
"Yes?"
"Why do you call me Princess?"
It was a long time before he answered her, and he refused to meet her eyes as he thought. "For the same reason that you call me Jefferson." He looked at her then, his eyes as teary as hers, and she understood.
"I used to call you something different."
"Yes... Princess."
"What did I call you?" He shuddered again, and Paige could feel it shaking her bones as if he were a part of her. "Princess, that is one question I cannot answer. I... I wish... I can't!" Jefferson cried out, a sound of unimaginable anguish, and Paige embraced him, knowing somehow that if she let go, he would fly into a million pieces. He would break if she didn't hold him together. She couldn't let go.
But she was waking up. The edges of the cottage were becoming hazy, and the music had faded to aching silence. "No!" she cried, for she remembered now. He called her Grace. He called her Grace. He called her Grace.
And he was Papa.
"PAPA!" Grace screamed. She couldn't let go! She was losing him. He would break without her! He needed her!
"PAPA!"
Paige sat up, eyes snapping open. She heard sounds down the hallway, her parents running. And then her father was there, arms wrapped around her. But they were the wrong arms. It was wrong. It was all wrong.
And she'd already forgotten why.









