#xaila rambles

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SAMS rant?

Sooooo i talked aboit how its not visible to see how mich the jack being controlled by the creator is being ignored and well its trauma for jack

I watched some stuff and ehm maybe its not AS ignored as i originally thought

I mean i think i notice some small things about jack ? I think the him being scared of people yelling is something he only got after being controlled wich makes sense if he hesrd all the people he killd yell and scream for help maybe even mercy-

I believe he got more clingy to solar or atleast wants to be nearer to solar at all times, seeing as to how the beast got to infect him and how he was litterly living in fear with no solar around while being controlled by the creator kinda explains it? Unless there is a diffrent reason idk of-

Him also spending time with the cats ia alao a new thing? Maybe he sees them as a support animal just like how sun sees them as that

And probbaly more things that ig im gonna have to look for

So i think they didnt fully ignore jack having trauma and only give small sighns for it litterly showing that he hides his feelings or pushes them back

If he knows people find hil annoying then he wont want to talk about his own problems, he is a child and children always come to some sort of explenation to why people treat them a certain way. People still see him as dumb, mostly annoying and too energetic , and i get that it was a sort of birthday for sun and moon but sun being RELIEVED about the gift, the gift from jack alone is so sad in my opinion. "Yeh you each get a 10 these tukons things whatever they are called and a week of me leaving you alone" that comming from a child, i mean the tukon thingies are ok ig but the last part ARGHHHH. So yeh sun bekng relieved with that gift kinda is now a proof to jack who of the bunch is really tired of him. Wich can lead to him distancing himslef from sun now as a way for him to show "im sorry for annoying you, i'll leave". He probably also thinks he is a burden on the rest, and he knows everyone else had probably worse than him so he wont talk or maybe the thought of him originally being a mashine a weapon to be used is getting to him and he puts it together with "im just a mashine, a weapon. I shouldnt be feeling anything". As long as the others only see his funny little gremlin side then they wont question anything.

In conclousen jack does show sighns of him having some sort if trauma but he pusges it back probably to not be a burden

Those are my thoughts anyway idk if i got those right tho-

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Sams talk

I get to think about sams a lot sooo you gotta deal with me asking a lot of questions

Anywho this is more of a what if ig? But i keep on thinking how jack would react if he didnt know about solar veing hunted down, solar hiding it from him to keep him away? The fact his dad is activelx killing people that are after him and that number is increasing by the day. He would start to get worried. This is not normal, i get solar is defeinding himself but keep on going and eventually this will end badly, and even if it dosent at the end of the day the overseer apperantly keeps on getting replaced so it dosent matter if he kills them or not. Killing wont fix it but the problem is its his only solution for now?

Again this is just a what if-

Y'know what i would like to see? A hunter using jack against solar. They kidnap jack SOMEHOW idk and threatend to kill him, it dosent even have to be the real jack maybe just an illusion of some sort but yk what i mean, what would solar do? I thnk thats an intresting question?

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SAMS rant? ig? can i call this a rant? idk

Y‘know, everytime i think about SAMS human AU i keep on just seeing jack looking like solar but having New Moons personality-

(that is if we go with new moon being jack‘s second parent)

as in, jack can look cold and give off the vibes solar gives at times but his personality is like New moon, kind little curious gremlin.

and ngl i sort of headcanon that jack acts like new moon at times wich makes solar have deja vu-

this especially hit hard when he first came back from the dead to find out necus went into villain arc, and after solar got closer to jack he noticed the similarities between jack and new moon

im fine :D

totally

also can we discuss how even jack sees that others find him annoying-

i caught up with some ep cause i couldn’t watch them since…. ehm tests, and school hates me-

anyways so i watched the birthday ep whatever its called and caught jack saying that he know he is annoying, so like call me stupid but i dont think thats a good thought for a child to have? also didnt jack go through immense trauma when he was controlled by the creator? i mean i get maybe they want to make it seem like jack hides his whole emotions and trauma from that event but arghhhhhhh my babyyyyyyyy 😭

so i like to think jack stays up at night cause he be scared for threats and being controlled again. im probably gonna draw this since words suck and im not good with them at all💀

bit yeh…

reminder for you people to drink water. ik you guys are dehydrated don’t lie to me, even im gonna drink some water after posting this

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SAMS Rant

Y'know what would be neat fot some sort of sun and nexus angst?

Nexus being scared of sun while sun tries to be good to him.

Since Nexus was (in his eyes) mistreated, hurt and even killed by sun i wont be suprised if that guy is more scared of him than he hates him

I also have this neat thought (or headcanon) that most people wont like maybe even hate me for it but hear me out

Since Old moon was the (lets say) abuser and sun the absued one in the past, i have this neat thought of once new moon appered as in after the reset these roles switched. Sun was acting more like old moon and new moon was like past sun.

Wich kinda adds to this "nexus being scared of sun" thing. Idk i find this thought neat and could be used for an AU ngl-

I could make one? Maybe mingle that in this SAMS Fantasy AU i have been thinking about but idk 🙃

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Wifies lore

I have been watching some wifies lore, i saw a lot of it on tik tok so i just thought why not try it and uhm

Lowkey im scared of evil!wifies for some reason 😃, he kinda is eerie. The fact that he scares me a bit is weird considering i litterly have a character i made before knowing about the guy who almost acts exactly like him. (More of a combo of caine from tadc and evil!wifies but thats a story for another day)

I need more lore tho TvT, i love this content sm

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Fun talk

So i went out and stuff looked around and found this

Arent they beautifull?

I actaully didnt know there were even wednesday plushies out there-

Well i would definetly let those two smooch (new crackship unlocked?? Nahh)

Also i found this little wall of heaven

I really wanted to get one but like money 😃🔫 i'll get one at some point. Trust

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SAMS AU rant?

So ehm new AU-

It follows jack as our main charcater and a messed up future-

If i would make this some sort of series i know exactly how i want to begin with it buuuutttt idk-

I mean the story would need a lot of setting and planning and im gonna have to use extra as much SAMS logic in this than any other AU i think-. Sooooooo yeh. Its just basically jack seeing glimpses of the future and putting two and two together to bot let that future happen, we got solar and jack angst aswell as jack having lots of smart moments

And we get to see jack of that terrible future and how messed up the guy is :D

ALSO i kinda wanna make a future SAMS AU that mqy or may not be similar to dream smp-

IM STILL OBSESSED WITH THAT SMP LEAVE ME BEEEEEE

Anyways yeh-

With similar to dsmp i dont mean its polizical and stuff although ig kinda? But just having dsmp as the main insperation

Gotta twist a lot of stuff tho

ANYWAY BYEE GOTTA WATCH SOLQR ALMOST GETTING KILLED 😀🔫