Wait, we are dating ?!
So, I said that I will not write about Xavier. I lied to myself. Here’s my participation to the Xavier day, organized by @michael-langdon-appreciation ! It’s not smutty, very fluffy, and very very shitty, I’m sorry.
Summary : Xavier and Reader have always been together. Reader is sure that Xavier is super gay and that they are just best friends. Too bad, Xavier is sure that they are super together.
(Y / N) and Xavier were besties for a number of years now, long before the group met and they had always been very close. It was sometimes a real torture for (Y / N), because she had feelings for her friend, so when he stuck to her, he put his hand on her back, or when he came to sleep at her place and that he slept in her bed, what a nightmare ! The problem was that Xavier was gay. Well it was not really a problem, (Y / N) respected that, but since she had a vagina, it meant that there would never be any romantic or sexual relationship between them. So she was trying to repress her attraction, to calm the palpitations of her heart when they were together, always keeping in mind that they were best friends, nothing else, while he was talking to her about fashion, hair and the handsome guys he had met at his gym class. Until this evening around the campfire with the rest of the group. They often laughed at the almost fusional relationship she had with Xavier, when one was there, the other was never far away. If one knew something, the other would learn it as soon as they saw each other. If one was happy, sad or angry, the other was there to do the right thing. (Y / N) used to have her parents tell her that she had found a real big brother, a twin, some people had often asked her if they were cousins, so Brooke's remark surprised her.
"You're really a weird couple. Cute, but weird."
"So true!" Montana agreed, raising her can of beer, followed by the others who congratulated them for their love.
First, she smiled stupidly, looking at Xavier, waiting for him to react, to laugh, to refute the information, but he just seemed delighted, pulling at her while blushing. (Y / N) believed that he did not dare to contradict them, and without really thinking, she made the decision to do so.
"We're just friends. Best friends."
There was a long silence around the fire, Xavier turning to her with round eyes, full of surprises. The others also seemed very surprised. Had she blundered ? Did... the others did not know that he was gay and that she served him as a cover? No, they could not ignore it, Xavier spent his time complimenting the butts of all the men he came across.
"O-kay." he mumbled, standing up. "Awesome, great..."
"I'm sorry, Xav, I did not know you did not want them to know."
"To know? "
"Yes, that you are..."
"What ?"
Should she say it ? It was not because they were not together that it automatically meant that he liked guys, so his secret was always safe, if she was silent now.
"Gay ?" she murmured.
The word seemed to deeply offend Xavier, who opened his mouth raising his hands in the air, before leaving, without closing his mouth, but without making the slightest sound. The boys in the group followed him, leaving (Y / N) with Brooke and Montana, who threw themselves on her like fury when the others were out of sight.
"No, but what's wrong with you ?! Making this poor boy believe that you love him, that you are together, to humiliate him in front of his friends ?"
"Do you really think ..." Brooke asked, frowning. "he's gay ?"
"Just because he loves dancing, wearing pink shorts and taking care of his body ?! No, but shit, girl, the Middle Ages are over !"
(Y / N) was totally lost. Of course she did not think Xavier was gay because of that, the other guys of the group did that too and they were straight. These kinds of prejudices were totally ridiculous.
"No, it's just that when we're together, he talks to me about the men he thinks are sexy and he'd like to fuck. He also talks to me about those he's fucked. And he's never evoked a single girl so..."
It seemed to calm her friends, who realized that there had been a serious lack of communication between her and Xavier, creating a huge misunderstanding. They had never mentioned their sexuality, they had never even joked about it, and with time, it seemed natural to Xavier that they were dating, without having to say it, while for (Y / N), it made sense that they are best friends.
"He talks about you all the time ! "My girlfriend this, my girlfriend that". For him it was obvious."
"But... He only talks about men !" repeated (Y / N). "And we never did anything ambiguous, we never kissed... Well, sometimes, but small smacks, it was innocent, like to say hello. Xavier is not the kind of guy to wait and stay still in a bed."
"Unless he respects you, thinks you're taking your time and does not want to rush you ?"
Montana's mischievous smile and Brooke's sorry look finally convinced (Y / N) that she was wrong from the beginning. And what now ? She had upset Xavier, hurt him, thought he was gay and did not realize he loved her. On the question of the relationship, she would be adament, as long as he did not ask her to go out with him, there was nothing official, so she was not responsible ! Timidly, she went to the boys' hut, who left her alone with her now-old best friend, perhaps soon to be boyfriend, who refused to look at her, pouting on his bed as he stared at the ceiling.
"I'm sorry, we've never been clear on the subject and as you talk about all these guys you find super hot..."
"I'm not going to talk about the girls that I find hot to my girlfriend, it would be bad."
"Uh ... And it's not bad with guys ?"
"I mean, duh ? It's not the same, you can not complex by comparing yourself to a man."
"First of all, yes I can. And I can be afraid that you're cheating on one of them. For me this is not the kind of discussion we have with your girlfriend, or a girlfriend who is clearly aware that you are with her, which was not the case !"
Xavier sighed before sitting down, styling before finally looking at her. The red around his eyes indicated that he had cried, trying to hide it. Men... Carefully, (Y/N) sat next to him, putting her hand on his.
"I would have realized that you were bi if you had talked about at least one girl. And anyway, even if I had known about it, I would never have thought that you could be interested in me."
"Why not ?" he asked, grimacing.
"We're so different. Yes, you often train me in your delirium, but most of the time, I'm boring, shy, embarrassing and less, very less sexy and with less fashion knowledge than you. It's cliché to say this, but as it's night clichés, so I'll say it, you deserve the best. Really, whatever happens, you're my best friend, I want your happiness, with a man, a woman, no matter, you deserve it."
For an answer, Xavier made his little pout again with a small grunt, before putting his head on her shoulder. She was not forgiven yet, but it was on the right track. Fortunately she knew him better than anyone else and she knew it was enough that she complimented him a little more to make him crack.
"I really think so. I have often dreamed that there is more than friendship between us, but I was afraid of deluding myself, of suffering, and that is perhaps why I have not seen the signs. You're too good for me, so being your friend is already wonderful ,I do not want to lose that. I do not want to lose you."
"... It's nice. And you're right, I was not clear enough, I'm sorry too."
Slowly, but surely, things gradually returned to order, Xavier lying down again on the bed, his head this time placed on (Y / N)'s thighs, to talk about his bixesuality, the prejudices that he had lived, people who told him that he had to choose one or the other...
"Oh, did I tell you ? I've met a girl, I like her, but like like her, except she's a little silly, I think. Not too silly, and cute enough that I forgive, but... You'll laugh, she's known me since I was about ten years old, we're almost always together, and until recently, she did not know that I was bi, nor that I loved her. I kissed her a lot of times, I slept in her bed, I touched her ass, even though I said it was to help her at the gym. Maybe being a gentleman was not a good idea ? Maybe I'd have to throw myself at her, in a bed like this, so that she understands that she's perfect for me, the best ? It would not be rushed, I was sure we had been dating for a long time."
At once tender and upset, (Y / N) leaned down to kiss him, while running her hands through his hair to ruffle it, making the dancer scream in her mouth.
"NOOOOOOOO ! You'll fucking pay for it !"
Sneering like a child, (Y / N) jumped out of bed to run outside, followed by Xavier who was eager to catch her, bring her back to his cabin and take revenge. Their laughter echoed through the night, preventing them from hearing calls for help from the woods.
