#xeverayapsession

[xeverashifts]

everyone talks about how much they miss they s/os and yeah same but no one ever really talks about how heart breaking it is to miss your best friend like im genuinely finna cry i miss my friends so much

[xeverashifts]

THE STAIRCASE INCIDENT IN MY ENHYPEN DR

disclaimer: this tumblr post is strictly fiction and did not happen in this reality. this is strictly a log about what went down when I shifted to my enhypen dr from the first time. (well i think because i could still feel my body being in my cr but i was experiencing my dr first hand but i just wanted to talk about it I guess?) (intro for this dr coming soon). if you don’t like shifters or anything shifting related, please scroll, and if you do, I hope you enjoy!

i woke up in my bed as if it was another day in my cr but as I look down at my white blankets covered in a multicolor flower pattern and everything begins to set in. i had finally shifted to my enhypen dr after all the times of feeling like I’ve been failing had come to an end. i had took a second to look around and everything just felt familiar. after slipping my slippers on I grabbed my phone that was plugged in by my bedside table and walked into the bathroom and just stared at my reflection briefly as I started to brush my teeth and wash my face.

I got into the shower letting the hot water burn my skin as i started to lather on the soap on my washcloth and started to wash my body. after i got out of the shower i wrapped a towel and got many notifications from my phone so i opened my phone and went to the messages only to find multiple messages from the main enhypen groupchat with all of the members and me. I stared at the group chat as everyone spoke about what they had planed for the day, dance practice and just joking with each other as the do normally.

I wanted to say something but i just couldn’t think of what to say it was more so out of not wanting to say anything dumb rather than anything else. I stared at the line blinking in the empty text box trying to figure out what to say before typing…

“I’m gonna go to practice today on my own rather walk then taking the van with you guys”

instantly as everyone read my message my phone literally got flooded with messages of “are you okay?” “did something happen?”

and then i saw jake had responded with “im coming with you.” and immediately my heart dropped.

I put my phone down on the sink as i walked back into my room to get dressed which was a simple outfit for dance practice trying to ignore the fact that Jake said what he said as if it would erase the fact that he said he was coming with me. I grabbed my bag made sure everything was in it before walking out the door and locking the door behind me. i walk down the hallway passing each apartment door till i get to the stairwell because i knew the rest of the members would take the elevator because its the quickest way to get to the van outside but since i was by myself i just didn’t mind.

I got to the stairwell and turned the cool knob of the stairwell entrance door and letting it slam behind me the sound echoing through the empty stairwell. I began to walk down the steps i started to overthink about everything mainly about the stuff that i had planned but as i made it to the flight of stairs that was connected to the second floor i heard a creak sound echo from the door and as it opened there was Jake and immediately his eyes softened when his eyes met mine.

we ended up walking down the steps together, and I remember him just straight yapping about shit. I couldn’t tell y'all what he was talking about because of how zoned out I was. I just remember him saying words at the speed of light, so I just ended up staring at the wall in front of us as we continued to descend the steps.

then almost abruptly he stops walking down the steps right as we were midway to the first floor and turned his head to look at me.

Jake just stood there staring, but it wasn't out of just confusion; it was more so worry as well.

"Are you okay?" He asked softly as I turned my head to look at him, only to shake my head in response.

I tried to walk down the next couple of steps, but he immediately rushed down the steps and leaned back against the railing. His eyes were so glossy, bro he genuinely made me so nervous, so all I could do was stare but I know he was looking at me like that because he cared.

"Xevera, please talk to me cmon you know you can talk to me about anything." He insisted.

“I’m fine” I replied before going down the steps and around him before walking out of the stairwell.

[xeverashifts]

everyone is shifting tonight including me to the dr of their choice and if you don’t believe that then ur just a hater THINGS WILL CHANGE FOR THE BETTER (im trying to hype myself up bare with me)

[xeverashifts]

stop giving a fuck about what the 3d shows you if you say you shifted you did…stop doubting yourself.

[xeverashifts]

ns idk if im gonna get shunned for this but why is shifting so s/o centered and a lot of people talk about some “oh if my s/o breaks up with me im not shifting there anymore or im not shifting anymore period” like you have a life outside ur s/o like people should post more about themselves or friends even family or things they love to do or even ur job but idk I just feel it’s repetitive. I know love keeps people going but theirs different versions of love around you and I feel that’s not appreciated enough.

[xeverashifts]

no one really talks about how lonely shifting is

[xeverashifts]

stay persistent with loa because you deserve it #goshiftgirl

[xeverashifts]

happy new years to all!! I know shifting and loa treats everyone beautifully this year! because it’s deserved!