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[nu-metal-princess]

NIGHTMARE- JONATHAN DAVIS X FEM!OC

Hello everyone! I hope you are doing well. Before this story starts I’m providing a trigger warning for SA and just mentions of trauma aftermath in general. By writing this, I mean absolutely no disrespect to Jonathan or to any other survivor who may come across this story. I simply want to convey and show the more sweet/caring side of Leah and Jon’s relationship. If this is going to be triggering for you, please do not proceed. As always, your mental health comes first, I won’t be offended.

Leah’s character guide:

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💬 0  🔁 0  ❤️ 0 · CHARACTER GUIDE: LEAH DAVIS Born: 1972 Sexuality: Bisexual and polyamourous Relationships: Jonathan Davis (husband)

“So.. mall today?” Leah was practically jumping with excitement. Jonathan found it absolutely endearing. “There’s a sale on this cute black dress. I was thinking of buying it.”

He looked up into her glowing expression with love. “Anything you want baby.” Jonathan smiled as he blessed her with his agreement, despite knowing how many stores they were gonna end up dropping tons of cash on.

He didn’t mind though. For the first time in his life, Jonathan truly felt understood and comfortable. Leah never judged him, he trusted and loved spending time with her. She meant the absolute world to him and the most beautiful thing in life was making her happy.

“Yay!” Leah gave him a quick kiss before suddenly turning to rush him. “We’d better get going now. It’s gonna be BUSY!”

“Yes ma’am.” Jonathan chuckled a bit, twirling his hair while the couple made their way to the front door. “We should get dinner afterwards too. All that shopping is gonna make my girl hungry and we can’t have that can we?”

“You’re funny.” She said sarcastically but her eyes were rolling playfully to indicate there was no real annoyance behind her reaction.

“I’d certainly like to think so.” He winked at her before comfortably resting his arm around her shoulders while they walked outside towards his car.

“Whatever!” She giggled, kissing his cheek softly. “You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me, you know that?”

“Aww.” Jonathan grinned, softly kissing her lips a few times. “I’m so lucky to have you. You’re the love of my life.” His arm draped down to hold her hand, not taking his eyes off her now blushing face, even when she was sat down in the passenger seat.

….

As predicted, the mall was absolutely PACKED. Crowds upon crowds were piling in and out of the various stores surrounding the perimeter. Leah had eyes on her goal instantly. “I see it!” She exclaimed, practically dragging Jonathan by the hand that she’d been holding. Upon realizing, she halted some pressure. “Sorry baby!”

“It’s fine.” Jonathan chuckled, sharing a humours glance with the witnesses of this interaction.

“Isn’t it beautiful?” Leah turned their attention to the glamours dress she’d had her eyes on. “I’m gonna go try it on.”

“Alright babe.” He watched her go off to the change rooms; dress in hand. A few minutes passed and she stepped outside the stall. “WOW!”

“You like it?” Leah clearly knew the answer, but a little validation was always appreciated.

He nodded. “You look beautiful. Cmon. I’ll buy it for you.”

“Aww! Thanks baby!” Leah kissed his cheek again, grinning. “You’re so good to me.”

“Well you deserve it.” Jonathan told her genuinely.

She was smiling from ear to ear while striding her way back to the dressing rooms. When she returned a few minutes later; it was like the expression of gratefulness never left her face. “I love you so much.”

“I love you too.” He placed a small kiss on her lips before they went up to pay for the dress. After, they made a few more small purchases at various other stores before Jonathan very suddenly stopped in his tracks.

“Jonathan?” Leah tilted her head in confusion, thinking maybe he’d accidentally left his wallet behind at a store, or forgot something else that was important. “Babe you okay?” He didn’t answer her, just staring forward, clearly nervous. “Babe!” She repeated again, this time it seemed to get his attention.

“S..sorry. I’m just not feeling well can we go home now?!” He sputtered out in a panic, grabbing onto her hand for a sense of comfort. “Please?!”

“Yeah you look a little pale..” She observed, clearly concerned for him. He’s never done this before. “Let’s go get a drink.”

“NO!” He answered significantly louder then intended, taking the attention of fellow customers. “Let’s just go, okay?!”

“Will you at least tell me what you’re so freaked out about?” Leah calmly asked as they walked back towards the car. He darted inside instantly. “Jonathan!” She sighed heavily as she took the drivers seat.

He started to sob uncontrollably, which only made her freak out more. “Please..”

“Oh my gosh babe!” Out of instinct, she wrapped her arms around him securely. “It’s okay. I’m here.”

“Can we just.. go home.. please..?” He asked through tears, though secretly he wanted her to keep hugging him. “I need to lay down. I feel so sick.”

“Yeah.” Leah sighed again, pulling out of the parking spot and beginning to drive away.

After a few minutes of silence, Jonathan finally spoke. “I saw someone I didn’t wanna see.”

“Who?” She asked softly. “You can tell me.”

Jonathan wiped a few tears from his cheeks. “That one baby sitter I had.”

His words hit her like a ton of bricks. She knew exactly who was being referred to. “Shit baby. I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry.”

“I don’t think she saw me.” Jonathan expressed hopefully.

Leah shook her head slowly. “That sick bitch!”

“I just wanna forget about it, okay? Can we just go home.. maybe order a pizza?”

She nodded. “But if you change your mind and wanna talk about it, I’m here you know that.”

“I know baby. And I appreciate it.” His tears were dried up a bit now. “You were always so kind and understanding about it. That means more to me then you’ll ever know.”

“I’d give you a hug and kiss but I’m driving.” She was relieved when he let on a smile. Leah often tried to make people laugh when they had some sort of emotional distress. Her and Brian Welch had that in common. Most likely why they became friends so easily.

….

Jonathan had felt a little better as the day progressed into evening. Leah’s general presence was very soothing to him.

He was sat comfortably on the couch next to her, softly tracing his fingers up and down her back. “I honestly don’t know what I’d do without you.” Jonathan whispered seriously.

“I’m not going anywhere.” She assured him. “I love you.” Leah smiled a bit before kissing him softly.

“You taste like pizza.” He chuckled, running a hand through her long blonde hair.

“I ate like five slices. So did YOU!” She reminded him before kissing his lips again.

“Yeah and it was worth it.” He leaned his head on her shoulder. “You’re comfy.”

“Tired?” Leah questioned, but he shook his head no.

“Just relaxed.” He answered, smiling while watching Leah’s two cats, Willow and Snowball playing together in the corner of the room. “Aww!”

“They’re so precious, aren’t they?” Leah loved her cats. The two creatures were indeed her babies. “It’s funny watching them.”

“Yeah. They are.” Despite Jonathan promising he wasn’t tired, his eyes were fighting to stay open. He let out a yawn, finally surrendering to his fatigue. “Mm I’m sleepy.”

Leah couldn’t help but chuckle at him. It was such an adorable sight when he was sleepy. “Alright let’s go to bed.” She too was starting to get sleepy. Besides, even if she didn’t fall asleep right away, Jonathan definitely wanted her company. It had been a rough day for him after all.

….

Leah made herself comfortable underneath the covers while leaning against Jonathan as he spooned her. “Cozy.”

“You say that every night.” He played with her hair a bit, smiling while his fingers made their way through her blonde strands. “But I’m glad you’re nice and cozy.” He paused for a second to kiss the top of her head. “Good night my love.”

“Night baby.” They two shared a kiss before falling asleep at their respective times. Leah was still worried about Jonathan, but in her mind all signs pointed to him doing decently okay. He was definitely holding her closer, tighter even.

A few hours went by. At this point, it had to be about two am. Jonathan had woken up suddenly, and was sobbing into his pillow trying not to wake Leah.

However, his efforts were in vain. “Jonathan? What’s going on?” Leah was still waking up when she started talking, so her voice was slightly hazy.

As much as he felt it would be easier to play it off and tell her to go back to sleep, he knew he couldn’t. “I..had one of those nightmares again. I haven’t had them for awhile.” He trembled, breathing heavy and heart pounding. “I’m sorry I woke you up.”

“No baby. Don’t be sorry.” Leah whispered, turning on the beside lamp so they could see eachother. Perhaps it would comfort him. She ran her hands up and down his back in a soothing manner. “You’re safe.”

“You’re an angel, have I ever told you that?” He leaned into her soothing touch, encouraging her to continue it, which she did with no hesitation.

“No you haven’t.”

“Well you are.” He said seriously. “Everything’s easier with you here.”

“I’m glad baby.” She laid back down beside him, keeping her fingers moving slowly on his back. “Deep breaths baby. You’re okay. You’re safe. Just go to sleeeeep.” As she dragged out the final word in her sentence, Leah turned the beside lamp off again. Her arms wrapped securely around him so he was being comfortably spooned. “I’ve got you baby.”

Jonathan nodded, not saying much after that. Leah continued to soothe him until eventually they’d both fallen asleep again.

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Nightingale - 37

Fandom: Naruto Pairing: Hatake Kakashi &/x Fem!OC Contents: Time lapse, fluff, angst, sweetness, smuttiness/smut, feels, awkward situation. It’s a bit random this time. A/N: As usual, ASK or REBLOG for tag! HUUUGE thanks to all who are reblogging already <3

Ch. 37

A few weeks have passed, and Uguïsu’s bandages have come off – at first leaving the hands raw and red but soon improving and keen to pull Kakashi close whenever there is a chance. It isn’t as often as he would like because the snow doesn’t put a stop to the missions, it merely changes the theme of them a bit as now roads have to be cleared for officials or merchants to get from one place to another. And of course the genin teams available double as guards – even highwaymen are forced to take what they can get as traffic has slowed to a near stop.

A new trend is rising this winter: randomly, spread throughout Konoha, lanterns made of perfectly shaped snowballs appear during wind-still nights, the light from the tea candles shining out between the gaps onto the crisp snow wherever they are placed. Toddlers are quick to pick up on the idea, the lumpy creations less stable than those made by the girls a few years older who carefully insert little sprigs of fir for decoration, making their creations stand out from the original maker’s.

...

Coming back from a mission, Kakashi is surprised to find both apartments empty. Uguïsu hasn’t been cleared for duty yet and despite the increasing number of acquaintances, she’s still a bit of a loner.

His blue nightingale returns in the late afternoon. Wordlessly slipping in through his window (a habit she otherwise had abandoned a few months ago), she curls up next to him on the bed where he’s reading and burrows with the head against his hip.

“What’s wrong?”

An incomprehensible grunt is the only answer. Putting the book aside, Kakashi repositions them so he can wrap his arms around her. She’s tense in his embrace, breath baited as frustration dances under her skin. After knowing her for this long, the white-haired jōnin is smarter than to keep insisting on an explanation – that has never been the way to get her to open up.

“Morino had a task for me,” the woman begins after a while.

Since she passed the exams, they had both known it might happen eventually as it’s a part of the agreement she has accepted to become a shinobi of Konohagakure. Kakashi...well, he had hoped to have been informed first even if he doesn’t have a say in it.

“They found a missing-nin in the snow as well.” The woman shudders at the thought of the season’s first storm. “All I got him to tell was the same as they already had figured out.”

A test. “Hm.” The distant sound of a dog barking can be heard. “That’s not what’s bothering you, is it?”

She shakes her head further away. “No.” There’s a pause in which the walls take on a rosy colour from the evening light. “The man was trying to spy on the genin-teams...wanted an idea of the so-called competition.”

When Uguïsu had prepared for her exams, hoping to become accepted as a shinobi on chunin level, she had been informed that once or twice a year, depending on the number of viable candidates, the hopeful genins would have to pass through three stages of the exam, competing as teams against teams, and later individually

“The exams are also a means for each country to show their strength without inciting conflict, not just a show for potential clients,” Kakashi explains.

There’s a muffled hrumph preceding the reappearance of a cute, disgruntled face. “Mhm. So apparently the exams are held for all nations’ candidates. Together. In one place.”

“Which is why we couldn’t have you partake in the official exams.” He brushes stray locks out of her face, earning a wriggle of her nose as it tickles. “I’m sure you’d beat them all, though, if you could have joined.”

Looking at him, Uguïsu arches an eyebrow. “...are you trying to distract me with a compliment?”

“Depends.” Absolutely. “Is it working?”

There’s mischief in her eyes when she reaches up to pull his mask away and softly trace his lips with a finger. “Worth a try,” she smirks.

Kakashi doesn’t have to think hard before continuing, sometimes earning an eye roll (like when he mentions the way she snores in her sleep if her nose is runny) but mostly coaxing smiles from her. By the time he’s slid further down into the bed, he considers the personal mission accomplished and revels in the sensation of the lazy kisses and her fingers dancing over the skin of his chest underneath his clothes.

If only I could...

During the months together, Uguïsu has grown more comfortable with physical closeness as long as it’s in the shape of cuddling, hand-holding, and other displays that are almost identical to platonic signs of affection. These are, the jōnin presumes, huge steps for her, and because of that he doesn’t dare move too quick even if he yearns to splay a hand over her bare belly or rest it on the thigh when they’re sitting side by side. Just the thought of getting to explore more of the woman sends his mind off in a different direction than intended.

“Hm,” her voice doesn’t quite bring Kakashi back to the present, “there you go again...”

The palm cupping his half-hard cock through the pants does, though, although he’s incapable of thinking coherently for a second or two.

“You don’t ha-” he begins.

“I know...but...can I?” Dark eyes are gazing at him through the lashes. “Please?”

It’s impossible to answer by other means than a nod even after trying to swallow the dryness in his throat away.

The caresses are hesitant, barely palpable through the fabric, and maybe that’s why Kakashi’s body responds rapidly. He lets out a sigh of relief when she pops the button and slides the zipper down to create more space, then a hiss as only the boxer briefs are in between the warm exploration and his skin.

“Wait,” he grinds out, reaching underneath the elastic to reposition the cock flat against his abdomen.

Slipping his hand out, he takes care to cover what he can out of an uncertain worry for Uguïsu’s limits – limits that are being rewritten right now and he’d be damned if he was the cause for any discomfort.

Even with the restraining layer, her hand feels perfect the way the fingers curve to fit his shaft and her thumb massages his sac testingly.

“Hnng,” the white-haired jōnin bites back a moan.

The question in her gaze as she looks up is obvious and answered by a short nod before she continues stroking the length and sending throbbing waves of delight coursing through his body. Kakashi’s mind has short-circuited but he wouldn’t have denied the advances anyways when the woman tugs at the clothes and frees his cock – he can only look in awe at the sight of her ministrations before letting his head fall back, knocking it harshly into the headboard without any of them really noticing.

“Wow,” Uguïsu breathes as his erection bobs of its own accord, powered by the rush.

My thoughts.

“How do -” she stills -”what feels good for you?”

She’s a quick learner and pleased to continue the movements on her own after he has wetted her hand with a slobbering kiss and adjusted the grip by engulfing her hand in his for a couple of strokes. A delighted giggle escapes the blue nightingale’s lips when he groans as she adds a twist when reaching the crown.

Damn. It’s perfect. Admittedly, part of the ecstasy might be fuelled by the (seemingly) endless time since anyone last touched him like this, but Kakashi can’t deny how right it feels that it’s Uguïsu rather than some one else. Lust clouds his mind and he barely has the wherewithal to prevent from thrusting into her fist as his muscles clench and balls tighten and suddenly it all becomes overwhelming just as her thumb spreads the beads of pre-cum over the tip.

“Wait! Sh-ugh!”

Despite scrambling, clasping her hand in his around the cockhead, Kakashi’s too late to stop his orgasm to barrel through his defences and concerns. Seeing white and feeling the tightening throbs, he cums with a deep groan before slumping back onto the bed.

It takes a moment before he manages to release the tight grasp, carefully prying away Uguïsu’s fingers that are coated in stickiness.

“I-I’m s-s-sorry,” her whisper is broken.

No. No don’t. “Please don’t be.” He kneels before her, capturing her gaze. “You did nothing wrong. I should be the one to apologize for -”cutting off, he looks at the mess of their hands -”just...wait a second and I’ll get something to clean it off.”

Somehow, despite wobbly knees, he manages to rush to the bathroom where he washes his hands haphazardly before finding a washcloth and lathering it with soapy water.

Uguïsu is sitting exactly as he’d left her, staring with huge eyes at her hand.

“I’m sorry,” Kakashi whispers as he sets to cleaning the mess away gently, “I should have thought further. Don’t feel bad, please...it’s my fault ‘cause I should’ve known it’d be too good and it was and then -”

“You...” she interrupts meekly, “it was good?”

Huh? “Well...yes, that’s why...”

A shy smile begins to spread across her face, making the jōnin's heart begin to race all over again. “Wow...I did...I made you...”

That’s when it clicks. Bittersweet understanding floods his brain as her words echo for him only. This is her having a glimmer of control over anything sexual...for the first time. And he knows deep down that if ever he gets to stand face to face with Orochimaru then he won’t hold back, he’ll make the monster suffer for all the wrongs committed against this girl.

“Yeah, and I liked it. Okay?”

Uguïsu’s smile is broad and almost swallows her eyes. “Cool. Can I try again?”

Huh?! “If you want to, yeah. But only if you like it ‘cause you should only do these sort of things if it feels right to you.”

Well, he knows that she likes kissing, so he has no complains when their lips crash together and she pushes him back against the pillow. He does have to stop her hand as she begins to caress his semi-limp cock, though, and explain that at least a bit of a recovery period might be necessary for him.

[nu-metal-princess]

Heart shattered: Jonathan Davis X Fem OC (PART ONE)

Hello my lovely readers! The following is a really sad AU. It’s not cannon in Jon and Leah’s story. Trigger warnings are in place for car accidents, death, grief, life support. Also, my partner and I came up with the plot together lol. See pinned post for character guides.

2015

James’s eyes peeled open slowly. His ears rung loudly as he attempted to make sense of his surroundings. The last thing he remembered was their tour bus sliding off the road.

“Shit!” He cursed out in pain after trying to stand up. “Guess that’s not happening.”

“James?” Brian asked from a different area of the bus. “Is that you?”

“Yeah.” James finally managed to sit up. “Fuck my back hurts.”

“My everything hurts.” Brian sighed. “Looks like everyone’s knocked out.” He observed. They were in the middle of nowhere and panic was starting to set in even more than it already had.

“Fuck!” James shouted.

“My phones broken.” Brian sighed heavily.

“So is mine.” James answered.

“Don’t panic.” Brian looked around the now severely broken tour bus. “Maybe someone around here has one that isn’t shattered to pieces.”

“Well that’s the best idea we got.” James reluctantly agreed. He stood up, wincing in pain as he did so. “Damnit..”

“You okay?” Brian questioned with concern as he approached his bandmate.

“I need a hospital like five minutes ago.” James answered, sighing heavily as he did his best to push through the pain. As a first step, he trudged to the front of the bus. There, he found the bus driver. DEAD. “JESUS CHRIST!”

“What?!” Brian joined James’s standing position, staring right at the body alongside him. “No…”

“This is bad this is BAD!” James shrieked in fear. By now, a few others in the bus had awoken in a dazed state. “SOMEONE CALL 911!”

“James! Take a deep breath. I know this is a terrible situation..”

“Okay.” James rubbed his temples as he tried to think of another plan. The people that had woken up were multiplying. There was a common pattern though; destroyed cellphone. “Let’s go get Jonathan.”

“Kay.” Brian followed close behind James as they made their way towards Jonathan’s bunk.

“He was sleeping at the back so maybe by the grace of god his phone didn’t get completely wrecked.” James sighed, trying his best to find a little bit of hope in this. “If we can’t call for help then I guess we’re going to have to walk a million fucking miles.”

“We’ll figure something out, okay?” Brian assured him.

“Jon?” James called his bandmates name as they got closer to where he had been sleeping. “Jonathan?!” James spoke a little louder. Eventually, he was standing Infront of it. His fingers carefully pulled back the curtain.

Absolutely nothing could have prepared James or Brian for what they saw. James covered his mouth as he began to cry softly.

“NOOOOO!” Brian fell down to the floor and sobbed loudly. “THIS CAN’T BE HAPPENING!”

“FUCK!” James joined his friend before they wrapped their arms around each other in a tight embrace. “I can’t fucking believe it. This has to be a bad dream! This can’t be real!”

Brian was in such a state of shock seeing Jonathan’s body laying lifeless on the bunk bed, his suit case on the floor nearing it. His shaky hands reached for Jonathan’s cell phone that was sticking out from one of the pockets. Once he picked it up, Jonathan’s lock screen photo was brought into view. It was him and Leah’s wedding picture. “Oh Leah..”

James swallowed hard. “This is gonna fucking break her heart.” He inhaled deeply as he dialled Leah’s number from Jon’s phone.

Leah was cuddled up in the bed that she shared with Jonathan when her phone rang from beside her. Her head tilted to get a peak at who was calling. She smiled instantly seeing her husbands name pop up, and wasted no time before answering the call. “Hi baby! How are you?”

“Leah. I’ve got some bad news.” James was fighting back tears as he spoke to her.

“James? What’s wrong where’s Jon?” Leah stood up off her bed in a panic.

“Our bus crashed Leah.” He continued. Her heart dropped instantly, and tears were welling up in her eyes. “Jonathan didn’t make it. I’m so so sorry Leah but he’s gone.”

“NOOOOOOOO!” Leah let out a blood curdling scream as she erupted into loud, heart breaking sobs. She collapsed back onto her bed and kept crying. “JAMES…”

“I’m sorry Leah.” James repeated again. “We wanted to tell you before you heard anything on the news.”

“HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN?!” Leah continued to sob loudly. “HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO.. GO ON? TO LIVE WITHOUT HIM? JAMES WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO?”

“I don’t know Leah. I’m sorry.” He let on a soft cry. “I’m here for you. We’re all here for you.”

“Okay.” She whimpered sadly. “Please come home..”

“We’re going to call for help… okay?” James informed her. “Leah. Listen to me very carefully.”

“Okay..” She repeated as she fell back down on the bed.

“Don’t hurt yourself. Please don’t fucking hurt yourself.” His pleading was serious.

“I have two daughters James.” She reminded him. “I couldn’t do that to them.”

“I’m going to call for help now Leah.” James was terrified to hang up the phone. “Please call back if you need us.”

“I will.” Leah answered in a small voice before hanging up the phone. Her hands shook and she began to cry again. With a deep exhale, she finally motivated herself to stand up off the bed. The phone went dead which signified James had hung up.

“Mom?” Alana’s voice startled Leah out of the trance. “What’s wrong? Why are you crying?”

Leah looked into her daughter’s concerned eyes. “Shut the door. We need to talk.”

“Mom you’re scaring me.” Alana did as she was instructed and then approached Leah closer.

“I got a call from Uncle James.” Leah braced herself with a trembling inhale. “The band got into a bus accident and.. your Dad passed away.”

“W..what? No.. that can’t.. what?!” Alana stammered, trying her best to make sense of what she was just told.

“I’m sorry sweetie.” Leah wrapped her arms around Alana, holding her close in a comforting embrace. Alana as predicted broke down crying pretty quickly. “I know.. I know..”

“Not my dad..” Alana kept crying out. “Why? Why him?”

“I don’t know.” Leah felt helpless listening to the continuous heart wrenching cries of her daughter. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”

Part two will be linked here when posted:

[nu-metal-princess]

I CAN’T LOSE YOU: JAMES MUNKY SCHAFFER X FEM! OC (PART ONE)

CHARACTER GUIDES:

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💬 0  🔁 0  ❤️ 2 · CHARACTER GUIDE: RAVEN SHAFFER Born: 2000 Family: Racheal Shaffer (mother) James “Munky” Schaffer (father) Carmen Shaf

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💬 0  🔁 0  ❤️ 0 · CHARACTER GUIDE: SAM ROSS Born: 2000 Relationships: Raven Schaffer (wife) Family: Peter Ross (son) James “Munky” Sch

2007

“So you’re SURE you’ll be alright?” Racheal hesitantly asked. “I’ve been worried about you.”

James tilted his head, his palm gently resting on his wife’s cheek. “I’ll be more then okay baby.”

“Okay.” A cautiously optimistic smile formed on her face.

“I’m all ready Mommy!” Raven, their scene year old daughter called as she trotted down the stairs. The child was holding a large teddy bear. Following close behind her, was her younger sister Abigail.

“Okay girls. Say goodbye to daddy. You won’t see him until tomorrow morning.” She reminded both of them. It was Racheal’s step moms birthday, and the three of them had planned to have a sleepover party at Jan’s and Racheal’s dads house.

“Bye daddy!” Both girls said at the same time before jumping into his lap. “We love you!”

“I love you too.” He kissed each one on the top of their heads before putting them back down on the floor. “Behave yourselves now.”

“Don’t you know they’re little angels?” Racheal chuckled before kissing James on the lips. “Bye baby. I love you.”

“EWWW!” Raven stuck her tongue out in disgust. “Do you HAVE to kiss every DAY?”

“Yeah I’m trying to keep my lunch IN my stomach!” Abigail added, earning a high five from Raven.

James rolled his eyes playfully; Racheal chuckled softly. “Bye girls.”

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Once Racheal arrived with her kids, the evening was off to an amazing start. She needed this, and the kids loved spending time with their grandparents.

“Is everything okay?” Jan had noticed Racheal’s anxious state every since the family arrived, but she didn’t wanna ask about it until the children were out of earshot. “You seem a little off, sweetie.”

“I just haven’t been feeling well.” This, although leaving out details, wasn’t entirely untrue. “I think I might be.. pregnant. I haven’t taken a test but I’m a few weeks late.”

“Oh love that’s fantastic!” Jan reacted too quickly, because Racheal clearly wasn’t thrilled about it. “You’re not happy?”

“It’s not that I’m not happy. I love my kids. Things just haven’t been great at home recently.”

“Oh sweetheart.” Jan frowned.

“James is taking his fathers death quite hard.” Her attention turned to her own father who was entertaining Raven and Abigail. “I’m just so worried about him.”

“I’m sure he’ll be okay sweetheart.” Jan smiled weakly. “You need a distraction. Let’s hit the drug store and get you a test. Maybe some ice cream too.”

“Alright.” Racheal sighed, grabbing her purse that she’d previously thrown on the couch.

“A lot can change in nine months.” Jan observed.

“We don’t even know if I’m pregnant yet.” Racheal chuckled. “Alright kids I’ll be back later. Behave for Grandpa.”

The two girls nodded, and with that Racheal and Jan were out the door. The car ride to the drug store was extremely anxiety ridden. “It’s better to know.” Jan observed. Racheal couldn’t deny that.

She bought the test as quickly as she could. Typically, she’d be tempted by some sort of treat to string along with her essentials but for now, her end goal was just to get out of there.

“Would you rather take it at my place?” Jan had noticed a bathroom in the store, actually quite close to where they were standing.

Racheal sighed, shaking her head before dreadfully walking into the bathroom to take the test.

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“Mommy!” Raven called with excitement as her mother walked back in the door. “Come look at my drawing!”

“Alright sweetie.” Racheal made her way over to the table. Her daughter had made a family portrait. “Aww that’s beautiful honey! Make sure to show daddy tomorrow.”

“I drew a horse!” Abigail proudly said. “Hey Raven we should call daddy and tell him to get us a pony!”

“A pony?!” Racheal chuckled a bit. “Well I don’t know about that.”

“Well we didn’t ask you we’re gonna ask daddy!” Abigail clarified. “Daddy says yes to everything.”

“Oh what am I gonna do with you kids.”

Night fell about two hours after that. Abigail and Raven were cuddled up in their sleeping bags next to eachother in one of the spare bedrooms.

Racheal wasn’t far. A heavy sigh escaped her mouth as she reached for the phone next to her bed. “Let’s call James shall we? See what he’s up to.” She mumbled to herself while dialling their home number. “No answer. That’s weird.”

“Night sweetheart.” Jan said from the doorway on her way into the bedroom she shared with Racheal’s father. “Remember, it’s all gonna work out.”

“Thanks.” Racheal smiled a bit, closing her eyes to sleep soon after. She’d drifted off rather quickly, only to be woken up by her cell phone ringing in her purse. “Who the fuck calls this early? Jesus Christ!” Racheal rolled her eyes before picking up the phone. “ARE YOU AWARE ITS 6 IN THE MORNING?”

“Is this Racheal Shaffer?” The other voice asked.

“Yes? What is this regarding?” She poured herself a glass of water, sipping it gently while finishing her question and awaiting his response.

“Maam this is Pete from The General Hospital. Your husband was brought here last night by authorities exhibiting signs of a drug overdose and had been making concerning statements to police officers.”

Instantly, the glass of water she had in her hand dropped to the floor. “NO!” She suddenly screamed, which sent everyone in the house running to the kitchen. “GOD NO!”

“What’s wrong honey?” Jan asked in a panic.

“Honey?” David (Racheal’s father) stood beside his wife, not taking their eyes off of Racheal.

“Mommy?” Raven’s small voice is what broke Racheal even more.

“I asked him if there was anyone we could call.. and he said you.” Pete said quietly.

“Okay. Thank you.” Racheal hung up the phone, instantly falling to her knees crying.

“MOMMY!” Raven ran into her mothers arms. “Mommy what’s wrong?”

“I need to go to the hospital.” Racheal explained through tears. “Can you guys watch the kids? Please?”

“Love what’s happened?” Jan asked again.

“It’s James. I really have to go.” Racheal explained, her heart racing faster every second that went by.

“IS DADDY OKAY?” Raven was wailing at this point. “WHERE IS HE?”

“You’re in no position to drive Racheal. I’ll take you.” Jan said.

“I’M COMING WITH YOU!” Raven screamed out, wrapping her arms around her mothers leg. “I WANNA SEE DADDY!”

“Raven let go!”

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Jan, Racheal and Raven made a beeline for the car. David stayed back with Abigail. The original plan was to have Raven there as well, but she was insistent. And Racheal didn’t have the energy to fight.

“He’s gonna be okay.” Jan assured. “He’s tough.”

“I don’t know what to do!” Racheal started bawling. “I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING DO JAN!”

“Mommy that’s a no no word.” Raven chimed in. “But daddy says it a lot.”

“Oh great.” Racheal sighed. “I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO JAN!”

“It’s okay mommy. Once daddy sees us he’ll be all better!”

“Oh I wish it was that simple sweetheart.”

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“You stay with grandma.” Racheal instructed clearly. “I’m gonna go check on daddy.”

“BUT MOMMY!”

“Please don’t make a scene right now.” She pleaded to her daughter. Others heads have already turned. “Wait here with Grandma.”

“Cmon sweetie.” Jan’s voice was in the far background now while Racheal rushed to the room where her husband was. One of the nurses was by his side, but gave Racheal her space when she was entering the hospital room.

“What the actual FUCK were you thinking?” Probably not the most advisable first words to him she could’ve said, however that speech as she now stood at the foot of his bed. He looked awful. Tired, sick, weak, you name it.

“I’m sorry baby! I’m such an idiot.” He weakly cried. “I’m so fucking sorry!”

Tears instantly covered Racheal’s cheeks. She buried her face in her hands and started bawling. “I thought I lost you! I thought you were fucking dead!”

“Baby I..” He paused for a second. “OH GOD GET ME THE BUCKET!”

Racheal passed it over, holding back his hair as he threw up in it. “Feel a little better now?”

“Now that you’re here.” He held her hand, carefully massaging her palm with his thumb. “I love you Racheal. I love you so much.”

“I love you too.” She wiped away her tears and squeezed his hand.

“It’s okay.” He whispered softly. “Cmere.” His head rested on the pillow as his free hand patted the area of the bed that was free. She laid down in that spot, still shaky from the nerves. “I’m really sorry Racheal. I really really am.”

“I know.” Her lip quivered. “I know you’re sorry.” She began to cry again. “I just need to know what the fuck you were thinking! We have CHILDREN! YOU ALMOST DIED!”

He sighed, tears forming in his eyes. “I know Racheal.” Small footsteps could be heard from the hallway, but neither one of them thought anything of it. James held his stomach, clearly signalling the nausea had returned. “Bucket, please?”

“I got it.” The nurse offered. She passed it to James, and again he vomited into it. “I know it sucks but everything needs to come out of your system.”

“I know.” James exhaled deeply.

“DADDY!” Raven suddenly sprinted into the hospital room. “DADDY ARE YOU OKAY?” She was crying hysterically.

“Raven! I told you to wait with grandma!” Racheal scolded. “I don’t want you to see this!”

“Hi sweetheart.” James hugged his daughter tight. “I’m okay. I’m just a little sick right now darling.”

“I don’t want you to die!” She continued crying, clinging onto him as tight as her little arms could.

“I’m not gonna die. I’m just sick.” He repeated.

“Well I’m staying right here!” Raven pouted.

“Raven..” Racheal sighed. “Where’s your grandma?”

“THERE YOU ARE!” Jan called from the hallway. “You can’t just run off like that young lady!”

“I’M NOT LEAVING DADDY!” Raven wailed out again.

“Raven..” Racheal sighed again. “I need to talk to your dad alone, okay? It’s important.”

The child pouted and cuddled back up to her father. “I’m not going to leave him.”

“Why don’t we go get you a snack?” Jan offered, holding her hand out to Raven. “Daddy will be okay.”

“Yeah. Why don’t you go with grandma okay sweetie?” James kissed the top of her head. “I’ll still be here when you get back.”

Raven eventually agreed, constantly looking back at him while walking out with Jan. “Bye daddy!”

Racheal broke down in tears again once her daughter was out of the room. “I’m sorry I..”

“No baby. It’s okay.” James held onto her hand again. “I have to stay here for awhile. I don’t want to, OBVIOUSLY but..”

“I get it.” She dreadfully expressed her understanding. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” He leaned in for a kiss and then paused. “Yeah you probably don’t wanna kiss me right now.”

“I’ll pass.” She giggled through her tears.

“I’m so sick of puking. It feels like my whole stomach is crawling up my throat.”

“I know baby.” She whispered, rubbing his back soothingly.

“And I’m really sorry I did this to you. And to our kids.” James expressed seriously.

“Speaking of kids..” Racheal began with a shaky breath. “I’m pregnant.”

James was about to answer when a nurse came back in with a social worker at her side. “Hi James how are you feeling?” The nurse asked. She had SUCH a bubbly personality which usually wouldn’t get on Racheal’s nerves but today it was about to make her flip her lid.

The social worker took a look at Racheal, a flash of concern plastered across her face. “I know this is hard, but I’m here to make an evaluation regarding your need for long term mental health treatment.”

“I get that.” James sighed, holding onto Racheal’s hand tighter.

“And if you need anything too. We’re always here.” She said to Racheal.

“Thanks.” Racheal replied, already feeling quite uncomfortable.

Racheal ran down the hallway, chasing after her panicked father. “Daddy!”

David stopped in his tracks, turning around to see his daughter’s tear filled eyes, desperate to have any grasp on the situation she’s in.

Cole and Troy were close behind her. David didn’t verbalize anything to his children. It simply was too painful.

The family all gathered around Abigail Hollis. The frail, tired woman hardly moved any of her limbs. It was like she was plastered to the hospital bed.

Her cancer battle was tough on her. She was unable to eat, talk, or move without severe pain.

“Mommy. It’s me. It’s Racheal.” She whispered through her tears. “Does she know I’m here?”

David nodded. “Of course she does sweetheart.” The next thing he was going to say to his daughter destroyed him more then anything. “It’s time to say goodbye. Tell her how much you love her.”

Racheal nodded, tears flowing down her face. “Good bye mom. I love you. And I’ll never forget you.” She kissed her mom on the cheek. “I’ll miss you so much.”

Cole and Troy came beside her, and repeated a similar process to their little sister.

“Bye honey.” David sobbed out. “You’ll forever be the love of my life.”

It didn’t take long after that for Abigail to pass. It seems as if the kids got there just in time. David would swear for years that his late wife was waiting for them.

Racheal blinked out of the flashback. Ever since that day, she absolutely detested hospitals. No matter how many years go by, an empty feeling always followed when she stepped foot in one.

James was unsurprisingly required to stay at minimum 72 hours. There was obvious concerns about his mental state. Once the nurse and social worker had finished with him, he turned back to his wife again. “So uh..” He swallowed hard.

“Yeah..” Racheal awkwardly acknowledged, knowing exactly what he was referring to. “Are you okay with having this conversation right now?”

“We need to.” He indicated seriously.

“I don’t think that we should be having a new baby right now.” Racheal twiddled her thumbs nervously. “Our kids need us. More than ever. Especially Raven. And you.. you’re not stable enough for it. No offence.”

“No no you’re right.” He assured her.

“I just can’t.. have a baby right now.” She put her face in her hands as she began to sob quietly. “I think I need an abortion. I feel like such a terrible Mother for saying that but..”

James cut her off instantly. “Racheal you are a great Mother. The absolute best Mother in the world.”

“T..thank you.” She grinned a bit. His support meant everything to her. “I just never thought I’d be in this situation.”

“I know.” He whispered. “Cmere.” James carefully pulled her in closer. “I love you. So much.”

“I love you too.”

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