Some personal note
I just needed to get some stuff of my chest, if you are here for fan art only, don’t bother reading this. Don’t worry about it.
It’s funny how as shitty as things are people seem to live their lives normally. Unfortunately that could not be further from the truth.
I just lost my job due to the Convid-19 situation and I’m trying to find a new job. Thankfully I have just about enough savings to help myself. I live in Singapore, so don’t worry about trying to help me find a job unless you know a way for me to immigrate to another country. But As bad as it may seem, I do not really want to send a call for help to anyone. besides, I not really writing this for myself. I am not too sure who or what this is for.
I suppose, if anything it would be for nothing as it just seem pointless. We just distract ourselves as the whole world is in a crisis and continue as in everything was normal. But normal was not working. This is worst then normal. We are constantly reminded on how little we matter or how little human lives matter.
Hey, remember how John Boyega twitted “Remember when the ants in a bugs life realized there were more of em and...... you know what forget it.” Yeah, we should just probably forget it, right? Besides we are not like the ants in bug life, they were unified. Nope, we have ants here that thinks that the grasshoppers are doing a great job and we ants should be thankful to the grasshoppers from protecting our anthill from all sorts of invaders. That’s right the grasshoppers deserve every food on this island because they work hard for it. We ants should stop complaining and work as hard as the grasshoppers if we want the same life as them.
We are not like the ants because we are humans. We are divided. How do you expect us to win a fight unless every single one march out there. Facing a enemy we can only hope to defeat. It not a single person. There is no one who is the worst person alone. It’s an entire system. It was design to be this way. The only way the it could be redesign if there was some way for the people at the top to benefit from it.
I know some might say not to loose hope. That there are some positive changes in the system though they are small. But don’t worry, I didn’t loose hope. I am sure that there are people out there still fighting, and still believe in helping others.
It’s weird, it ‘s like, you know the saying “you should never give 100% of your love to anyone” I always found that saying funny. Is there a dial in your mind that allows you to adjust the amount of love you can give? Anyway, I feel like that about hope. That you can’t give 100% of your hope.
If you give too much hope, you might get sad or angry when something bad happens. If you don’t give that much you can just go, yeah that no surprise. Like it has happen all the time. It seems down but also It’s sounds like you have given up.
I guess I am somewhere in between, not really hoping for anything much. Instead, I will just be thankful. Thankful of what I have for now. I will still continue to move forward. Perhaps there might be a change, or maybe not. I can’t know for certain. But if I spread a little positivity and help influence people to do better. Then perhaps, out of that, there will be something more then hope coming out, there will be action.