@xsacrilgious asked : ∗ 6o﹕ sender claps a hand over receiver’s mouth to silence them . -- Nikita
“ mas porque - ” despair will have her slipping into her mother tongue , searching for words to rebutte --- to fight back , to explain why it’s so important that the hales find out what happened to their own , but before she can get any more words out she feels the weight of a palm abruptly sever her fast-pacing thoughts , forcing her emotinal brain to a halt , clamping her mouth shut so nothing else will spill through the cracks . nikita’s the eldest , far more powerful being among them & she owns them respect , because she ought to know better ---- the why’s , the why’s not . maybe knowing would make it worse , somehow ? she feels compelled to stay put and not wiggle out of her grasp .
“ nikita , ” she mumbles , only half of it dicernable through her hand , making a last attempt to appeal her case . it feels strange to withhold information ---- a kind of lying , when her tongue was only ever trained to speak the truh . was this really the best thing to do? the question would not let her rest soundly at night , it invaded her dreams during the night and her tulmutuous thoughts during the day . “ i feel guilty ... i could be helping ... why shouldn’t i? ”