#xyraan

[oolathurman]

@deficd // guess who got sad about xyraan and jarrok again 🙃

I don't get to be selfish with you. I cannot live without you (not again, at least. I think that would simply break me), yet the galaxy needs you far more than I ever could.

I'm not allowed to demand you stay here, with me, because everyone else needs you more. You're the only one who can fix it all, and all I can do is put on a brave face as you leave, and pray you'll return to me safely.

I wish I could. I'd like nothing better than to wake up beside you every day, knowing you're mine and mine alone. I don't want to wake up in our bed, missing you, wishing I could wrap my arms around you as daylight begins to filter through the windows.

But I don't get to be selfish with you, do I?

[oolathurman]

for Kinktober Lite by @thelealinhypehouse heehoo

also tagging @valleyofthemachinegods >:]

[oolathurman]

She usually observed silently as Lord Honos worked, or at least she tried not to distract him too much. But she'd step behind him, wrap her arms around his waist, lean her head on his shoulder, all the while he studied whatever the Eternal Empire was up to. And he'd place a hand on hers as he spoke with Theron and Lana, and he'd intertwine his fingers with hers.

[oolathurman]

it’s my fav girl!!!!

pose and outfit refs

[oolathurman]

Xyraan’s favorite man, Jarrok <3 

“What do you think?” “I like it SO much more than the green hoodie.”

jarrok belongs to @deficd​

[oolathurman]

Xyraan has a hard time adjusting to life on Odessen. There weren't exactly many jobs for civilians on the military base, even fewer for individuals whose resumés consisted of modelling or sugaring. She brought up the idea of modelling for any propaganda posters or even fighter nose art with Jarrok, once. She immediately broke into a fit of laughter seeing all sorts of emotions cross his face. She didn't bring it up again.

Odessen wasn't exactly a fashion capital either, and worse of all her skin had been protesting since she arrived. She was too accustomed to the humidity of Dromund Kaas (which, to be fair, was the second most humid planet in the galaxy, right behind Manaan) and there was no where near enough lotion or moisturizer to combat where her skin began breaking out. (How humiliating, to have acne when her skin was so dry! It really couldn't make up its mind!)

But she knew how she felt when she saw him stepping off the Gravestone after a long mission. More importantly, she knew how he felt to see her.

That was more than enough reason to stay.

[oolathurman]

Was working on screenshots for my OC page and these honorable mentions

[oolathurman]

yknow i think with xyraan's aversion to marriage and commitment is also exasperated by the fact that she dates rich people and there's a pomp and circumstance and dance that, while she knows the steps to it, or she's worried that someone would call her out on being a wannabe or poser.

like with jarrok she's fully aware of the upper class aspect but if she were dating some rando then it's not an issue. she's just... hyper conscious about class differences.

WAIT BEFOTE I CONTINUE THERE'S A FUCKING WAITER BOT AT THE POKE PLACE I'M AY WHAT YHE FUCK

IT'S GOT A CAT FACE AND EARS HELLO????

IT TALKS AND IT SOUNDS LIKE WHEN ENGLISH VOICE ACTORS HAVE TO DUB A CUTE ANIME GIRL AND IT'S IM THE UNCANNY VALLEY WHAT IS GOING ON