Sep 8, 2024
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soooo i bought the entire trilogy and just finished the first book, the three-body problem. decided not to bother with the show and straight up read the original. i have to admit, despite being in stem myself, i never really liked sci-fi, especially hard sci-fi, because the majority of it is just too dry for me and i prefer fiction that focuses more on people's relationships and feelings (i guess we search for what we lack in life more). and in this regard, sorry not sorry, but i thought it was terribly written. as in, the style of the prose. i powered through only because of the plot and i'm glad i did, because in the end there are just so many fascinating ideas and this book fucked me up a little. i put off the last 20 pages for so long just because i needed time to properly digest everything i've read. proper mindfuck.
of course, ye wenjie was the absolute highlight of the story. i dreamed of a female protagonist like this! the one who doesn't heal from her trauma but bears it with terrible consequences. i kinda get her decisions and of course i hate her for them as well and the way the circumstances of that one insignificant life actually shaped the destiny of entire humanity is just... delicious. there's something so humane about that, even if it turned out to be ultimately anti-human. the parallels between her and the trisolaran responder, the irony of both wishing for a better civilization and willing to betray their own for each other unknowingly?? oh boy, i'm so looking forward to see how it plays out.
but please, PLEASE tell me there will be something more about yang dong. because this is the single most fascinating point to me emotionally, and i desperately wish that the mother/daughter dynamics were explored more in depth. the generational trauma, yang dong becoming an unwilling sacrificial lamb for her mother's dream. i mean, ye wenjie also had no idea it would come to this, right? she wasn't capable of loving her husband and that's a sad reality for many women, especially back in those times, but her own child? would she try and save yang dong if she knew? did she think about it when she found out? i know ye wenjie is an incredibly traumatized woman and obviously shut down because of this but i wish we had more of a glimpse into how she took the news of her daughter's suicide, whether she possibly connected the dots. did she regret it? she obviously doesn't regret her message to the trisolarans, of course, but... maybe i'm lacking media literacy here and i'm one of those people who need everything spelled out for them, idk. it's just so delightfully tragic, i can't stop thinking about it as well.
and just yang dong herself too. she inherited her mother's trauma but it was still uniquely her own. growing up on a military base, in isolation with scientists like her own mother who left little space for humanity. how science itself was possibly the only love they shared, so yang dong crumbled when it was taken away from her. unable to cope in a world that made no sense. i wish we had more of a glimpse into her mind and her character.
something tells me this storyline won't be elaborated on and it makes me sad. so much potential. rest in peace yang dong, you were innocent in all that.
All the evidence points to a single conclusion. Physics has never existed, and will never exist. I know what I'm doing is irresponsible. But I have no choice.
Suicide note of Yang Dong
yang dong thought physics was god, but realized life could fundamentally alter the laws of nature, and knew her mama sold out humanity to the trisolarans, and that if earth DID get colonized and humanity was destroyed, it would only further the destruction of the universe which would ultimately destroy any hope of life being able to reemerge elsewhere. sis was thinking a thousand years ahead of the game, could not cope with the impending doom, and noped out via suicide 😭
had to pause after ice’s nightmare about ding yi, and then flip to the front to reread yang dong’s suicide, cuz holy shit, is this is it??? was it not hopelessness, but understanding instead???? did she realize before anyone else that establishing genocide as the automatic reaction to another civilization’s existence (dark forest strikes) is fundamentally antithetical to the proliferation of the universe???? these cunts are literally destroying the universe, dawg 😭