feeling nostalgic and reading the poetry i wrote as a teenager once again. there are a couple ones written about that one time i actually thought i fell in love but this guy was just my teacher in a summer school and he gave me attention when every other adult failed me. i was 14. these poems are so dramatic but honestlyā¦ they still kinda go hard. and theyāre so sincere. he told me i had a bright future and maybe then it really was a possibility. but somewhere along the way, i stopped writing poetry.
randomly started rereading my old tumblr posts which is OUCH YEOWCH a bad idea in general. but this post got me. iām still going through a very difficult time in my life, and iām still deeply in love with somebody i canāt have. but i also started writing poetry again. and iām seriously working on a novel too. iāve realized that all my small crises over the last few years are actually just one big one, and for the first time i feel like iām genuinely moving somewhere. slowly but surely. it just took a whole lot of pain to get there.
