i wish i didn’t feel invisible
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i wish i didn’t feel invisible
I'm having a lil cry fest so Me, fallingforyou, she lays down and all that shit is queued up.
things i did today
got out of bed for 3 hours today, wrote 160 words of my novel. showered. did weekly cleaning assignment - wipe down stove & kitchen counters. left apartment to sit in the library for an hour. stopped looking at all the bright places reviews and slept instead. said two things out loud. thanked someone. prayed.
hoping that will be enough.
don't let anyone tell you sleep deprivation is a bad idea, you can and w i l l have a mental breakdown
sitting down to watch todays jjk getting ready to cry all over my sandwich
And you know because of that one elsanna Star Wars AU I'm gonna cry and somehow compare Star Wars episode 3 to this freaking ship
i’m having really bad anxiety rn because I want to do so many things but I don’t think I’m living past 20 I really really dont I just don’t feel it.
I usually have pretty good future sense. When I cant picture something happening it usually doesnt happen. I think about being older and don’t see it. I dont see it at all. I usually can picture things, every time I couldnt picture something it ends up not happening for some reason, why cant I picture it whyu whyhwhy
I’m scared
Well my face hurts from crying and there's mascara everywhere but I think I got some really vital issues resolved