On that same note from before; I do not blame/hold anything againt the people who have left my life be it on a good note or a bad one, Tho I used to before I have finally (I’m sure a lot of you wished it was sooner) come to accept that I was a terrible influence in a lot of peoples life, I was angry and sad and self centered and toxic and wishy washy like I could hold you close one day and throw you to the wind the next. Not a single one of you deserved anything like that, and I am proud that y’all took a step for your own mental health and wish you all nothing but happiness. To the ones that I loved and Loved me; Man, Words will never explain how sorry I am for anything and everything I’ve done. For every moment that I made you feel crazy and every time I’ve made you cry or angry or so bad it felt numb. I was a draining and gross person to love. Today, I wish I were different back then. But I cannot change that anymore than I can change where we stand. I hope you are doing amazing bc it is all you deserve. I hope that you dont even remember what it felt like to be with that chapter of me because you are so happy now that its been blurred out completely. I hope that one day I forgive myself for the things ive done to you. Because people like you should never meet people like me. So moving on and moving forward for all of us.
