You know looking back idk I feel sort of insane over feeling like that girl I mentioned in my last post was thaaaat much younger lol-
I mean...15 and 17 is like a 2 year age gap, so maybe it's silly to feel so mixed up about it ಠ∀ಠ
Idk tho! It feels weirder to me when I think of it as 'Senior and Sophomore' instead of '17 and 15'. I often find myself overthinking and stressing about the age gap. It's likely OCD, but I feel like I tend to way overthink the age gap. I'm actually fairly certain that a 15 and a 17 year old can like, date, but still. Idk why I feel so weird about it. I've always been really touchy about making sexual jokes with people younger than me, weirdly enough. I'm pretty sure it started when a guy a grade below me SA'd me so THAT sucks that all my issues started from him, but what can you do.
Also probably doesn't help that my sister had this friend that cuddled with me on the couch and held me by the waist while I scrolled on her phone looking at comics. She was like 17 (a senior I'm pretty sure at least) and I was like a freshman? I'm sure? So that also didn't help I think.
It's 1 am where I am so I'm mostly just rambling lol. I am EEPY. But it helps for me to write it down rather than just think about it.
I will say though, writing it all down while acknowledging the age difference isn't THAT weird while also recognizing I'm uncomfortable is nice. Actually helps me feel normal about it. I think my favorite moot has a similar gap in their relationship actually, and she is the sweetest little pie I know °\\\°
(Moot if you're seeing this - download Roblox RIGHT MEOW and play with meeeee!!! Also send me some fanfiction to read :3)
