sadist rhysand who was taken advantage of taken advantage of taken advantage of by amarantha utm and who emerges from it feeling uncontrollably violent towards anyone who covets him sexually and finds relief and release in inflicting pain on those who want to have sex with him but experiences shame around that because of how he himself was hurt 👉👌 masochist azriel who must hurt others to be useful and loved but harbors so much shame for what he does and who he is and hates hates hates that he couldn’t do anything to spare rhysand from his experiences utm so he finds his relief and release from rhysand enacting violence on him during sex to atone for that and shows rhysand so emphatically how much he enjoys this that it assuages rhysand of any shame he feels inflicting pain
