#yise

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How careful we will be if we knew which goodbyes were our last.

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“How careful we'd be if we kent which goodbyes were our last.” -Outlander.

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a day with a cat 🎄

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My parents asked “What do you think?”

What do i think?

What do i think?

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They say “Your life could change in a matter of split moment.” Mine did on that day. It was nothing unordinary about it. On a typical monday, the sky was light blue; there wasn’t any song going on the bass; i wore a sugary flower dress, and the smiles on the children’s face as i stole the glance. And then, came the opposite. In a split second, the sky darken its tone, all i could hear was screams and cries for help; my dress wasn’t as innocent anymore, and the smiles vanished. I stood still, without acknowledging the fact that the picture was going to imprint in my head forever. My 13 years home become my ruins. It is the disintegration of something; my heart, my high hopes for the future, and the sense of being a human. The what ifs kept invading my head space. If there had been a 2 seconds gap, could i have done things differently?

“You aren’t the same person as you were 2 days beforehand. How could you be?”

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“but i do hate myself for falling in love with feeling loved.”

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“Dear Major Gilbert,

Do you have any news? Are you doing well? Where are you right now? Are you having any difficulties?

Spring, summer, autumn, and winter… Many seasons have come and gone, but the one with you isn’t coming around at all. At first, I couldn’t understand. I couldn’t understand anything about how you felt. But within this new life you gave me, I’ve begun to feel the same way as you, if only a little, through ghostwriting, and through the people I‘ve met along the way. I believe that you are still alive somewhere. So, I shall live, live, live, and live some more, though there’s no telling what life might have in store. And if I can see you again, I want to let you know… that the phrase “I love you”… I understand it a little now.”

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Maybe we sometimes are scared to try our best.