#yoi pl0v

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Something about losing your identity to the shadow of admiration. Just how much can you give up before there's nothing more?

close ups under cut :0 and click them if it looks pixelated

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My shuffle keeps stabbing me repeatedly in the chest so everyone in the tag gona suffer with me. Today's Pl0v lyrics is:

But with you it's easy and painful, like a bite of a rattlesnake

Wake up in the night with a gloomy knowledge that takeoff is free.

Against the rainbow splatter the flurry of stars and cut up your cheeks,

Fly, little heron, - universe's chest is tight like a drum

Translated excerpts from song Журавлик - Олег Медведев (original lyrics under the cut)

I can't get over the splash of stars that cut cheeks. It lines up so well to harsh snow and ice crush that you get while skating. And ice crystals on high speeds can really really hurt

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Rewatch notes [01-03]

yoi is actually worse than I remember in terms of Yuriy

And also thousand more times heartbreaking, episode 3 kinda broke me. The fact that he walks away just based on seeing how Viktor looks at Yuri skating is ;-;

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And also Yuri's interpretation of eros program more or less overlays on what I see going on with Viktor lol. I do genuinely think he is that kind of guy. Free poet and whatnot. Chasing the high of adoration and challenge

[05] I am getting progressively more convinced that I did not remember wrong and Viktor Nikiforov is actually a fucking prick and a show off

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Also if you can read russian and like Viktor/Yuri P do yourself a favor and go read if you haven't yet. It's best writing I read in a while

Все что я хочу by Jelise_A

157k of actual painful slow descent into fire

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Yeah so anyways reason I even bothered to make a blog is I reached boiling point in my suddenly resurfaced obsession.

And I've been just thinking about the inherent tragedy of whole plot from Yuriy's POV.

You follow a guy who promised you help (which is already sorta heartbreakingly desperate), you arive there and what exactly happens? You lose your fucking name to a guy that hasn't been in this equation for as much as few months. Now you are named something that is not considered a full name in your native language, pointedly hinted at your place in this. Second, tolerated at best.

And you keep agreeing for this whole thing, clutching teeth and taking this humiliation ritual just on an a chance that you can earn attention. Outperform someone's free will to do whatever they wish to. To get care by force.

You don't go through it only on the sense of entitlement. I'm sorry I don't belive that Yuriy Plisetskiy is just THAT much of a brat.

Yes he is a prodigy but he is lonely to the bone, he has his cat, skating blades and grandfather in another city. Ofc he would cling to any semblance of warmth

And another "sorry", I don't belive in Viktor Nikiforov's character enough to just accept he's super nice person. For reasons I'll go into in separate post