pairing: boyfriend!yoonbin x reader
a/n: requested by @jisuings ♡ i had to google what a kuudere was and once i read the description i realized that i might have made yoonbin into a total kuudere in this omfg my bad (also can we get some yoonbin gifs here sjshssjs)
when you first met yoonbin, you thought he didn’t like you
because he had such a stone facial expression
*jihoon’s voice* just stone
and he also had a aura that screamed “hello, peasants, your ice prince is here!!!”
you were trying so hard to be his friend, but what was the point in trying if he genuinely didn’t like you???
right?????
instead of making assumptions, you decided to ask yoonbin yourself
“hey, yoonbin.” you tried your best to keep yourself composed. “please be honest with me. you don’t like me, right? it’s okay to tell me the truth. i just don’t want to annoy you if you truly dislike me.”
yoonbin was taken aback and you were able to see it in his face
that was your first time you’ve seen an actual expression from him
“huh? what made you think that i don’t like you?” yoonbin asked
not only was he shocked, but so were you
you were expecting him to admit that he hated you, but things went the other way
and now, it seemed like he didn’t despise you
not even one bit
“well, when we talk, you barely say anything. on top of that, your face says it all.”
“that’s just my face.”
yoonbin’s face 24/7: ( - ___ - )
he has a resting bitch face
yoonbin began to explain to you that he’s just like that as a person, so don’t think any wrong of it
“i actually like having you by my side. it’s refreshing because i usually don’t say much, but you’re so talkative with me despite that.” he added on, lowering his head a tad bit
he likes the change and how contrasting you two are
at that moment, he also liked you
as in more than friends
but he kept that to himself and felt like he’d tell you that another time
he’s so shy when he’s around you!
“yoonbin, did i already tell you that you’re my favorite person in this whole entire world?” you joyfully said while clutching onto the side of his arm
instead of responding back, he pulled down his baseball cap to cover up his face
you didn’t get mad that he didn’t respond back
because you knew that he was staying silent because he constantly turns into a soft wreck whenever you say such sweet words to him
most of the times, he lowers his head and pulls down his cap whenever he’s blushing
he’s too embarrassed to let you see him in a state like that
but you find it absolutely adorable (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧
i mean i would too
kisses between you two are usually very sweet
some people rush their kiss, but you guys like it to be very soothing and slow
sometimes, yoonbin chuckles in between your kisses because it just makes him remember how lucky he is to have you
yoonbin’s laughter is quite contagious because you oddly laugh too once he begins to
ya’ll are softies in the inside <3
an activity that you both enjoy doing is listening to music with one another
you or yoonbin would play a song
and you two would just listen to it in silence
once the song is over, you both would then discuss how beautiful the melody is, ways the song could have improved, how relatable the lyrics are, ect.
the songs tend to be more on the newer released side (so you two can experience listening to it for the first time together)
and if it wasn’t a new song
then yoonbin would play beenzino’s and dpr live’s songs
because he’d love it if his lover loved the same songs he loved
i purposely used love so much in one bullet point okay
guys pls listen to dpr live he’s my fav rapper and his music wont disappoint u DPR WE GANG GANG
every time you leave yoonbin’s house, you always come out with a new baseball cap or with a hoodie
at first, he would let you borrow his hoodies during the times you get cold
but now he gives it to you just because he likes seeing you wear his clothes
“take this before you leave.” he simply says, tossing his blue hoodie towards you
“why?” you questioned him as you stood in front of the door
“aren’t you cold?”
“not one bit.”
“okay, then you’re probably going to get cold later on.”
“i don’t think i will. i’m heading home and i have a bunch of my own hoodies that can keep me warm in my closet.” you tilt your head as you tried your best to understand what yoonbin exactly means
“well…” he pauses before he turns his back towards you “just keep it until the next time we meet.”
kuudere alert ! ! !
as talked about before, yoonbin doesn’t say much
you’ve never heard “i love you” spill out of his mouth
but you’re in no rush to hear him say it
you believe that he should take as long as he needs to in order to say and properly feel those three words
although, you can feel that the day will come soon
you believe so because yoonbin does things that makes you understand that he truly loves you in subtle ways
he buys you a bunch of mini gifts
solely based on the fact that it reminds him of you
“i saw this plushie while i was shopping. it’s cute and also it reminded me of you, so i bought it thinking that you’ll probably like it.”
“are you saying i’m cute just like this plushie?”
“ ( - ___ - ) ”
another gift he tends to buy you a lot are flowers
but every time he does this, the bouquet of flowers are always different
since flowers have symbolic meanings to them
he buys you flowers according to how he feels about you
carnations - ‘i miss you’: to signify that he dearly misses you when the two of you have been separated for quite a while
violets - ‘loyalty’: to show you that he is loyal and will always continue to be loyal to you, giving faith to your guys relationship
yellow tulips - ‘sunshine in your smile’: he loves to see you smile, so he gifts these to you on days when he randomly feels grateful to have you and your beautiful smile. your smile is as bright, and even brighter, than the sun shining on a summer day
❀ A/N: dont ask me for a part 3 :) your ask will not get answered :) anyways hope you guys enjoy this !! i really enjoyed writing this series hehe thank you for all the nice comments/asks/reblogs ! I really enjoyed reading them and it made me feel happy so many people were supporting me and this fic! and p.s. im not saying not to send me a part 3 ask to be mean, but im not going to write a part 3 so itll be a waste of my time and your time to ask for one
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I woke with a jolt.
I uncrossed my arms and looked around at my surroundings. It was raining hard and darkness was still surrounding me, meaning it was night time.
I eased myself down, feeling nothing around me.
Until I heard shouting to my right. My heart beat faster at the intense fear of being found by my father. But, my father would never look for me.
“Y/n! OPEN THE DAMN DOOR!”
Wait... I recognize that voice.
I quickly unlocked my side door and Yoonbin came flying in, soaking wet and all. I groaned and scooted away from him as the coldness oozed off of him.
Then, after the disgust, shock suck in.
“What are you doing out here? You should be home.” He deadpanned like he didn’t just walk to me in the pouring rain, and only God knows how the boy found me.
My jaw was still dropped in confusion while the boy just wanted an answer.
“Y/n, what are you-”
“How did you find me?” I interrupted. I was immensely confused and this whole night has been....something else.
Yoonbin sighed and wrapped himself in his wet coat. I rolled my eyes and took off his jacket, which surprised him.
“Start talking.” I snapped. The boy gulped and started to spill.
“Ok, after I hung up the phone, I was so mad at you that I wanted to talk to you face to face so I took off to your house. That’s when your dad answered the door, telling me that you left and didn’t live there anymore. So I asked him on places you would be and then... he shut the door on me so I went searching myself.” I nodded slowly, barely comprehending his words.
“Wait, where is your car then?” The boy gave me a cheeky smile.
“Um, I had to drive back home so that my parents would think I was home...” He trailed off, scratching his head while doing so. I almost let out a laugh.
We sat there in silence as he was now sitting in a short sleeve shirt and dirtying my entire passenger seat.
“I’m not going back home.” I stated with a stern look. “You can’t make me.” I mumbled the last line. The boy stayed silent.
“Fine. I know a place, let me drive.” He tried to get into the drivers seat but I pushed him away. “Yoonbin, dude-”
“Just trust me on this!” He was too strong for me and pulled me over to the soaking wet passenger seat. I closed my eyes at the disgusting, irritating feeling. My back and butt were all wet thanks to Yoonbin. I opened my eyes and saw the boy grinning back at me.
“Fine, I have no where else to go, I guess.” The boy said nothing to my grumbling but instead started up the car. We drove in silence through the night sky and pouring rain.
Soon, he pulled into a driveway, leaving me to raise a brow. The house wasn’t too big, but wasn’t too small. It looked like a normal suburban house in the area. I raised a brow at him.
“Where are we?” Yoonbin smiled and shrugged his shoulders.
“We’re at ... my house.”
My jaw dropped in surprise. The boy got out of the car and then grabbed my bag for me. Quickly, he came to my side and opened the door for me. I squinted my eyes at him, but got out of the car anyways.
“I didn’t know you were so much of a gentleman.” I joked to hide my racing heartbeat at the sight of his home.
What would his parents think of me staying over? What would they assume of me when they see their son drenched in water? Or what would they think of my tear-stained face? What would-
“Don’t worry, my parents are really nice people.” Yoonbin ushered me forward and opened the door quietly. He poked his head in, and then waved me forward.
I didn’t think he would wave me forwards if his entire family was sitting in the living room.
But he did.
And now they were all staring at me.
I recognized their faces vaguely and nodded and bowed to them.
“Oh? Yoonbin? You weren’t home? Who’s this?” His mom bombarded him with questions until she saw him soaking wet. “OH MY GOODNESS! I’ll go get towels!” The shorter woman sprinted away as Yoonbin gave me a gummy smile.
His dad stood and walked over to me. I felt my palms go sweaty and my head go numb. I felt Yoonbin grasp my hand gently and squeezed it.
Yoonbin’s dad was now right in front of me, his expression unreadable. He lifted his hand, causing my body to go into a frenzy.
He’s going to hit you. He’s going to hit you. He’s going to hit you.
Surprisingly, he patted my shoulder and peered down at me with a concerned look.
“Sweetie, are you okay? Do you need some water or clean clothes? Or some food? We can heat up leftovers.”
My body froze and my throat closed up, unable to speak.
“We just had some fried chicken, an easy meal. It’ll be real easy.” His dad continued, taking his hand off my shoulder.
Yoonbin squeezed my hand gently which zapped me back into reality.
“N-no sir, I’m fine. I just ate not too long ago.” Lies. I hadn’t eaten dinner or breakfast today. But I didn’t have much of an appetite anyways.
Yoonbin’s dad laughed. “Just call me Mr. Ha. And if you change your mind, just take whatever you want from the fridge.” I nodded and thanked him.
Suddenly, Yoonbin’s mom came flying down the steps with a bunch of towels in her hand.
“Here, here, dry yourselves.” She threw a towel at her son, then one at me. I caught it clumsily as Yoonbin had to retract his hand. “Why are you all wet, Ha Yoonbin! You’re going to get a cold! And in the middle of the summer!” She tsked. I bit my lip to hide my laughter when Yoonbin just rolled his eyes.
Then, his mom turned to me. “Sweetie, if you need something, just call us. First, you both need a change of clothes.” She shoved a pile of clothes at me. “Here, these are Yoonbin’s sister’s clothes who is currently working in Germany. And Yoonbin will show you to the bathroom.”
She glared at the boy, but then smiled. I opened to my mouth to protest, but she was already pulling me away to follow Yoonbin. The boy tilted his head in the direction he wanted me to go.
“Here, you can use my room. I’ll just change in the bathroom in there since I need to dump all the wet clothes in bathtub anyways.” I nodded and stepped into his room.
It was exactly how I imagined. The walls were a dark blue, close to black, and there were posters of random bands hung around. The only light source besides the lights on the ceiling was a black lamp that was seated on his desk. Clothes was flung around and I almost tripped on his t-shirt that was lying on the ground.
“Sorry, I’m a bit messy.” He scratched the back of his neck and blushed. I shrugged and gave him a small smile. “It’s the first time I’ve brought a girl home, so sorry they’re all doting on you.”
That surprised me.
Yoonbin was anti-social as an anti-social person could be, but he was an attractive dude. He had fierce features and a smile that made me melt. His humor was dry and he could be quite annoying, but he did have a caring side even if he didn’t want to admit it.
I mean he was letting me stay at his house.
“It’s fine, it’s the first time I’ve been doted on.” I said honestly. We awkwardly stood and stared at each other until Yoonbin cleared his throat.
“I’m going to get changed now, um, I’ll knock before I come in.”
I nodded and he gave me a tight smile before disappearing into the bathroom. I looked down at the clothes his mom had given me. I pulled on the simple black leggings and the red t-shirt that hung nicely on my body. I then felt the t-shirt stick uncomfortably to my body because of the wetness, so I stripped it off and dried my torso with the towel.
Suddenly, I heard Yoonbin knock on the bathroom door.
“Wait-”
Before I could respond, the boy opened the door, his eyes immediately landing on shirtless body. His eyes widened and I could see him visibly gulp.
I raised a brow and cocked my head.
“Yoonbin, what was the point of knocking if you were going to open the door before I could speak?” I teased. The boy turned beet red and shrugged.
“Um, I thought you would be done.” He finally tore his eyes from my body. “C-can you please put on a shirt now?” He stuttered out, breaking his cold facade. I decided to tease him a little more. I left my shirt on the bed and took long strides towards him.
He tried to look everywhere but my body.
He’s so cute.
I reached out and pulled him closer, inhaling the smell of his fresh clothes. I brought my head closer to his neck, breathing softly for only him to hear.
“Y/n, please, don’t-” He whispered quietly in a small voice. I ignored him and softly kissed his neck. His whole body turned stiff and his hands clenched, willing himself to stay still. “Please.”
Then, I raised my hand and flicked him on the forehead. “OW! What the fuck!?”
I laughed and pulled the t-shirt over my head.
“I’m starting to think you had ulterior motives bringing me to your house mister Ha Yoonbin.” I scoffed and turned away from him, who was still dazed from our previous encounter. “Yoonbin, c’mon, you can’t be that hot and bothered, if we stay in here too long, your parents will think we’re fooling around up here.”
Yoonbin then snapped out of it and followed me to the door.
“You’re something else.” He mumbled, a blush still apparent on his face. I smirked and shook my head. “And no, I did not have ulterior motives, it was an accident, ok?” I rolled my eyes but before I could say anything, he opened the door to walk downstairs.
Immediately, we ran into his mom.
“Changed already? Good, good. Now, I’m sorry to say this but we don’t have a spare room since we painted it this morning and it’s all stinky and chemical-smelling so you’ll have to stay in Yoonbin’s room, if that’s alright with you.”
I felt my body freeze at those words. What kind of parent would let their child sleep in a room with the opposite sex? Or with anybody really?
“That’s fine.” Yoonbin replied quickly. I almost glared at him. Almost. But instead I nodded at his mom.
“Ah, that’s fine.”
His mom nodded and winked at me. “I trust you guys, but if you do anything, just please, be quiet.”
I felt blood rush to my face in embarrassment and a sudden shyness and wonder in front of his mom.
“Mom! Oh my god, it’s not like that.” Yoonbin shouted with two red blotches on his cheeks. His mom giggled and hit him on the shoulder.
“Just joking!” She winked at me. Oh gosh, she thinks it’s like that. “Oh! We also heat up some fried chicken for you just in case you were hungry!” She picked up the bag she had on the floor and plopped it in my hands.
“Goodnight kids, and nice meeting you y/n.”
“Thanks for letting me stay here.” I said before she could leave. All of a sudden, she got a soft look in her eyes.
“Anytime, honey. Anytime. As a mom, I can’t leave a child lonely. It’s not in our blood.” She patted me softly on the head and nodded to Yoonbin before heading to her room.
I felt my eyes well up with tears at her kind gestures. First they let me stay in their house, then they give me clothes, food, and love.
Something I never received much of.
“C’mon.” Yoonbin guided me to his room and set down the bag of chicken on his table. I wiped my tears hurriedly so he wouldn’t see them, but they were falling out like raindrops.
“Why are you crying?” He whispered gently. I suddenly broke, hearing his soft voice. He wrapped his arms around me, shaking me back and forth to calm me down.
“Your parents... they’re just so nice.” I cried out. I felt the boy pat me on the back slowly. His hug was tight, yet I could tell he was scared of breaking me. I pushed him away slightly to wipe my face with the tissues he gave me.
Yoonbin gave me a gentle smile. “They are.” He rubbed the back of my head gently and pressed his lips against it as well.
“Um, m-my dad... he.” I took a deep breath, unable to finish my story. He then patted my back softly. “It’s fine, I don’t have to know if you don’t feel comfortable or ready to tell me. I’ll be here for you.”
I felt more tears spill onto the floor with his words.
“Do you wanna eat the chicken now or tomorrow morning?” My stomach felt like it was going to eat itself, but my eyes felt like they were going to shut any minute.
“Tomorrow.” I whispered. He nodded and placed it in the bathroom so we wouldn’t be able to smell it.
He started to take some blankets and set them on the ground.
“What are you doing?” I questioned out loud. He looked at me like I was dumb.
“Um, setting up a makeshift bed.” I shook my head and stopped him. “No, I don’t sleep with that many blankets, I’ll be fine.” Yoonbin gave me a weird look before laughing.
“Y/n, I’m sleeping on the ground. You’re sleeping on the bed.” My eyes widened in surprise while he pinched my cheek. “You’re so cute.” He mumbled.
I pretended to ignore that, unable to say anything when he was the one teasing me.
“Are you sure? I don’t mind sleeping on the ground.” Yoonbin rolled his eyes, not even listening to my words. “Positive. Now sleep, you look like you’ve aged 60 years from just today.” I rolled my eyes, but I knew he was right.
Soon, Yoonbin rolled in his bed and stopped moving. I bundled up in his bed, inhaling his scent on it. I wiggled around on the bed, feeling like I was sleeping on clouds.
“Thank you, Yoonbin. For everything.” I whispered, not thinking he could hear me.
A few moments later, I heard him whisper back “you’re welcome”.
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I woke up to a loud alarm.
It wasn’t even a song, it was just a loud beeping noise.
“Yoonbin, turn it off!” I whisper-shouted. The boy groaned and searched for his phone. I rolled out of bed and sighed. “Do we have school today?” The boy yawned and nodded.
I laid back in bed. “Can’t I just skip?” I mumbled. Yoonbin pulled me out and shook his head with a grin.
“Nope.” He guided me towards the bathroom and took something out of his cabinet. “That’s a spare toothbrush. You’re welcome to use it.”
Suddenly, I broke into my normal routine, feeling at ease with Yoonbin by my side.
I decided to go to school in the clothes Yoonbin’s mom gave to me.
I already knew school was going to be hell, like it always was, but I felt better with Yoonbin with me. He made me feel safe, secure, and like I had a friend.
“Ok, first things first, no one can know we’re living together. And second, nothing has changed about us now that we live together, ok? If we stick together like glue, people will definitely think we are dating. And that cannot happen.” Yoonbin spat. I felt my heart hurt at his harsh words.
What would be so wrong with dating me?
I didn’t bother to ask and just nodded my head, trying to hide the sadness in my face.
Do something y/n would do, don’t be sad.
I rolled my eyes and shook my head. “Okay weirdo, I’ll stay away from you. I do owe you one anyways.” Yoonbin nodded, almost surprised that I agreed so easily.
As we walked towards the school, Yoonbin walked a bit faster than me. I felt empty once he left my side.
Soon, Yedam and Jihoon caught up with him. I swear, these boys come out of nowhere. Jihoon then looked back to me and waved. I gave him an awkward wave back.
“Hey, y/n, how’re you doing?” Jihoon asked. I was confused for a second, wondering if Yoonbin told him my homeless situation.
Yedam nodded rapidly. “Oh yeah, that hit you took to Yoonbin’s body was pretty bad, as well as that fall. Are you better now?”
Oh, they were talking about that.
I laughed and nodded. “Oh yeah, I feel fine now. It wasn’t really too bad when I got hit, more surprising than anything.” That answer seemed to calm the two boys.
“Hey, Yoonbin!” Suddenly, a girl popped in front of Yoonbin. “Did you do that homework sheet from Mrs. Hong over the weekend? It was absolute torture.” A girl I noted who was in my computer science class asked him. She had long brown hair and big doe eyes. She was stunning, but also nerdy. Probably more of Yoonbin’s type than me.
The boy smiled goofily and put his hands in his pockets. “Uh yeah, it was terrible. I hated every second of it.” The girl laughed and held his arm while she did, something girls did when they liked a guy.
“Yeah, like she wants us to fail or something! Anyways, you going to the skate park this weekend? I mean.. I know you went on Friday but...” Her eyes flickered over to me and suddenly, I felt awkward.
Yoonbin’s eyes followed her’s and he shook his head rapidly. “Oh no, we’re not together. That was an accident, uh, she fell on me. You know Changbin, he’s clumsy and accidentally tripped her. I barely know her.” The girl laughed and brought her hand to his arm again. I felt my blood boil as he looked at her with kind eyes.
“Oh that’s funny! Anyways, see you later today then?” He nodded rapidly and I saw him gulp nervously. The bell rang and she took his hand.
“Of course. Um, let me walk you to class.” He mumbled.
Then they were gone.
Yedam and Jihoon were still on both sides of me, watching the same scene play out in front of me.
“Y/n, he doesn’t like her, not really, he’s just-” I held up my hand and rubbed the back of my neck. Jihoon looked at me with sad eyes.
“It’s fine, I know he didn’t think of me that way anyways. I didn’t expect anything.” I lied. I thought our entire relationship had changed over night.
I was wrong.
I barely know her. I heard his words echo throughout my mind.
I felt tears sting my eyes but I blinked them away.
“Whatever, let’s just get this day over with.” I walked ahead of the boys who were obviously distressed, but I had no time to ease other’s pain when I didn’t know how to ease my own.
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Lunch rolled around soon enough. I walked into the lunchroom, seeing Yoonbin, Yedam and Jihoon laughing and gooding around a their table.
I grabbed my tray of food and started to walk over to them.
“Hey, guys! What’s up?” The same girl came out of nowhere and sat at their table. Yedam and Jihoon’s faces brightened immediately, easing her into their conversation. It was a very different experience when I had sat at their table.
I felt my heart drop as they laughed with her, talked with her, and welcomed her as their own. Yoonbin’s face was smiley and giggling with her. As it should be.
People like her, smart, kind, bubbly girls deserved to be with boys like Yoonbin. She was someone who could make him smile. Someone who could bring him out of his shell.
I turned around, tears threatening to fall from my eyes, and dumped my tray in the trash.
And then I ran out the back door of the building.
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He never liked you. You can’t really be mad at him.
I chanted in my head.
I just ditched school and I felt amazing about it. The warm air hit my shoulders as summer was approaching.
It was a beautiful day.
It was unfortunate my mood was so sad.
I felt a buzz in my pocket and I pulled out my phone.
‘where were you during lunch?’ -yoonbin
‘on a walk outside’ I lied.
‘...why didn’t you sit with us?’
‘i thought you told me to leave you alone.’
I saw him typing which made my anxiety buildup.
‘i didn’t think you would listen’
‘well now im listening, aren’t you supposed to be thinking me?’ I snapped over text. I saw the familiar dots appear.
‘well ... thanks i guess’
I didn’t bother responding.
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I found myself walking back to Yoonbin’s house for some odd reason. I sighed and saw my car sitting in the driveway. I thought about how easy it would just to run away.
“Y/n? Hey, what are you doing back so early?” I jumped up at the voice. I turned and saw Yoonbin’s mom staring at me with a smile on her face. “Doesn’t school end in a couple more hours?”
I felt my mind try to cough up some lies. “Oh yeah, I had a bad headache after lunch so I decided to go home. I couldn’t focus anyways.” I lied. His mom frowned.
She brought her hand up to my forehead. “You’re warm, must be getting a fever.” She sighed and opened the door for me. “You should’ve told Yoonbin to drive you home. He doesn’t focus in class anyways.” I chuckled and shook my head.
“It’s fine. I don’t feel too bad.” She sighed and patted me on the back. “Go get some rest honey.” I turned walk to Yoonbin’s room, but turned back around.
“Um, by the way, thank you a lot for letting me stay here. I’ll be out your hair soon.” Instead of saying ‘you’re welcome’ quickly, the woman stared at me until I started to feel holes in my face.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with your home life, but I could never let you go home knowing you aren’t safe.” She then took my hands and patted them gently. “You’re welcome to stay as long as you like. I know Yoonbin seems like a pain in the booty, but he’s really a nice kid. You’re the first girl he has taken home, and he rarely even lets his guy friends in the house. He’s quite secretive like that.” She winked at me and then shooed me along. “Now rest child.”
I nodded and fell face flat into Yoonbin’s bed, trying to hold back my tears.
From the sadness, anger, and happiness all surrounding me.
“Go to your room.”
“Why?! I want to eat chocolate cake!” The cake was swiped off the table immediately. I gasped and tried not to shrink back in fear, but it didn’t work.
“You don’t deserve cake! You’re getting bad grades in all your classes! And you’re only 8 years old, you’ll be a disappointment when you’re older. GO!” My father yelled at me. His face turned red and spit splattered all over the floor.
I started to cry and ran to my room.
I felt myself cry at the memory, hoping I had found a better family.
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“Get up!” I felt the blanket being stripped away from me, making me shiver at the air. “GET UP!” I felt someone shaking me, which made me roll over.
“Why are you waking me up?” I asked numbly.
Yoonbin tsked and tried to sit me up. “You’re going to get sick germs all over my bed, my mom said you were sick. And I hate when sick people sleep in my bed.” I rolled my eyes and stumbled out of the bed. I could feel my forehead was burning when his cold hand pressed against my face.
“You have a damn fever. Ugh, you ruin everything!” I stood in silence as Yoonbin threw his sheets off his bed. “First, you ruin my perfectly normal, humble life and make it a big shit show! Then you ruin my afternoon with a girl that is actually normal?! What did I even do to deserve this?” He spat, falling on his bed. He covered his face with his hands.
I didn’t know how to respond as I was feeling groggy. I guess lying about being sick gets me sick. Karma.
“First of all, I didn’t ruin anything of yours. Second, why didn’t you just go out with that girl!? It’s not like I was stopping you!” I shouted. He stumbled at my volume. He then stood and glared down at me.
“Because my mom said that you were fucking sick! And that I had to come take care of you like you’re a baby or something!”
“Well, I didn’t ask you to be here so why don’t you just leave!?” I felt my head throb at every word I said and every word I heard.
Yoonbin laughed maniacally. “Leave?! This is my house, y/n, if you didn’t know!”
I grabbed my keys and said, “fine, then I’m leaving. I can’t stay here and look at you!” I turned towards the door but he jumped in front of me.
Usually, I let him do this, but this time, I shoved him out of the way and glared at him. “Why?” I whispered suddenly, shocking even me.
He furrowed his brows at me. “Why what?”
“Why did you even let me stay here?”
The boy shrugged and avoided my gaze. “I don’t know. I really don’t but I regret it now.”
I pulled my lips together and scrunched my nose around. It felt like neither of us were breathing and the only thing I heard were out heartbeats, or just mine.
Then, I sighed and opened the door.
“Fine then.”
His parents were nowhere in sight when I left the house.
“Y/n, what are you doing?”
“LEAVING, DUMBASS, WHAT DO YOU THINK?” I shouted loudly, letting my feelings out. He looked distraught at me moving to get in the car.
“Wait, wait! Just wait, just listen!” He tried to stop me, but I shoved him away. Tears filled my eyes as he stared at me with sad eyes.
“Just stop, Yoonbin. Haven’t you done enough? You’re already ignoring me at school, don’t you realize I have no friends? No family? No one!? I literally have no one but you right now and...” I shrugged while laughing.
“And that’s nowhere to being enough.” I said softly. I stood against the car, willing my tears away. I looked up at Yoonbin, and he wasn’t even shedding a tear.
“Goodbye, Yoonbin.”
I got in my car and drove away.
And he didn’t try and stop me.
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I didn’t know where I was going.
I drove aimlessly in the cold air with a throbbing headache and tears falling down my eyes.
I drove until my hands hurt.
And I drove until my gas ran out.
“Shit!” I yelled while hitting my steering wheel. I pulled over quickly and parked at an abandoned skate park.
Of course, it just had to be a skate park. Just another thing to remind me of Yoonbin.
It was pitch black at this point and I hadn’t eaten anything in two days. I was going to die and I wasn’t even sure if that was going to be a problem with me.
I hit my head. No, don’t think like that. Don’t ever think like that.
I pulled out a blanket I always kept in my backseat and leaned my chair back.
I was always alone. I had to do things alone. How did I ever think I would get a stable family with a stable life?
I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
❀ ❀ ❀
I only had enough money for gas.
I had enough juice in my phone to look up the nearest gas station and filled up my tank. I was sad to see I hadn’t gotten any messages from Yoonbin or even Jihoon, anyone, but it was expected.
Everyone pushed me out of their lives anyways.
“Hey girlie, you driving out here alone?” I fought the urge to roll my eyes.
“Yes I am.” I said curtly while getting back in my car. I drove off before he could do anything else.
I looked in my wallet and saw the 5 dollar bill and a few quarters.
I had to go back. I had to set down my pride and do what was right for my health. No longer my mental health, but my physical.
I drove back on the same road, regretting every second I was driving.
I parked my car and got out. I placed my hand on my chest before knocking on the door. I felt my heartbeat pick up as I waited for a response.
In about one minute, the door opened.
I swallowed my scream as my father pulled me inside
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He was sober.
I wish he was drunk.
He got clumsy when he was drunk.
He was precise when he was sober.
I felt a hit on my head, making me fall to the ground. I gasped at the pain. It hurt 10 times worse when I was sick.
“YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST LEAVE AND THEN COME BACK? WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?” He grabbed my flimsy sleeve and pushed me backwards, making me hit the counter. I hissed in pain at the sound of my shoulder hitting the marble.
“YOU COULDN’T EVEN SURVIVE ON YOUR OWN, YOU’RE WEAK. AND STUPID!” He laughed in my face while clutching his knuckles. I felt another slap hit my face, causing me to bite my tongue.
Beginner’s move.
I spat the blood on the ground out of instinct.
“YOU ANIMAL, THAT’S DISGUSTING! CLEAN IT UP!” He picked me up by my hair and made me stare at him. I tried to ignore the dirt caked underneath his fingernails as he slid them against my face.
I held in my tears, but they came naturally at the pain.
“Crying? How pathetic.” He spoke sternly. I tried to hide them, but it was no use. He already saw. “I didn’t raise someone so pathetic.”
I left my pepper-spray and taser at Yoonbin’s house.
I teared up even harder, knowing he wasn’t even looking for me. He was probably glad I was gone. I coughed loudly, trying to hide my sobs.
I felt him drop me on the ground and followed by kicking me. I grunted at the pain. He kicked me again.
And again.
And I don’t know how many times.
I felt my vision blur and I lost count if it was him hitting me or was it me just imagining the kick as they came at a constant pace.
I closed my eyes, feeling the fight in me give up.
Right at that moment, a bright light blinded me and I flinched to avoid it.
I felt no more kicks as I heard grunting and ringing in my ears. I felt someone pick me up and carry me away. Like I was floating in the air.
“You’re okay, you’re okay.” Someone yelled in my face.
“You’re going to be okay.” The same voice said.
“Y-yoonbin?” I mumbled out. I caught a glimpse of the face as I pried open my eyes.
“No, it’s Jihoon.”
Then.
It.
All.
Went.
Black.
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White.
All I saw was white.
Being in the darkness for so long, you forget what the color looks like.
“She’s awake, she’s fine. No major injuries.” A feminine but stern voice said.
My vision was blurry as I tried to force my eyes open.
“Ssh, don’t force yourself.” The soft voice said once more. I blinked rapidly and suddenly a full force of colors came flying at me.
I saw a smiling Jihoon staring down at me.
I couldn’t help but smile back.
“I’m so glad you’re okay.” He mumbled while patting my head brotherly. I tried to give him a small smile, but it came out forced.
“Thank you.” I whispered. He nodded. I looked around the room and saw Yoonbin’s parents sitting there. I gave them a small smile as his mom patted my leg.
“I’m glad you’re safe now. You almost gave us a heart-attack.” The woman tried to keep her tone hushed, but it still came out kind of loud.
“He’s in the bathroom.”
I stared at Jihoon.
“Yoonbin, he’s in the bathroom.”
I felt a rise of nervousness run through my body at the name.
Soon enough, the door flung open.
Yoonbin stood and stared at me with wide eyes. He was wearing a baby blue sweater and looked like he hadn’t slept in a few days.
As we locked eyes, I felt the whole world stop.
“Um, we will be waiting outside.” Yoonbin’s dad said as the three of them stepped outside.
Yoonbin took careful steps towards me, like he was afraid of me running away.
I scoffed. “You’re being too cautious, it’s not like you.” I joked.
Suddenly, tears started to flow down his face. He sat down in the chair next to me and held my hand tightly. I didn’t tell him it hurt; he seemed to need the comfort more than me.
“Yoonbin-”
“I’m sorry.” He breathed out. His speaking was deeper than usual and he had to force words out. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.” He chanted while tugging at my hands a little harder. “I should’ve-” I held up my hand to stop him.
“Stop right there. You can’t change what already happened.” I said sternly. He didn’t seem comforted by my words as his tears fell harder.
“I’m sorry.” He buried his head on my stomach. I patted his head gently as he sobbed even harder.
As he pulled away, he cleared his throat, needing to tell me something.
So I took the change to speak first.
“Why did you flirt with that girl?” I deadpanned.
He paused and wondered who I was talking about. “Oh, you mean Sooyoung? I don’t know, I guess I... I don’t know... good practice?” I rolled my eyes at his dumb answer.
“Then why didn’t you flirt with me?” He calmly looked in my eyes as he told me the answer.
“Because... it feels too real when I flirt with you.”
We said nothing for a few moments, enjoying each other’s company as well as wondering what the other was thinking.
Then, he grasped my hand tightly. “Y/n, I know I’ve been a jerk to you, and an asshole, and just a dumbass, but...” He took a deep breath, like he as struggling to say the words. I’ll admit, I was amused. “But I realize now that I like you, and a lot. And I know I’m bad at showing my feelings, but this is all so new to me and I’ve been a jerk, but I’m willing to change.”
He cleared his throat and looked me in the eyes.
“So, um, yeah, I like you. What is your response?” He said awkwardly. I gave him a small, yet sad, smile.
“Yoonbin...” I trailed off which made him flinch. “I like you too...” He gave me a tight smile which broke my heart.
“I hear a but coming...”
“But I just can’t right now... you’ve hurt me so many times, Yoonbin. So many. Not even romantically, but also as a friend. So right now I just can’t, I’m sorry.” I spoke softly, careful to speak my words gently.
His head was down for a second, but he lifted it slowly with a sad smile.
“I expected that. I know I was a douche.” I nodded. “Totally.” I agreed.
We laughed about it until he looked at me seriously.
“Ok, you might not trust me now, but that doesn’t mean you can’t learn to trust me.” I raised a brow and slunk back in my bed.
“I’m going to fight for you. Just like how you tried to fight for me and tried to get me to be your friend. It’s my turn to fight for you
because you deserve to be fought for.” He sounded proud as he said those words, like he really meant them. There was a competitive glint in his eyes which meant he was serious.
I held in my tears at his passionate words, but a few dropped from my eyes.
He wiped the stray tears, yet some still stained the white bed.
“Do you really mean that?” I whispered softly. He smiled.
“I mean it. One thousand percent. I’ll make sure you’ll come back to me, you’re too good for me to lose.” He said cockily. I let out a burst of laughter and ruffled his hair.
“I’m holding you to that, skater boy.” He nodded and held my head close to his.
“I never liked skater boys anyways. Do you think you can change my mind on that too?”
➳ summary: in apocalyptic world, is there a chance for you to find love?
➳ genre: apocalyptic!au
➳ a/n: gif creds goes to @hayoonbin! this was requested by annonue and i got too carried away writing it and uGh i love it so much!! kinda inspired by multiple zombie movies esp. the walking dead!
“mom, what are those?” your voice quivered in fear. You see your mom stagger up the stairs and run towards your room. she grabs a backpack from your closet and stuffs clothes, the first aid kit, and water in it. “mom answer me!” you cried out loud. “run and never look back” her voice boomed. You look at her crying face in confusion. she shows her arm which revealed a bite mark. you run up to her and sobbed. You felt her stroke your hair in a loving manner. “I love you, sweetie” she says truthfully as your mom feels herself turning. the bangs downstairs got louder and louder. “mom please” you sobbed. your mom suddenly grabs a pistol. “mom.. what are you doing?” you asked in panic. “after I fire this gun, promise me you will take this and run” she looks at you dead in the eye “no mom!” you tried to stop her but its too late. she pulled the trigger. “ MOM!!” you screamed in agony.
you woke up from your daydream when you heard a clunk at the other side of the store. In a hurry, you grabbed the canned goods and other necessities you needed and shoved them in your bag. you stealthily paced around the store to check where the sound came from. you peeked over at the shelves to see a zombie. Not wasting any more time, you threw your army knife at his head. you watched the zombie fall to the ground. you look down at the zombie with your knife on its head. “poor guy” you say out loud. you pulled the knife from his head and ran out of the convenience store.
running out the store, you were greeted with the fresh air with the smell of rotting bodies. you were used to this kind of lifestyle by now. killing zombies here and there, finding abandoned houses in the rich subdivisions or in the villages to sleep in. your main “home” as you called it was in the forest. you knew your way in and out of the forest in your town. though there are still some parts of it to be discovered. you are now headed to the front and you see a hoard of zombies ahead of your direction. you didn’t bring attention to yourself by walking cautiously. even if there was a zombie in front of you, you would just stab them on the head.
—
it was just a regular day at the treasure base. asahi, yoshinori, and jaehyuk were getting down from the watch towers from their night shift. byunggon calls everyone to the dining area for their daily meeting. “any news?” byunggon asks everyone who was still in a sleepy state. “nothing from the night before hyung” asahi reports. “hmm. I guess that’s like a daily thing now” seunghun comments.
as everyone was busy reporting the activities from the dag before, byunggon checks the members attendance. “where’s mashiho?” byunggon asks. “in the kitchen hyung!” yedam answers. byunggon noticed the meeting was awfully quiet.
“where’s jihoon, junkyu, and the rookie?” as on cue, the three stumble together at the door. “present.. for duty.. hyung” junkyu tries to hold in his laughter.
keyword: tried.
Byunggon massaged his temples at the three. “So, what are we-“ “hyung we ran out of food!” mashiho runs in. “NO FOOD?!” hajeongwoo exclaim in sync. “WHAT!?” junkyu screams in a high voice. “everybody listen up!” seunghun slams his fist against the metal table. all The boys stopped what they were doing. “thanks bro” byunggon bumps his fist with seunghun seunghun. “no problem” seunghun grins. “anyway, since we’re out of food, jihoon, junkyu, and the rookie here,” byunggon points at the three. “you three will scout for our food” he finishes. “great! we’re gonna go outside again” jihoon laughs, “and we try not to get killed yeehaw!” junkyu adds but ruins the mood. both leaders, byunggon and seunghun facepalm. “just head over to doyoungie and hyunsukie’s station to get your guns.” seunghun sighs. “copy that!”
“we’re in scouting duty again!” junkyu giggles. “ yep. but its our rookie’s first misson” jihoon coos at yoonbin, who just vaguely smiles a bit. “ aw come on, rookie! loosen up a bit” Jihoon throws his hand over yoonbin’s shoulder. “come on, guys. It’s not the time to—what was that?” rustling was heard. the three boys gripped their guns tightly against their chest.
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you are now walking through the forest. just feeling the cold breeze hit your skin brings you relaxation or peace despite living in a apocalyptic world where the dead wants to eat you alive. your train of thought was cut short when you heard voices nearby. you dropped your bag filled with goods and hid around a tree.
“yo! who would leave this!!” a giddy voice exclaims. “be quiet man! you’re gonna bring us attention!” another voice hushed. “careful, we don’t know if there’s a catch” a deep voice interfers. “please” the other boy scoffs, “like there’s any other—“
he gets cut off by you grabbing a boy and holding a knife against his neck. 2 guns were pointed at you. “drop your weapons” you demanded. they slowly complied and dropped theirs. Even the boy you held hostage dropped his gun.
“who are you and what are you doing here?!” you pointed the knife towards the two boys who were holding their hands up. “i’m jihoon and thats junkyu” jihoon points to the guy beside him. “the one you held hostage is yoonbin” he then points to the boy you’re holding. “we’re scouting for food for our base” he explains.
“what base? there aren’t any bases here!” you raise your brow at the two boys. as you try to get information from them, you didn’t notice yoonbin who took the opportunity to flip you around. so now you’re the one who’s held hostage. “FUCK!” you yelped
“oH MY GOD DUDE DID YOU SEE THAT?! BYUNGGON HYUNG IS GONNA BE SO HAPPY AND SHOCKED” junkyu jumps. “guess we’re taking you hostage, lady” yoonbin whispers in your ear. “we’re gonna take your food if you don’t mind!” jihoon smiles as he grabs your little duffle bag filled with canned goods. “FUCK OFF THAT’S MINE” you trashed around yoonbin’s arms. “not anymore~” junkyu says in a sing song voice. “c’mon rookie. let’s head back now” jihoon commands. yoonbin pushed you harshly and now you four were walking to their base.
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“you’re back early– whO IS THAT?!” jeongwoo screams over the intercom. “a stranger danger that’s what” jihoon mumbles enough for you to hear. you kicked jihoon’s ass which caused him to yell in pain. “DUDE! control her! she kicked my ass!” jihoon complained. “literally” junkyu joked. you snap your head at him and gave him a glare. “sorry” he says quickly. “you’re quite feisty aren’t you” yoonbin tries to give you a small talk, only for you to give him your best death glare. “cool” he replies.
you were now walking to the front door. their base reminded you of an army base with all the wires and metal doors everywhere. not to mention the watch towers and all that. “hyung! we found another civilian!” junkyu reports. “this time she’s a bit hostile” jihoon whispers over to byunggon. “where is she?” byunggon asked the two. “she’s with the rookie. oh my god hyung like he did a backflip and shit and the girl can’t do anything!” junkyu blabbered.
“it’s a girl?! hyunsuk and seunghun both piped up. “yeah–“ before jihoon could finish his sentence, byunggon, seunghun and hyunsuk ran off to where yoonbin was guarding you.
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“you know, you could always let go of me right?” you smile fakely at yoonbin who’s still holding your arms together. “no can do. you’re hostile as fuck” he comments. “what the fuck is that supposed to mean?!” you start to raise your voice. “this is exactly why i can’t let you go” he counters. you huff at your place and try to find something to distract him. you spot an ajar door. an idea came into mind.
“oH MY GOD LOOK THERE MIGHT BE A ZOMBIE” you screamed. yoonbin got startled, “WHERE?!” he looks around frantically. taking this as an opportunity that he’s distracted, you ran away from him. “wha– come back here!” he yells. you sprinted faster but he’s catching up.
‘for a rookie they’re talking about, he’s pretty good’ you thought to yourself. you were now running around a goddamn table. you hear yoonbin ‘tsked’ and slid over to your side. “FUCK DUDE IT AINT THAT SERIOUS” you cry out as you ran faster than ever.
he finally catches up and tackles you to the ground. “you aren’t going anywhere” he says coldly. “yeah i am” you argue as you fight against him. “do you ever give up?” he pants as he tries to block your attacks. “nope, never” you smile. suddenly you felt something prick you. “ow!” you pushed yoonbin off of you as you felt yourself getting dizzy. “wha– the” you slurred. the last thing you remember was falling and you feel yourself being lifted and you’re out like a light.
—
you jolt up from the hard bed. hitting your head angst a shelf in the process. “fuCK!” you cursed loudly. “she’s awake!” you hear an unfamiliar voice call out. suddenly, a group of boys scrambled inside the room. “oh wow” one comments. “oh no she has a bruise forming” another comments. “i got the ice” another announces. “damn rookie what did you do to her” one jokes and the whole group broke into laughter.
“who the fuck are you guys” you ask them. “damn, you’re right hoon. she’s feisty as shit!” a blonde boy exclaims. “told ya” jihoon’s familiar voice echoed in the room.
“hello! i’m byunggon. i’m the group’s leader. you’re at our base. you are another civilian we found around the area!” byunggon introduces himself. “here around me are the other civilians me and seunghun found.” he points to a tall boy who’s smiling like a dad.
“this is hyunsuk, yedam, jaehyuk, doyoung, yoshinori and asahi” he points to the boys behind him. “and you already met those three” he then points to jihoon, junkyu and yoonbin who was leaning against the doorframe.
“i know what you feel right now. so we’ll give you time to take in everything.” byunggon puts a hand on your shoulder. “mashiho, make her some food. yedam, give her an ice pack” he looks at mashiho and yedam who were standing outside. “got it hyung!” they say. byunggon stands up and walks over to jihoon, junkyu and yoonbin.
“you three, watch over her incase she plans anything funny” byunggon whispers to the three. “nah hyung, let’s just leave it to the rookie here” jihoon teases yoonbin. “fuck off” yoonbin rolls his eyes. junkyu winked at byunggon hoping he got the idea. byunggon looked like he was about to laugh.
“okay then, rookie, watch over her for tonight” byunggon smirks at yoonbin who groaned and threw death glares at the two idiots. “bye~” they waved as they ran for their lives after leaving the room.
you watched as mashiho placed down a plate filled with food. you looked at him and mouthed a quick ‘thank you’ he shows you a toothy grin and walks off together with yedam who shyly gave you the ice pack. they both ran off and closed the door right after. you were now laying down at the bed with your hand holding an ice pack against your forehead.
“for someone who’s gonna watch over me, you don’t talk much” you comment at yoonbin who’s just standing at the corner with a gun. “just doing what i’m told to” he replies. you scoffed, “yeah right, sure”
“why won’t we start with the basics, like introducing ourselves. hey! that’s a good idea” you open up a conversation. you hear yoonbin sigh, “fine. what’s your name?” he asks. you gasp and put your hand over your chest. “i thought you’d never ask!” you say. he rolls his eyes at you. “anyway i’m y/n” you smile at him.
after hours of just talking about anything, yoonbin hears your breathing go steady. indicating you have already fallen asleep. he quietly tip toes outside where he could leave you asleep in peace. he closed the door quietly as he could. suddenly, a hand grabbed his shoulder. “hey rookie” it was byunggon.
“hey.. uh hyung” yoonbin smiles politely at the leader. “i see that you did something earlier with our new comer huh” he smiles at yoonbin. ‘oh no, is this going somewhere’ yoonbin thinks to himself. “i need you to be with her for a few days. like give her a tour and all that shit. make sure she has something to do. is that okay?” byunggon asks. ‘fuck’ he thought. knowing he can’t say no to gon, he agrees. “okay” byunggon smiles widely, “ey! that’s our rookie! get some rest, you have a long day ahead of you” byunggon pats his chest.
yoonbin walks through the long hallways as he goes to his room. his room was kinda small but it has a bed and that’s all what matters. his neighbors are mashiho and seunghun. who are both busy everyday. he drops his gun on the floor, he opens the small closet and changes into his hoodie and sweats. he crawls to his bed, making himself comfy. once he’s adjusted, yoonbin sighs before being knocked out cold.
