‘You’ and ‘I’; No ‘Us’, Not ‘We’
I guess I should start by saying, “I miss you”. In this world that we live in to, everything’s temporary, everything changes, because change is constant. To hope that everything will be the same is selfish, I hope you are reading this. So, here it goes: We met each other somewhere, some time of a cold climate, we talked about ourselves and we laughed, until it was our daily routine. We did meet each other a lot because we liked each other’s company. Oh, right. You and I started staying up all night just to talk to each other. You and I started going to such places together during our free time. You and I promised that no one will leave one’s side. You and I started to talked about our future. And most importantly, you and I never made it to the “officially yours” tag. You and I just enjoyed each other’s company like any couple would. You and I held arms, hugged tightly, kissed tenderly, dated many times. But, we were nothing but temporary. You and I decided to part ways that easily, because you and I both have our special someone. Yes, you and I did all those things despite that we had someone in our lives. It was because, really, our feelings were one. Our feelings were real. At least, that’s what I’ve thought. Until, I learned that you were just using me. I learned that, I was just a fling. I learned that I was just someone you could spend your time with while your girlfriend is away. You did all that to make me think that you were real, that you are serious back then. I thought we had it at almost. I thought.. Really, it’s all a thought. We weren’t almost. We weren’t that guys who are “At the wrong place, at the wrong time”, because we are nothing but a ploy. Oh, I was nothing but a ploy. You had succeed in accordance to your plan. Oh, how naïve I was. How gullible am I. But, I can’t stay mad at you for so long, and I know that’s wrong. I loved you enough that I can’t let go. I can’t recover that easily. I let myself drowned by your charms. You watched me fall, while there I was, all along thinking that we were at the same path, at the same page. I had regret that I let myself stumbled upon you, while you were just standing upright. But, I will never ever regret I had met you, I will never ever regret all the things we had done, I will never ever regret I had love you. Because, it’s what I really felt a long time ago, it’s what I’ve wanted long before. That kind of romance you and I had, it’s what I have dreamt of. That romance that I have never experienced with anyone else.
Years passed, and I am still recovering. I hope you’re just doing fine. I have never heard anything from you ever since then, you cut all our means of communications. You had cut me off. Consider this as our closure, alright?
At least, I am my old self now, though a part of me is missing you and am sad, I am that joyful one again. That romance we had, I will just consider it as a lesson and a wonderful memory. I know you are probably happy somewhere in someone else’s arms. I am happy for you. Let’s grow apart. Let’s not forget it, but somehow, let’s at least remember and learn from it. I love you, goodbye.
