My rant of the night
Laying here sleepless, reading things that bring up the past I would like to forget. Why can’t I just move on with my life? Why am I constantly reminded of the dark person I was in high school? All I want to do is keep moving forward with the new person I’ve become, and not go back to the terrible, mean, nasty, defensive girl I was while I had a boyfriend who brought the worst in me. My high school years brought me many regrets that I wish I’ve never done. It was filled with great and terrible memories. I would like to filter out the terrible memories and just remember the great ones. Things are going exactly the way I want it. Why must you bring up the bad things I have done in my past? The past is done, the present is being worked on, and the future looks bright and great. My biggest mistake that I have learned from is creating enemies. I’ve learned now to make everyone a friend. Friends who will become close, friends who are always there for you. Friends who will defend you. I have friends already like that. My best friend Jessica and Danielle, my family at quiksilver, my friends who I have marched Pacific Crest with. My friends from school and people who I meet at work. All I ask is for my violent past to not be brought up. Is that too much to ask for? Good night everyone.