#letmemoveon

[noelle-xoxo]

Shut Up

You get mad when I don’t do anything and you get mad when I do everything make up your god damn mind what you want from me!!!! If this is the way things are going to be you can just leave and we can move on with our lives!

[noelle-xoxo]

Moving on!

Ever wonder why it feel like no matter how much we try we never seem to be able to move on from the past? That’s the way things have been for me the past few days. I’m a wife to an airmen in the air force and we’ve lived this life for 5 long years together and I absolutely love it I’m involved in so much stuff and I’ve met some pretty amazing people but at the same time I also hate it because even though I’m 24 and my friends are older than me it feels like being in high school all over again. I have 2 diffent sets of friends we shall call them fire and ice okay? So my ice group is having problems with my fire group but I absolutely don’t want to have to choose sides but I constantly feels like my ice side keeps trying to put me in the middle and my fire friends thought I didn’t want to be with them any more because of ice and honestly this shouldn’t be so stress full but it is and it’s hard because we all used to be one big happy group and I’m not saying that they don’t have valid reasons for why ever they all don’t like each other but I have no individual problems with any of you, I want to be friends with every one.

In all honesty I want my life back, I need to take my life back. I’ve not been eating right, I’m not sleeping, I would honestly spend every waking moment in my bed or on my favorite chair reading, writing and watching my favorite shows because that is where I feel safe that is where I feel like me the most. I feel free and like the weight of the world isn’t on my shoulders. I can sit there a lose my self in a book and never even notice the world passing me by.

[420techno]

Stop calling. Stop texting me. I'm done. We're done. I'm over this shit.

[heartacheslastkiss]

For you! Yes you! The one who flirted with me in front of everyone but secretly flirting with my friend. I wish you could just go and leave me alone. You’ve hurted me enough and put a scar on our friendship. And now all the hurtful memories from my past keeps on coming back like it just happened yesterday.

[taylordervishian]

I really would appreciate it if timehop wouldn't post pictures that I'm tagged in because it basically just slit my throat over the picture I just saw :-)

[noodle1993]

My rant of the night

Laying here sleepless, reading things that bring up the past I would like to forget. Why can’t I just move on with my life? Why am I constantly reminded of the dark person I was in high school? All I want to do is keep moving forward with the new person I’ve become, and not go back to the terrible, mean, nasty, defensive girl I was while I had a boyfriend who brought the worst in me. My high school years brought me many regrets that I wish I’ve never done. It was filled with great and terrible memories. I would like to filter out the terrible memories and just remember the great ones. Things are going exactly the way I want it. Why must you bring up the bad things I have done in my past? The past is done, the present is being worked on, and the future looks bright and great. My biggest mistake that I have learned from is creating enemies. I’ve learned now to make everyone a friend. Friends who will become close, friends who are always there for you. Friends who will defend you. I have friends already like that. My best friend Jessica and Danielle, my family at quiksilver, my friends who I have marched Pacific Crest with. My friends from school and people who I meet at work. All I ask is for my violent past to not be brought up. Is that too much to ask for? Good night everyone.