Light in the Dark
Summary: Phil is the RA (Resident Advisor) for his local college where he manages the residents on the floor of his dorm building. But his junior year in college is about to take a turn when one of his residents, who’s named Dan, is blind. Soon, Phil develops a friendship with Dan as he soon discovers that they were meant for much more than just a platonic relationship. He just hopes that his Alpha abilities won’t scare away the timid Omega.
This is a chaptered work. This is chapter 9.
Word Count: 1,786
Warnings: Mentions of sex and Alpha/Omega dynamics such as heats and ruts. Medical disabilities (Blindness).
Authors Note: Slightly shorter chapter because next chapter is family weekend and meeting the families and a bunch of super cool stuff! :D
“There is a lot of things that I’m scared of.” Dan suddenly said as he laid next to Phil. “And I don’t know if it’s because I’ve never experienced them or that my mind is making it so hard for me to process it happening to me.”
Phil, at the time, had no idea what Dan was referring to. But he let Dan continue as he began just spewing out words in never ending streams.
“Like, colors for example.” He began. “I have no idea what a ‘color’ is? How does one to describe to me what blue looks like, or black? People say I wear black alot but I don’t know. I could be dressed in something and never know the color. The other day, I wore white pants and Beth told me that my underwear could be seen through them because they were pink. But how was I to know that? I would have went my entire day not knowing that.”
Dan paused for a moment to catch a breath before continuing.
“And then, people tell me how my face is flushed red. But what is red? What color is my face? I also apparently have brown eyes and brown hair. But all I know is that it means they’re dark. But what is dark? What is the difference between light and dark? I just...I don’t get it because I’ve never seen it and that scares me.”
“It’s okay to be scared of something.” Phil said when Dan was done. “It’s always valid to be afraid.”
“But the thing is that I’m afraid of things that I shouldn’t be afraid of. Like, who the fuck is afraid of a color?”
“I’m sure you’re not the only one.” Phil said, hoping to give Dan some positivity.
Dan just shrugged.
“And how is one afraid of sex?”
Phil turned his head to look at the blushing male. “What do you mean?”
Dan sighed. “I’m really scared of sex. And--and I don’t even--I don’t even know why I’m telling you this. This is embarrassing.”
“It’s not embarrassing.” Phil said. “But maybe talking it out with someone who has had sex will make you feel better about it? I don’t know how much you want to discuss with me though.”
“Well, that’s the thing too.” Dan said. “My sister told me a while ago that I’d know when I met my soulmate because my hormones would become weird and I’ll start smelling more of them whenever I’m around them...and I met you and...I really trust you.”
Phil smiled at him. “Are you insisting that you think we’re soulmates?”
Dan blushed even redder. “I don’t know. Kind of.”
“Well,” Phil said leaning forward, pressing his hand gently on Dan’s hot flesh, “I think we are too.”
Dan’s lips curled into a smile as Phil leaned forward, kissing him gently again. It was all completely innocent. Their lips moving over each other. Despite Dan being inexperienced, he still was a great kisser in Phil’s opinion. Phil continued the innocent kiss before taking a chance and licking over Dan’s bottom lip, asking for entrance. Dan’s face scrunched up and Phil decided that he wasn’t ready for that yet. So he didn’t do anything more. He pressed down a little bit more into the kiss before disconnecting them.
“I wish I could see what you looked like.” Dan said. “I keep imagining you in my head but I’m scared my image is wrong.”
“That’s kind of amazing that you can paint a mental picture of me.” Phil said.
Dan shrugged. “Maybe it’s because my body knows you’re my soulmate.”
“Maybe.” Phil said. But then he got thinking. He wanted Dan to talk to him about his fears. Phil knew that mates were going to have to have sex eventually. Heats and ruts would need to be shared if they were to complete the mating bond. And plus, if they ever wanted babies, Dan would need to open up himself to bear them. Why was he thinking of that? He didn’t even know what was going to happen between them and now he’s thinking of impregnating Dan.
“But let’s discuss you for a moment. Why does sex scare you?”
Dan shrugged again. “I don’t know. I think it all comes down to the idea that I don’t know what sex really is. Like, of course I know it’s intimate and it’s--well--sex. But what does it entail?”
Phil blushed. He felt like he was about to give a sex-ed lesson to a pre-pubescent teenager in a Health Class.
“Like, I know what happens during sex. But does it hurt? What does it feel like? Can you describe it?”
Phil laid back and let himself think it over in his head. He’s only had sex with one person so he didn’t have too much experience but he knew some basics.
“It’s...it can be incredible. Peak pleasure and euphoria at it’s climax.”
“Does it hurt?”
“Define hurt?”
Dan blushed and hid his face in Phil’s neck. “Does it hurt when someone...puts their dick inside you?”
Phil chuckled. “I don’t know if it hurts because I’ve always been on the giving end. But I don’t want to lie. I think it does hurt a little. And I learned when I was younger that Omega’s always hurt a little bit more when they’re virgins because of their body accommodating the Alpha size for the first time.”
Dan’s breathing heightened against Phil’s neck, making his skin damp. “So it is going to hurt me.”
“But I’d take such amazing care of you.” Phil doesn’t know why he uses himself as a way to help Dan out. He didn't know if Dan would ever sleep with him or mate with him. He kind of figured he would given that Dan already told him he thought they were soulmates which was exactly Phil’s own thoughts. “I’d make sure you never were pain. Just pleasure.”
Dan smiled into Phil’s neck. But then Phil felt it quickly fall.
Dan picked his neck up from Phil’s neck and looked towards Phil’s general direction. His expression was now completely serious. “I’ve been leaking slick for a few days now.” He said softly. “I woke up one morning with sheets soaked and I didn’t know what it was. I called Beth immediately and she came over. She told me instantly that it was slick. It terrified me…”
Phil felt his breath catch in his throat.
“That was the day that I told you that I thought my pills weren’t working.” Dan paused. “But then it stopped and now it’s starting again. And I think I’m going to go into heat soon. My hormones are weird. I have to shower often because my skin is flushed. You can probably feel it. I keep having wet dreams at night and I often need release. I...I think it’s coming soon and I don’t know what to do.”
Phil rubbed his hand over Dan’s back. “What do you think you want to do?”
“I want help when I go through it.” Dan bit his lip. “Do you think you could help me?”
Phil took a deep inhale of air. He let it out slowly. “Dan...if I smell your heat, I won’t be able to control myself. My alpha instincts will take over and I’m going to need to take you.”
“Then I give you permission to!” Dan said confidently--even though his lip was trembling.
“Dan,” Phil said again. “You don’t want that. You don’t want to have you first heat taken by an Alpha who can’t control themselves. I’d love to help you, but I’m afraid of what I’d do. My body and mind will become intoxicated by your heat. I can hurt you.”
Phil watched as Dan’s eyes glazed over, something he had never seen before, and then tears run down his cheeks. Phil immediately pulled Dan to him and held him. “Then what do I do?” He cried. “What do I do?’
“Well,” Phil said, “We can do a few things. I can buy you toys and you can go through it on your own. Or...we can do something prior to your heat so you’ll know what it feels like?”
“But then I won’t be pure for my mating.” Dan spoke.
“I don’t care about Dan.” Phil said, running his hand over Dan’s hair, pulling gently on the curls. “When we mate, I won’t care that there is no blood. I’ll just want you.”
Dan’s body tensed but then relaxed almost simultaneously. “Are you suggesting we have sex?”
“Well, it doesn’t have to be like that.” Phil said. “We can just be like how we are know and if something happens, then it happens. And if we happen to not do anything before your heat, then I’ll buy you toys and we’ll get through this.”
“But I’ll want you during my heat.” Dan said. “I know I will.”
“Then we’ll figure it out.” Phil said. “Soon.”
Phil paused and leaned down, kissing the top of Dan’s head.
“Let’s just relax right now. We don’t have to discuss anything else right now.”
Dan nodded against him and shut his eyes. Phil watched as Dan’s breathing evened out. He might not be asleep, but his body was completed relaxed against an Alpha and that’s all Phil wanted from Dan. He wanted for Dan to never be hurt and never be tense.
He just wanted to hold Dan forever.
The next morning, Phil was surprised to wake up and see Dan still sleeping beside him. He didn’t remember ever falling asleep. All he remembered was just talking with Dan and then them telling stories of their families.
And as they were talking, it reminded Phil that fall break was next week and that also meant Family Weekend was next week too. Which also meant his family would want to come to campus that weekend to do every. single. event. But that meant he could introduce them to Dan.
Dan said he’d tell Beth about it. Apparently he just has Beth as a sibling and then his parents, much like Phil did with just his older brother. When Phil asked him if Dan was going to invite his family, Dan sighed, and said that he didn’t know if his family would come.
But then as they were sitting in Phil’s room, Dan’s iPad went off and began reading to him a text message from Beth that said that their parents were definitely going to come.
So now, Phil looked over to Dan and smiled slightly. He was going to meet Dan’s parents...and that was actually kind of exciting to him.
In a weird way.
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