Sigh, here's the post I've been dreading so much. I feel you guys deserve this much, so I just want to say why I'm leaving, what's going on and remind you all that I love you so so so much.
Okay, so first of all I guess I'll say why I'm leaving. I don't know if anyone's noticed my absence at all, but I haven't actually been coming onto tumblr that much at all for the past couple of months. School's really been getting to me, and I've been super busy with all sorts of things. Even with the tumblr app on my phone, I actually didn't even want to open it...and that kinda sucks. So by then I had kind of realised I started to dislike tumblr. I didn't like that I couldn't be there for people because that's all I was here for in the first place, ugh. School is actually getting even harder then it was in the first place, and I have to spend more time then I already do on school which also really freaking sucks. I don't have the free time that I had before to spend here on tumblr :( My 'free time' consists of studying. I'm so sorry because I feel like I haven't been the best anon and ugh. The anonworld is really getting hard to deal with without getting pissed aswell, so much drama and just I can't deal with all of that anymore.
I've been on tumblr for around three years and this is a little hard for me to conclude. I'm finally leaving after all this time. I want to take out some time just to give some special mentions to some of the people I've been really close friends with here on tumblr.. ily . I'll put in a read more because it's gonna get long from here
First of all, Ariel.
I was sort of on a quest of sorts to find Ariel. She was (is) basically my best friend here on tumblr, she was the first person that I met, and we instantly hit it off. She just disappeared one day, and she never answered my texts or anyone's texts or phone calls or anything. I'm really sad to say I still haven't found her. I've gotten to the point where I can only hope she's okay. Baby, ily, and hopefuly we'll find each other. "If It's meant to be, it'll happen" I guess. I love you my favourite little cookie.
Next up, is Jasmine.
Oh my, Jasmine is seriously my little guardian angel. This girl has made me feel better more times then I can count and she has saved my life, literally. Anytime I was feeling depressed I could just skype her, and she would automatically make me feel better. Girl, I love you, and we can deffo talk on aim or skype or whatever, ilysm.
Thirdly, is Sara.
This girl is so important omg. I'm not even complaining because we have eachother on basically every social media and talk all the time I'm literally not even worried. Sara is a star and she's gorgeous inside and out and just i love her so much, ah baby.
Next, is Rafa.
I just, ah. I'm not sure where to start. Rafa is a life saver, and the amount of times that we've been there for eachother- through thick and through thin we've made it through and though we don't speak much anymore sigh, Rafa is still a really important person and such a special person and I'll always remember her. Baby, ily ily ily.
Then, it's Jess.
Jess. Jess. Jess.
Jess who always gets scared that I forgot about her, Jess who is innocent and sweet, Jess who is beautiful in all the different ways possible- I love you, and I'm most apologetic to you that I'm leaving, I guess because I remember telling you I never would. I'm really sorry love, I hope you'll forgive me. You're a fighter and I love you and I never want you to stop fighting, and ah baby stay strong through everything, and remember I'm alllwaaayyyyssss hereeee forrrrr youuuuuuuu. You can totally still stay in contact with me, I'll drop all my links at the end of this post baby.
Finally, is the girl I value most. Shaina. (Deactivated.)
you are the only person who deactivated that I still wanted to pay respects and tributes to/for, because you my little darling are one of the best things that have happened to me. I'll probably text you the link to read this since you deactivated, but Shaina you have no idea how special you are to me. You make me so happy, you make me smile and giggle and laugh and blush and you make me think of myself as things I don't think of myself as and you really are one of the reasons as to why my recovery is so good, you keep my emotions in check I guess and baby I love you smmmmm idk what else to write, but just know that okay. Nothing will ever get between us, ily.
So, That's really it for the special mentions. Thank you to every single person who has ever come to me for help, accepted my advice, ever been there for me- just thank you to everyone who has made my tumblr experience so wonderful. I'll truly never forget you guys. Ever ever ever ever EVER. Okay, I'm going to leave my blog up, I'm not going to deactivate, so that if anyone needs advice or anything, they can just read through my tumblr.. Goodbye guys.
PS: I love you all very very much, you are all so so special. Weather we have spoken before or not, know that there is always a way out of things, and taking it all out on yourself is never the answer. Just because I'm not on tumblr anymore, doesn't mean that other people can't help you. Check my they care page here. Also, stay in contact with me through the following links:
Kik- roubamustafa
Skype- rouba.mustafa
instagram- rxbysmith
facebook (ew) - here
I think that's really all the sites that you'll easily get in contact with me on.. that's it for now, bye bye:)
