Slasher Yourself rather than being a hired killer like Jason yourself is in fact a copy cat killer, attempting to gain the popularity of the original.
Noli yourself has a shrine to Noli in the killer cabins, the Real Noli often tries to mess with the void cultist by moving things ever so slightly to the left(this does in fact drive the cultist insane)
Azure Yourself, the original host of the body(yourself) can actually take control of the tentacles freely while they can't take control of the full body unless Azure is asleep.
There is no Flowers Yourself(not anymore anyways)
1x yourself doesn't like swords, mostly because it's the only weapon 1x1x1x1 makes them use(they aren't even good with anything else they're just tired of using swords)
John Doe Yourself isn't always people who are corruption victims some are actually just people using an altered version of the infamous John Doe script.
A Short Bundle For Now, but don't worry we'll be back extremely soon.
(don't insult your Mirror, you may not like what's listening)
Yourself Anon
Noli messing around with his own cultist's shrine for him HELKP
1x yourself at least you can use cool ranged moves and not just slash slash cooler slash like Slasher smh
Hey Cas!! Hope ur having a beautiful day (wait this wasn't meant to be so long sorry) im yourself anon btw
Recently I've grown quite fond of the idea of marrying a woman/nb person. Sadly, I won't ever be able to do that in my own country but I always imagined myself living in another country anyway.
My country has a particular marriage culture (highly influenced by religious gender roles yada yada) and the average marriage age is extremely low (in my opinion), women get married around 25 and men at 23. I always thought that was so unreasonable, still do. As you can expect, every child is raised with the idea that they should get married as soon as possible after they graduate or get a permanent job. One of my cousins is a pharmacognosist and now a professor at a uni (the only person in the whole extended family to pursue a medical career), but my extended family thinks “she’s still on the shelf” etc. (Dont even get me started on how nobody acknowledges aro/ace ppl, most likely they don't even know it or heard of it while gossiping in the context of a “problem”)
Because I was raised with things like “when you become a mother” or “when you have a husband” I've despised marrying and was very vocal as a child that I didn't want to get married. I, even as a kid, repeatedly told everyone I was not going to marry someone or have kids and it was always laughed off, with people saying “You’ll change your mind when you get mature.” and “The girls who say that are the first ones to marry and have the most kids.”
I hate kids (Saying that to a teacher is a bit weird lol). I always hated them. My mom tells me stories of visiting her friends etc and I wouldn't want to play/see their baby/toddler, and that I told them “I am allergic to babies.” (6-year-old me was a badass).
My views of marriage didn't change much when I embraced my sexuality, but it became less disgusting in my head. Then I got to learn how hard my people fought to have the right to marry and I started respecting marriage, still didn't want to get married and it seemed impossible because back then I was so sure I could live in the closet my whole life and excuse my lack of a partner with academics or pursuing a high-status job, etc.
Around last year, when I was making jokes to my close friends about my parent's divorce, I told them “I will never make the mistake my mom did of marrying a man who doesn't love her, by marrying a woman.”
One day, even without thinking of whether I would or wouldn't get married, the fact that “My mother won't be at my wedding.” hit me like a ton of bricks.
She won't. She wouldn't, and she would do anything in her power to make me stop. And people say “Maybe she’ll change her opinions once she understands you.” or “You are her kid, she wouldn't be like that towards you.” and I outright laugh at their faces. I've lived with the constant fear of getting kicked out since I was 11.
Even if she is as homophobic and as transphobic as they come, I love her, Cas. She raised me and my sibling practically alone, had to be “the man of the house (her words, not mine)” She dealt (and still deals) with my asshole father. She did and does her best. I hate disappointing her, I hate making her upset. And I hate how who I am makes her hate me (she doesn't know but still hates every gay & trans) and how her hating me is so normal in my eyes. How the thought of “She won’t be there, at such a happy point of my life. She will never approve and I will be the reason she stays up all night, sobbing and praying.” is so normal in my head.
I want to marry eventually, want to hold my partner’s hand, and say “This is my wife/spouse.” I want them to decide my wedding outfit, want to pose with swords in our wedding pics, want to spend my life with a person I love, who loves me as much.
And the fact that if I chose that life, I would be choosing it over a life with my mother's love and approval.
I hate this. Sometimes it makes me hate myself too.
Hi <3
This is such a complicated thing because I absolutely understand where you're coming from. It's so hard to understand that both of those parts of a person exist- the person that raised you and loves you, and the person who is homophobic and transphobic.
But I think at some point, if it is SAFE to do so, you need to make decisions based on YOUR happiness, and not someone else's. You don't owe anyone your happiness, you know? You need to prioritize your happiness, because nobody else will. So if your mother will be upset because of who you marry, then you need to understand that that is HER choice, and you are choosing HAPPINESS. You're not choosing to disappoint her, that's just a side-effect of her horrible rhetoric. Plus- and I know this is horrible to think, but it's true- someday, your mother will be gone. And then you might regret prioritizing her happiness because you might have put aside relationships that are life-long. You know?
You don't owe her a life in the closet <3
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reels anon
Hey! Uh I already have an anon name but I don't wanna use that here cause it's sth different than my usual stuff I hope thats ok?
Anyways there's this girl (real nice we even talked sometimes during breaks/send reels to each other etc) in my art lab who always wears headphones and sometimes gets a bit too into it and starts singing under her breath. Now this used to annoy the shit out of me. It just irked the shit out of me.
This had been going on for say five months? And like three weeks ago one evening it was really annoying me and I was trying to ignore it and my brain came up with this weird ass cringe idea. Uhhhhh I'm too embarrassed to say this even in anon dear god.
My stupid, dumb brain was like you already tried zoning out /daydreaming to ignore her but the sound still annoyed you right? What if you pretend you're two of your favourite characters from a ship you like where one often sings to another. Cringing just writing this but well it worked. And so I kept doing that. And like a week ago I went to the lab and she was sick/not there and I realised I was disappointed cause I kinda missed her singing???????? And I realised I fucking pavloved myself into liking her singing??????? And then a few days back we were talking and shit and she was laughing about a dumb joke I said and smiling and her hair was all messed up from running her charcoal covered hands through her hair and I realised I may kinda definitely have a crush on her
This sounds like the plot of a shitty fanfic fuuuuuckkkkk
Awww this is so cute! Not cringe, at least not imo. Plus, my wife does plenty of crazy things and sometimes I just have to be like "*sigh* James would do that too, she's just being her crazy self" so I understand your thinking lol.
But you have to tell me more! any chance she could like you too?
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14 anon
Terrified rn cas my mum just got a message on my school app saying I’ve got a 1 hr detention tmrw but I haven’t even been in for 2 days and the message said nothing about why I have detention
I’m in a bit of a good period with my mum and she thinks I might have ehlers-Danlos syndrome and possibly POTS and she’s finally gotten me a doctors appointment for the possible ehlers-danlos
That's so weird....does it give any reason why? Or even the teacher that assigned it to you? I feel like they can't just give you a detention without telling you WHY. Like if you honestly can't think of something you did wrong then maybe it's missed work or being late or something? But yeah you/your mom should definitely ask why because that's not fair...
I'm glad you have a doctor's appointment!
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@leo-crumbled
My teacher was asking me who my favorite author was, and I was like, "Oh, their name is Cas," and my teacher goes "like the Cas on ao3?" I PANICKED i was like,"which one?" She proceeded to name off a couple of you works, and I was like "yeah" she said,"Oh my god, you should listen to the podfics that people do! There's one about trans Regulus. " I looked at her, and I was like,"I know that one, I'm the one that records it, " she freaked out. She is my FAVORITE teacher
....why does this make me feel so weird? teachers are NOT supposed to know what I do in my spare time lol. it gives the same vibe as seeing your teacher at the grocery store.
But I'm glad you guys could bond!
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personal anon
hii cass
just idk i feel a little overwhelmed about school and some personal shit and i jst dk how to describe it ):
and wnted to see if youre doing okay :)
hope youre having a great night/day<3
Hi! <3
Remember to give yourself breaks and be gentle with yourself. I know it's tempting to keep pushing yourself to do All The Things, but breaks will help in the long run because they keep you energized.
Also remember that if you want to vent, my inbox is open!
You know it's really funny to me about Jane Doe's hidden passive against John Doe.
If you don't know then imma explain it, so the abilities of Jane Doe were given a teaser, and one of the special hidden stats makes it so John Doe can't perceive Jane Doe's face, meaning the Spectre gave up on trying to erase love inside of John Doe, I got this mental picture of the Spectre tossing it's arms into the air and just putting a grainy filter over Jane Doe's face and watching in pure shock as That of all things work.
(so long as there is a mirror I will be here)
Yourself anon
HELP?? that's both sad and amazing. Imagine giving up that hard you slapped an emo 2012 glitchy filter over someone's face and calling it a day?/silly
John Doe Yourself is slightly less animalistic than The Original Host.
NOLI Yourself is less dramatic than the original, a devout follower of Noli's cult, Noli himself finds them to be annoying.
1X1X1X1 Yourself Is Both Unwilling And Willing To Follow The Original's Plans(What With Being Possessed And Internally Poisoned, But Also Because Some Hosts Are Followers Of Their Hatred)
that's all For Today, we sincerely hope You Enjoy The Update.
This has Been Yourself Anon
P.S sorry for the lack of headcanons, we are very busy playing the update, we'll post some more eventually though, So Keep An Eye Out For Them.
woaog.. yourself headcanons from the yourself anon... love the interpretation of them tbh, yoinked!
HELLO R !! you weren't here last time iwrc– nice to meet you and y :D
Whenever you see Yourself anon, it's as the name implies, theirs six of us, each of us type ever so slightly different than each other.
I Was The First, I Am Y
Before you ask yes we do have a discord, however we will not give an invite to it for obvious reasons, it would ruin this little game I've made, though that's only one reason, I will not explain the other ones(privacy, mostly)
This may have not been a headcanon, but I am pretty sure we are the second gimmick anon you have truly interacted with.
Read you soon, sincerely Yourself anon
THAT IS ACTUALLY SO COOL OH MY GOD??? HELLO Y!! nice to officially make your acquaintance!! that is a sick gimmick btw props to yall
So unfortunately the Jason yourself skin is scrapped, now normally I would be upset but decided that Jason yourself just got bored of killing the same people over and over again and just denied the Spectre anymore time with them.
John Doe yourself while overall weaker than the original actually has significantly more damaging corruption with the reason being because the corruption on John Doe is the source, every later iteration is more lethal than the last, as the code adapts and changes newer corruptions.
1x yourself has broken free during matches, though only when 1x themself isn't at their best, when this happens the Spectre ends the rounds immediately, there was even one time the round ended before it could even begin.
Azure yourself is effectively the only voice of reason within azure, as the last stage is effectively completely subsumed, making them more of a lingering will than an actual person, the unfortunate victim often gets into mental arguments with the hat.
King yourself sometimes isn't even murderous and instead chooses to show off his wealth and insult the survivors on their poverty, except Shedletsky/Telemon, dusekkar, builderman, and chance because none of these four are poor, he has attempted to hire taph so he could blow up some rival Noble's buildings.
Guest 666 yourself quite enjoys games, often times he will offer the last person left a good game of chess to decide their fate(win you live, lose you die and your soul shall be stolen)
C00lkidd yourself isn't the best at secrecy and will often tell survivors secrets of the killers, but only if the survivors themselves offer some juicy info.
Till we gaze into the Mirror again
Sincerely, Yourself anon
I love the concepts of each killer getting their own yourself skins, as well as them having their own personalities to go along with it. Fun
Mirrorborn(name/title of those born/created to copy existing people)
In order for one to create a Mirrorborn you must have to be suffering from extreme loneliness and also be close to a mirror, there are other ways to create them but this is the simplest and easiest.
The copies are Never perfect, they often look and sound like their made of cracked glass, this comes with the unfortunate side effect of people not wanting to talk to Mirrorborns which also often leads to them getting resentful and somewhat dangerous.
Becoming enemies with a Mirrorborn is widely considered a Horrible idea mostly because of their unique abilities, to travel through mirrors(through more extensive research it has been found that they can travel through Any reflective surface but that it takes a bit more energy when it's not mirrors) and also creating lesser copies of themselves(often called Shards)
The Yourself skins are in fact corrupted reflections of other people who genuinely believe they are that person, if they ever did meet their true counterparts at this point they'd lose their minds and devolve into a rapid cycle of insanity.
1x1x1x1 yourself isn't actually controlled by 1x but because they believe they are they technically sorta are being controlled by A 1x.
All Yourself skins are Mirrorborns of the same person.
Y :are you sure we should reveal this?
???: the game is more fun when things are drawn out
Y :I can see the appeal but this may be too revealing, so I must ask again, Are You Sure.
???: when have I ever been wrong?
Y :When you let that....'Thing' get in not too long ago
???: I thought I said Not to mention that, how was I supposed to know something would tag along with Him.
Y : by using your special 'sight', idiot.
???: insolent Little Swine, I should Gut you for that insu-
*muffled sound of something slamming and stabbing is heard*
Y : let me remind you Who's in control here, you're only as powerful as you are because of US, if We deem this....'investment' not worth it need I remind you what your 'Employees' will do to you.
???: fine, have it your way, but know the moment this 'leash' slacks, I'll have Your head.
Y : We both know that wouldn't do Anything to us.
ANON LORE???? oh my gaw.... anonsaken.... hey you wouldn't mind being referenced in modsaken would you /SILLY /J
mirrorborns.... waog..... honestly already love the name sm this is PEAK
