August 8.2022 Best. surprise. ever
I have the best sister in the ENTIRE WORLD!! This morning I told myself that I was tired of always walking around the house in my pajamas, so I changed into a beige tee shirt and lose-fitting paper bag shorts something cute but comfortable. I grabbed my Bible and turned on my Christian fire playlist I was reading and jamming out to the music after when I was finished reading I always tell myself today is going to be a great day and it definitely was.
I made myself some maple & brown sugar oatmeal and turned on Chloe Yazmean on YouTube she is so funny, real, and a Christian. After I finished my oatmeal I polish my nails white I love a clean white polish look on my nails and toes but I haven’t gotten my feet done professionally in 10 years due to my wound in previous years don’t get it twisted I do cut toes nails. So I polished my nails and as they were drying my sister woke up and said to get dressed I told her I just polished my nails but I did it always. I was planning the outfit in my head I was going to wear a plain shirt and jeans short but I changed my mind I put on my teal sundress with yellow cherry blossoms, dusty pink sandals, and my light pink hair scarf I did wrap the hair scarf in a low bun it me took a minute to get right as I was getting dressed my nails were getting mess up so I just used nail polish remover to wipe off the polish cause baby I'm not going out with messes up nails. So I grab my purse, and other belongings and headed to the car.
As soon as I open her car door it smelled like popeye's shrimp which me made hungry. Our dad calls on her phone I couldn't hear what they were talking about because she was staying outside of her car. We were driving she tells me we need to make a stop before our next stop I said ok. We stopped at Popeye's I said "we are getting some lunch for dad" and she said, "no girl it is for us". As we are walking in she said "look there's dad" I was surprised I was like "now you could have told that dad was here." We ate lunch with our dad it was nice then we drove some more and I just vibing in the car.
The thing is I had no idea where we were going I asked her "where we are going," and she shrugged her shoulders I was like ok, and continue to vibe to the music.(I trust my sister 1000% with my life) as we were driving I see road signs leading to the beach and it is still not clicking in my brain that we were going to my favorite beach. We pulled up to the beach and I got immediately happy.
(sidenote I haven't been to the beach in 10 years due to my wound in previous years or I would go but my foot needed to be completely wrapped and I would wear jeans because I was so insured about my feet. I felt like everyone was starring and looking at me walk; I do walk with a very noticeable limp and I'm still insured but I'm trying my best to feel comfortable in my skin again and cancel out the insured voice in my head)
Now, my sister had planned of taking me to the beach since last week and my parents knew about this plan and said nothing to me!!
Anyways we are walking up the pier towards the beach and I feel this rush of nervousness, fear, just pure scared. My sister went ahead of me and caught the moment I stepped on the sand for the first time in years all on video. She said " Tee you ready" I was like "no I'm nervous" and as I stepped out on the sand I felt this sense of happiness, and peace and I started to cry it was an automatic reaction like my body was saying this is the moment we have been waiting for.
The sand was hot but so amazing putting the sand over my feet as I dug deeper and deeper into the sand. My sister facetimed our parents to ask if I can go stand in the water they both said "yes". I just wish all of us could have been there because I know pain and trauma happened to me but my mom was doing all of the wound care like cleaning and dressing, my dad took me to all of the wound care treatments, and my sister stood by my side. I looked at her with the biggest smile on my face as we are walking toward the water my mind was racing and my heart was going 1000 beats per second I didn't know if the water was going to be cold, warm, or hot. I got to the edge of the water squeezing my sister's hand as water rushed to the shoreline hitting my feet I started to cry again because it was so cold and just lovely. Our parents were still on facetime watching this experience happen. At that moment I felt like the world was silent and God had me in his arms. We got to the beach around 2:50 we left at 3:15 I truly did not want to leave but we had to.
Like I know I did it feeling the sand and water between my toes for the first time in 10 years barefoot but it is still processing in my head I just did that. I wish precious moments like those had a replay button cause I would replay this moment forever.
I just had to write this in my blog and tell you guys. So until next time write soon...