Hey Everyone.. I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry for not talking to all of you for months/years..It's just really hard for me to communicate with everyone online and in person because.. I'm always afraid that I might say something wrong and lose someone..I can't help that I care WAY too much about what other people think of me..and not only that, I can't process anything that will help me make sense in a conversation..I can't remember the right words to say and my mind always goes blank on me whenever they bring up something that I'm not familiar with nor have experienced in my life and expect me to relate to them or to have a satisfying response.. and if I be honest and say that I've never heard or experienced it before, they'll think of me as incompetent or unreliable.. That's why I'm always afraid to ask for clarification..or to ask what it means, what it's like or is it a bad or good thing... It's hard to find someone who has the patience to understand that I'm not like everyone else, that I'm autistic with ADHD.. I'm trying my best to find a way to make a better connection with people..and improve my social life/skills..I hope you all understand that it takes a while for me. So If I said or did anything wrong, please tell me.. I'm still learning. (Sorry if my grammar is bad)