#zerocalboydinner

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Two weeks cig free until today. I feel really guilty about it, and I just want to cry. I wish I never started smoking

Also bought more lax

And cut again

I hate myself

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After I drunkenly cried to him about how I really like him and he said he can't see us in a relationship together

Tf

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what I got today lol

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Owwwwe fuciif ddn my skin stings I hate this shit so much I broke out again I can't do it bro I just canttttt I'm gonna give up on this stuff atp ugh it's so uncomfortable but idk what to do anymore dawg I hate myself

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I got this really nice dress from the opshop but it's too small lol it won't zip, so I need to lock in..

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Used the last of my lax and woke up at 3am to shit straight water for ten minutes LOL I fr just want to sleep peacefully.

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Damn it all but I'm taking 15 laxatives rn it's 7pm wish me luck cuz I gotta leave at 1:30 tomorrow

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I'm cooking dinner for a little party thing my parents are having tonight and I think it was a massive failure 😭 it's not done yet but I overcooked the pasta and the garlic isn't roasting, like bruh. It's 7:30 so I can't rly afford to redo the pasta or keep cooking the garlic bc they are leaving soonish ugh this is so embarrassing