#zmariottax

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Chubby Keaton would be amazing!!!

He just had a big meal~

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zmariottax replied to your post: Is it even possible to try meditating when you...

What works for me is thinking of something specific. Tranquil nothingness doesn’t work for me, my brain thinks in too many directions at once and will fill the void with unwanted stuff. But like, focusing on a story in my head or something on the fly, exploring some kind of place visually in my head like a forest, or ruins or something. Giving myself a direction sometimes helps me to not think of unwanted things by thinking of something specific. Also Yes to audio files. Esp before I want sleep!

I used to not have as much of a problem before when I was younger to just be thinking of stories and characters like I usually do. I used to even say “I’m never bored” bc I honestly wasn’t! I always had something exciting to think on, but now with my brain dead on creativity it’s just... a wasteland and most of what I can remember are my bad dreams which also have to do with a bunch of past stuff that give conflicting feelings either way.

And tmi but....

I can’t even focus on being turned on when I’m trying to jack off. How the heck am I supposed to do this??

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I drew my boy Timber for the first time! He’s probably just finished a competitive eating challenge and getting belly rubs from his boyfriend, Efren.

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Tavi and Sesto!

Covid quarantine paused Tavi’s job as a restaurant bus boy and made his college classes go online, so he gained a substantial amount of weight never leaving the apartment for large stretches of time. Plays a lot of FPS and online games. The kind of guy always belching into the mic.

His long-distance relationship with his girlfriend at another university ends when she sees how much weight he’s been putting on since quarantine. He is professedly “straight” but has begun experimenting with his gay roommate, Sesto, which started with the boys showing off and comparing their covid gains.

This is Tavi’s roommate, Sesto. He is a short king, who works at his family’s butcher shop. A few years older than Tavi, but just as immature. Has to work out just to keep extra weight off. Jealous of Tavi’s tall, slim metabolism… until quarantine hits them both.

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Tried drawing a furry halfling for practice tonight. He’s a former acrobat in a carnival.