dazed & confused

29 ● Certified Milf ● Scorpio ● Bi Icon ● Married

[tainted-affair]

i always know when my luteal phase starts bc ill just be beepbopping along doin my thing and then out of nowhere All The World's Sadness descends upon me

[sculien]

WIDOW'S BAY 1.01 WELCOME TO WIDOW'S BAY!

[patriciafinalgirl]

"Seasickness" | Widow's Bay 1x07

[kateoflynn]

omg icon

[insomniac-arrest]

I think if we all try really hard we can make Patricia Widow’s Bay the next top shelf blorbo

FINALLY sopping wet tragedy of a woman

[tainted-affair]

idk im in my feelings and need a space to ramble

had a checkup with my obgyn today since its been a year and half since having ray. which also means we are cleared to start trying again now that my csection wound is considered fully healed. its not the right time for us to do that but it did get me thinking of when we so welcome our next baby how nervous I am for that fourth trimester.

i had such bad postpartum anxiety and depression. i had huge amounts of support but I still felt so lost. it makes me anxious to even think about it all. the crying over nothing, the massive wave of anxiety that started at sundown and didnt waver until sun up. i couldn't let myself sleep at night when she would be sound asleep for fear of sids.

more than anything, i was beside myself that my milk never came in. the lactation consultant said i possibly had insufficient amounts of glandular tissue to produce milk. i mourned that part of my motherhood journey. I still do. and it makes me even more sad to think about rehashing it all again. because ill have to try again. i cant not. if by some miracle I can make enough to supplement with formula ill be over the moon.

motherhood is so daunting and full of contradiction. im ecstatic and terrified at the thought of bringing another baby into the family. i wish I had a crystal ball to tell me what I should prepare myself for.

[theunmarkedtombstone]

A SIMPLE WISH (1997)

[tainted-affair]

just got a mild concussion at work loves it

[tainted-affair]

head hurtyyy

[tainted-affair]

whoopsie the doc said i cant go back to work this week

[dimetrodone]

The scene in Shrek 2 when the Fairy Godmother sings I need a Hero when the giant gingerbread man attacks the castle is still the greatest scene in cinema of all times

[qr0mi]

[tainted-affair]

just got a mild concussion at work loves it

[tainted-affair]

head hurtyyy

[ardagifs]

THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE TWO TOWERS (2002)

[tainted-affair]

just got a mild concussion at work loves it

[toiich]

Witch On Broom by William Mortensen, 1928

[theartofmadeline]

happy pride to the gay people in my computer <3

[homano222]

Gay, southern, violently depressed, catholic, divorced twice, potentially schizophrenic, has complex feelings about his identity, terrible taste in men… I fear no protagonist has done it quite like him.

[goth-queen]