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independent, semi-selective mairon/sauron rp blog. scribed by cinna.

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goldenglorfindel‌:

Wandering in Lorien, Glorfindel, or mostly back to being entirely called Laurefindil again now, was at something of a loss as to what he was supposed to do with himself. He’d done his best to try to mentally prepare himself for this, but he’d known that it was never going to be that easy. He’d found himself waking each morning at the same time as always and not being able to go back to sleep, regardless of not being needed for training or anything else. He knew that it wouldn’t last, that there was a place for him and things to do, but for now as he adjusted into a life without war, space for his thoughts and not a lot more was plenty on its own.

Not wishing to lay awake in bed and disturb Ehtelë’s rest each and every morning, he’d taken to leaving and seeking the quiet of the gardens, just s he’d done in the time he was here last. When there were few friends or family here and he was still very much healing. It wasn’t the same now, for now he was truly happy once more and you’d be hard pushed to find him without a bright smile, but he still found some quiet meditation was a tonic much needed.

Sometimes he was here completely alone save for the constant gardeners and sometimes there were others who also sought out the quiet solitude of the lands. Today the figure sat quietly as he rounded a corner however, gave him pause, jolting him from his internal thoughts and bringing his feet to a halt. He blinked, tilted his head and wondered if the spirit was really the one he recognised within them.

He rather hoped not.

Not every power can be muted, there are some things innate to Mairon that are unable to be taken from him. He can still sense the presence of another, of one that is not of the Ainur. A few seconds later he can hear footsteps. And then, they stop.

He lifts his head and turns, gaze locking on the golden-haired Elf. 

He doesn’t speak; he has no real reason to, after all. Nor does he expect the Elda to approach him or speak to him. No one else has. 

And yet he can’t help but keep a hint of a challenge out of his golden eyes. As if daring him to say something, to do something, to speak to him. 

He doesn’t know if he wants to be spoken to-- but he knows that the Elda likely wishes to speak to him even less. So that in itself is reason enough, and Mairon is willing to endure some slight discomfort, a little awkwardness, if it means that people will stop tiptoeing around him. 

Once, long ago, he had reclaimed the name Abhorred. That was when he was strong. Now, he doesn’t much like being treated as such. 

His stare holds, drifting across the Elf’s features, meeting his eyes only for fractions of a second before moving to another part of his face. But the catlike gaze never leaves him for a moment, barely even to blink.

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        THE  QUIET  SCARES ME

                                                            [  —  because it screams the truth.  ] 

[keenmemes]

Within Temptation starters (1/2)

enter  (1997)

❛ all my love, i gave to you. ❜

❛ lift me up from here. ❜ 

❛ i forgot where i came from. ❜ 

❛ one by one, they died. ❜

❛ they had no chance. ❜

❛ you can’t kill what has been killed before. ❜

❛ i’ll never help you through. ❜

mother earth  (2000) 

❛ i find my strength in believing that your soul lives on. ❜ 

❛ a new beginning always starts at the end. ❜

❛ you better keep moving. ❜

❛ you better hide before she finds you. ❜

❛ haven’t you seen the ruins of our world? ❜

❛ i can almost see your smile, the warmth of your embrace. ❜

❛ there is nothing but silence now. ❜

❛ is this our farewell? ❜

❛ sweet darling, you worry too much. ❜

❛ you are not alone in life, though you might think you are. ❜

❛ never thought this day would come so soon. ❜

❛ we had no time to say goodbye. ❜

❛ how can the world just carry on? ❜

❛ i feel so lost when you’re not at my side. ❜

❛ i’ll watch you through these nights. rest your head and go to sleep. ❜

❛ everyone with a friendly face seems to hide some secret inside. ❜

❛ he told me he loved me while he laughed in my face. ❜

❛ i feel so cold inside. ❜

❛ you promised to return to me, and i believed. ❜

❛ i’ll make them bleed down at my feet. ❜

❛ there’s always a sparkle of hope if you just believe. ❜

❛ remember who you are, what you stand for. ❜

❛ don’t you die on me. ❜

the silent force  (2004) 

❛ it’s the best way of living, between the truth and the lies. ❜ 

❛ this is not the end. ❜

❛ our dream ended long ago. ❜

❛ we won’t be together forever and ever. ❜

❛ late at night, things i thought i put behind me haunt my mind. ❜

❛ no more denying.  i’ve gotta face it. ❜

❛ it’s time for me to face it… but can i take it? ❜

❛ this might just be the ending of the life i held so dear. ❜

❛ there’s no turning back from here. ❜

❛ i have to fight, ‘cause i know, in the end, it’s worthwhile. ❜

❛ i have no strength to go on. ❜

❛ you’re the reason i have to stay. ❜

❛ you were my savior in my time of need. ❜

❛ there’s no escape now.  no mercy.  no more. ❜

❛ i still remember the smile when you tore me apart. ❜

❛ you took my heart, deceived me right from the start. ❜

❛ it was all just a lie. ❜

❛ the memories ease the pain inside. ❜

❛ all of my memories keep you near. ❜

❛ you know i’ll love you ‘til the end of time. ❜

❛ you made me feel alive. ❜

❛ i need to be with you again. ❜

❛ i fear who i am becoming. ❜

❛ i’ll keep on trying until my dying day. ❜

❛ wherever you are, i won’t stop searching. ❜

❛ i’m longing to see you again.  it’s been so long. ❜

❛ i did my best to please you, but my best was never good enough. ❜

❛ i have failed you, but you have failed me, too. ❜

❛ do you ever wonder if it’s justified? ❜

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Oh, did I send a s ʜ ɪ ᴠ ᴇ ʀ                         Down your spine?

        Well I do it all the time                                            

                                It’s a little trick of mine

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“Why be afraid of the dark when you can simply become it.”

— Nikita Gill

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tyelp-with-a-spear‌:

“Olorin, we’re going for a stroll! You with us?”

Tyelpë picks up the warm shawl he brought for Mairon and wraps it around the Maia’s frame, hugging him in the while. “It’s windy here. I don’t want any see breeze to make my Annie sick.”

Outside, it was indeed windy, and the skies were darkening with clouds. “Going to rain at night. Do you like rain, Annie? I love it. I like night rain, when I can open the window and sleep in comfort and freshness. Tonight, I will also be holding you, which adds to the comfort.”

Mairon shakes his head slightly, though he does accept the shawl. The more he’s covered up, the better, after all. He draws it around his shoulders and murmurs, “You know, I’m not going to fall ill from cold air. I may be weakened, but I am still Ainu.”

It takes the briefest of moments for everything to truly sink in— namely, that Tyelpë had said sea breeze.

A sudden chill races through him, and he goes very still.

He hadn’t considered what this might possibly entail. Golden eyes flit toward the door. He completely misses the rest of what Tyelpë says.

Olórin comes to join them, and instantly his brow furrows in concern, before Mairon even speaks. 

The glow from his eyes shifts to a bright yellow hue, and his gaze goes distant. “This place... is by the sea, isn’t it?” 

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Tapestries

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mitzy-has-trash-art‌:

Even though he’d never point it out loud, Iorwen had to admit that seeing Mairon waking up with such messy hair was quite ridiculous and much less threatening than what was usual. If he hadn’t held respect for him in the past he wouldn’t take him seriously at the moment.

“It was quite a shame for us too to not be blessed with your company sooner, my Lord” he replied sarcastically, giving him a small, teasing bow. It felt quite odd when he called him his servant, almost as if he didn’t find it to be the name he wanted, but all those sorts of things seemed odd to him now that everything had changed, so he didn’t think much of it.

“Technically you can still go back to sleep, I don’t see anyone stopping you” he raised an eyebrow, crossing his arms. He was sassy, and didn’t take grumpy wakers all that well

He has to admit, he’s missed being called “Lord.” It’s still somewhat difficult to think of himself as a prisoner, when he’s spent so long as a ruler. Now, the fact that the term is used sarcastically deepens his frown. He’d have liked it if it were genuine. But that is far too much to hope.

He fiddles with his hair, combing it into some state of order, and makes a slight face. “I could, but I’ve already been woken. It isn’t that simple to go back to sleep.” He’s a bit more rested now, and he can only really sleep if he falls into unconsciousness. Falling asleep is an entirely different matter.

“No matter,” he notes. “I’ll no doubt be out again in a matter of hours.” His lip curls in mild distaste at his own weakness. He’s been so vastly diminished from what he once was... he again cups his right hand in his left. He still feels the loss. If he thinks about it, he can still feel the tearing wound in his eäla as though it’s new. So he tries not to think of it.

Even if half the time he simply wants to curl in on himself and scream until he can scream no more.

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☞Some people just wanna watch the world burn☜

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Within Temptation — The Unforgiving Album  {Sentence Starters}

“Don’t walk away.”

“You’ll burn this time.”

“Don’t let it fall apart.”

“Won’t you talk to me?“

“I’m not playing this game.”

“Can’t believe I’m still alive.”

“But, I’m lost. I’m so damn lost.”

“Where’s the love we once had?”

“Oh, damn, just bring it on today.”

“No, ‘cause nothing else matters.”

“Every word you’re saying is a lie.”

“I’m about to cut your wings away.”

“You can’t hide what lies inside you.”

“And I can’t live in a fairytale of lies.”

“I’m telling you, you will like it… I know.”

“My heart is frozen, I’m losing my mind.”

“Don’t be scared, now. Close your eyes.”

“It’s my cross to bear, and I bear it gladly.”

“You’re safe from all that hunts you down.”

“Only vengeance will make me feel better.”

“That’s what you need to fight, day by day.”

“Hope plays a wicked game with the mind.”

“But, you won’t be leaving here unharmed.”

“Where I am going, you wont be in the end.”

“Bury all the memories, cover them with dirt.”

“I’ve been left out alone like a damn criminal.”

“I can’t sleep, 'cause it’s burning deep inside.”

“And I’m wondering why I still fight in this life.”

“You can’t hide forever in the empty darkness.”

“Where is the edge of your darkest emotions?”

“I won’t give in, 'cause I’m proud of all my scars.”

“I’ve been praying for help, ‘cause I can’t take it all.”

“You’re running out of time… so, where will you go?”

“It’s certainly a lonely life, but a fulfilling one at best.”

“I’m aware that I’m frozen inside. I have known all along.”

“There is no fear you’ll ever give into. You’re untouchable.”

“Whenever you call for me, know that I’m only one step behind.”

“Some may call it a curse, life like mine… but, others, a blessing.”

“Someone has to take a stand against evil. Why should it not be me?”

“It’s the rule that you live by and die for. It’s the one thing you cannot deny.”

“For we will hunt you down like the animals you are, and pull you into the very bowels of hell.”

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Within Temptation — Silent Force album  {Sentence Starters}

“No mercy, no more.”

“Never stop hoping…”

“Our time has run out.”

“Was this the only way?”

“You made me feel alive.”

“There’s no more escape.”

“We are forsaken this time.”

“Why am I here to try again?”

“All I know for sure is… I’m trying.”

“I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul.”

“Your silent whispers, silent tears…”

“There’s no turning back from here.”

“If I don’t make it, someone else will.”

“No more denying, I’ve got to face it.”

“You were my savior in my time of need.”

“I fear your smile and the promise inside.“

“Come into my world, see through my eyes.”

“We can rise above their truth and their lies.”

“I want to embrace you and never let you go.”

“Fear of the unknown clouds our hearts today.”

“The world is in our hands. This is not the end.”

“Please, say my name. Remember who I am…”

“I have failed you… but you have failed me, too.”

“I am longing to see you again, it’s been so long.”

“Things I thought I put behind me haunt my mind.”

“I still remember the smile when you tore me apart.”

“But one thing’s for sure, you’re always in my heart.”

“The sins of your life are, now, catching up with you.”

“I’ve seen kingdoms through ages rise and fall, I’ve seen it all.”

“I did my best to please you, but my best was never good enough.”

“I fear who I am becoming, I feel that I am losing the struggle within.”

“I just have know while I still have time: do I have to run or hide away from you?”

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tyelp-with-a-spear‌:

“Of course not, precious,” Mairon receives his usual cheek kiss. “You look rested. I am happy. So, this is the master bedroom,” he waves his arm at the room containing a wide bed, a closet, and dressing mirror with a small table. “This door is bathroom,” Tyelpë opened the door to show the moderately sized bathroom that could be accessed through the bedroom. Then, he wrapped an arm around Mairon’s waist to lead him to the rest. “That’s guest bedroom, Olorin will be staying there… Not sure if he actually needs sleep though. He has a bathroom in there too. This is the living room. Feel free to nap on the couch, love. Dining room… Kitchen over there, but you don’t have to be there, I’ll take care of it. Are you hungry? Do you want to see the city as well?”

The Maia follows, close, brushing shoulders with Tyelpë as they go. He peers into each room, and snorts softly at the mention of Olórin sleeping. “If I recall correctly, he doesn’t need as much as I do, but he enjoys it even more.” 

He tests the couch, pressing down on the cushions with a hand. Comfortable enough. He nods, and tilts his head in the direction of the front door. “I’m not hungry at the moment, but if I might have a tour of the city...” He’d like to know a bit more about the place he’s staying in.