Hey Everyone
So after literal years, I got nostalgic and signed into this account. And let me just say, wow, even if it's due to just not bothering to unfollow I can't really believe how many followers are still here. I tried to figure out something for a video, or an audio recording, but nothing really felt right, and since text posts are more accessible and everything I thought I'd do this in this way. I wanted to thank everyone that has followed me, or interacted with me here. When I first made this blog I was homeless, and the only saving grace was that a friend was letting me stay with her while I got back on my feet. I was depressed, dealing with untreated bipolar, recovering mentally from my last suicide attempt (which was severe enough that I flatlined multiple times in the ER), with little to no support from my family. I was regularly self harming, fighting an eating disorder, and had no help trying to deal with my PTSD. I had no self worth, no meds, and no one who had known me for over 2 years. This blog was one of the few bright spots in my life, and it started me on the road to recovery. You all helped me realize that I was worth something, even if it was just to a handful of people online and offline. I was angry, and hurt, and recovering from a lifetime of abuse, and you all were here for me. If it wasn't for everyone here, everyone that interacted with me, or liked my posts, I don't know if I would have been able to keep trying. I've changed a lot in these past years, and have worked damn hard to improve myself and my outlook, and to learn as much as I can. I've gone from being homeless and suicidal to working a fulfilling job that I'm good at (I'm a baker!), working to get back in school for my dream job (I want to be a child+family social worker), improving my costumes (I'm doing my first suit of armor for Alistair from Dragon Age!), and next week I'm going in for top surgery. My life is a better life, and I'm a better person (although there's definitely room to grow), and you all are the reason I even found a base to work from. I love all of you, and if there's any way I could repay you all for all the love and support you've given me, feel free to hit me up here or at my personal ( @knightofraguel ). Tldr: You all changed my life, in a major way, and for the better, and even all these years later I can look back at this time and smile. Im thankful for you all, more than I think words can really convey.