this side by side in my top posts caught my eye…my toxic trait is thinking i haven’t even got that big. even though my clothes are getting so small, and my body is struggling to keep with with all the weight i’m piling on, i still think i’m the size i was a few months ago and that i need to keep pushing myself to get fatter. i keep telling myself it doesn’t even show, but i’m struggling to find clothes that can cover my fat belly. is it normal to go from 2X to 3X in like 3 months? i even tried to put on a sweater that used to be huge on me, that’s a MEN’S XXL and it barely covers my belly. it won’t be long until it clings to me like everything else. all the 3X tops i have don’t go past my belly button, they didn’t look like crop tops in the models….i have such a hard time believing i can fit a 3X, and it’s funny. when i’m trying to look at bigger sizes, a 3X just sounds like it would be too big, like there’s no way i’ll fit that. news flash babe, you BARELY fit it. 🐷 and summer is still months away….