Talons and Tea Leaves

The true magic is to imagine what's beyond the imagination

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64. Life hasn’t been easy

Hello. Long time no see right? Sorry for being away for so long. Things have been kind of hard lately and mentally I was not very capable of dealing with a lot.

My name is Nora and... life is just very hard lately.

I was away from tumblr for an entire year and I am sorry if you left someone wondering were I was. I normally don’t do this but I had some problems with Lucas and Vicky.

For a long time I went and saw a therapist to help me get over the failed friendship with Vicky and it worked very well since she kept her distance. Unfortunately she made a bit of a come back and as been messing with me for months now. As I am writing now, I was actually made aware of some more of her acts towards me.

She keeps on following me around and I already asked for her to stop and also had a conversation with my parents about that, explaining that my mental health has been taking a huge step back from her behaviour.

They told me to sucked up and quit being a baby. If it wasn’t for Cole and Summer I think I would already have given up on my well being. Cole has been amazing even though people in my family have no idea we are dating. I decided not to tell them since I have dealing with some nasty comments at home, particularly from my mom.

One of her favourites seems to be calling me fat when I am clearly not fat and even if I was, that is just rude to say. She has been very passionate towards taking away food when I am eating and saying that if I lost a couple of pounds, peharps a boy would like me, what she doesn’t get is that there is already a boy that loves me just the way I am and she keeps pushing my insecurities.

My mom and Vicky made this year very difficult for me and I ended up seeking a therapists help again. As always she told me to keep as far from her as I can’t and also encouraged me to seek oportunities outside of my city or even my country. She advised me to put myself as a prioritiy and I try. I do really! Is just hard when people have no respect for you personal space and keep on stalking you.

[talonsandleaves]

63. My first week at a new university

Hello everyone! Hope you are all doing well this week! What have you been up to these past few days? Are you already back in school? And if so, are you taking classes on campus or online? I am currently having a mixed sort of teaching system in which some of my classes are online (mostly theory) and on campus in case we have to work in a laboratory. I will tell you all about it in a few seconds.

My name is Nora and this was my first week at my new university!

First of all, I would like to apologize for taking so long to post. I was a bit sick last week. Nothing serious. Just a stomach problem due to something I ate and I now feel much better so no need to worry about me. Now let’s start with my week!

Just so you know, I am taking my master’s degree which means that my classes are mostly from 5 p.m. to 10 p.m.. So on Monday, I got up early just to get ready for my first day which included my presentation. I should have had this entire day online but as we were new to the university they turned it into a on campus situation. I got there by car as the public transports are very full in my city and I am sharing a car with a classmate. I drive and she pays half of the gas.

So I had my presentation with other classmates first and then I had my first class where I got to meet one of my professors. I then went home and spoke to Cole who has been a bit worried since I was sick and also due to the fact I was nervous about starting classes.

So on Tuesday I didn’t have classes yet and I used that time to be with Cole the entire day since we will not be able to do it usually for the next couple of months and we wanted some hours just to ourselves. It was nice! We had lunch (well, he did because I was still sensitive and I was only able to eat simple rice and bread to not upset my stomach) and went for a walk just talking a bit. The day was very comforting and made me ready to face the next challenge.

On Wednesday were I had a class in the mourning on campus and then had to drive home to have the rest of the classes online. I had lunch and played for a while with my dog until it was time to sit on front of the computer. One of the classes happens to be in english so that is perfect for me to practice even though the subject is really hard and the teacher left us a bit nervous. The last class was actually quite fun and I felt the time flying really fast because soon enough I was having dinner and going to bed.

On Thursday it was the opposite. Classes were online in the morning and in the afternoon I drove to campus to have one class which kind of killed my mood because I wasn’t well prepared from my previous university and wasn’t fully aware of the lack of knowledge people had for that class, myself included. I was so nervous the whole time and the professor told us to study which I already started doing even though I am nervous that it won’t be enough to keep up with the new topics. Wish me luck on that!

On Friday I had only one class at 5 p.m. and at first I was worried because while placing people on laboratories, I got separated from everyone I know (due to the virus we have now a limited number of people on each classroom). On top of that, we all had to work alone. It was scary at first but the teacher was very professional and started by explaining everything on the board and I was able to understand it just fine and take notes to guide myself during the entire process. I then started to work and even talked for a bit with the girl sitting in front of me and she was quite nice. We helped each other whenever necessary and I finished more than 20 minutos before time. I cleaned my working space and came outside to wait for the girl who comes with me in the car. It took some time so I ended up just reading a bit to pass the time. When we finally left, I got home very proud of myself and watched a tv show with Cole just to relax before I fell asleep.

But nothing good lasts forever and so, something came to disturb my peace. Vicky is still trying to get to me to do more harm know that I am happy. She has a tendency to show up when I get a bit more satisfaction from living my life and as my therapist said to me before she gave me my last appointment, toxic people feed on others misery even though they might have a perfect life. They will only be happy if their happiness contrasts with your misery. She also warned me that normally people tend to keep a distance after weeks (in this case months) without any contact unless we are talking about someone so unbalanced that they don’t even understand they are being sent away. And that is Vicky!

There is a good reason for me not to reveal real names here. I am allowed to have my life far from this and so are the people about whom I write in here even though they don’t show the same respect to me. This journal is just a away for me to put my thought out and to clear my mind. I enjoy doing it! But I am aware some people might not enjoy their lives being spilled out online. By changing the names I am even protecting those who hurted me from being in some way insulted or harmed. I say this just so you know that I have no intention to push you to hate someone I write about. You are more than entitled to your opinion no matter what I write.

But I will no change my thoughts about Vicky and what she did to me. She was cruel and still tries to be. But I am not staying down and I will fight back everytime she distrurbs my peace until I am able to kick her out of my life once and for all.

That is all for this week. Hope to write soon and I wish you all the best. Bye!

[talonsandleaves]

62. Books, ice cream and kisses!

Long time no see! Sorry for being away for so long but I really needed a few days for myself after I finished my paper and exams. Also I was away on my grandma’s house for a week enjoying some time far from the city. But now I am back and ready to write a bit more of what has happened in the past few weeks.

So sit and relax because my name is Nora... aaaaaaand I am finally a technical engineer!

Well well, it took a lot of work a hand from Cole if I am being honest. He was restless and read all of my work so many times to help me improve it... I can’t thank him enough for all the days we were up until 3 or even 4 a.m. trying to make all the necessary changes in time for me to deliver it to my advisor professor. And then she would send it back with more corrections for me to make and repeat, repeat, repeat! We went to bed so tired everyday and I was more stressed than ever! I still don’t know how I managed to do it in time!

After that I delivered it and the presentation to defend it was in about a week! I prepared and Cole helped me practice until I was able to explain everything I wanted in the time limit of 10 minutes. And when the day came, I sat in front of the computer (the presentations were made by video conference) and presented my work to the 3 members of my jury. I was so scared that I couldn’t stop smiling!

3 days later, my grades were online and... I got an A and I am so happy about it! I am finally going for my master’s degree! I already got accepted to the one I wanted so bad! So in September I will be foing to classes in my new university not to far from my old one where Cole is still finishing his last year and he also did great this year and I am so proud of him. We are 40 minutes on foot way from each other and most of classes will be online for all we know so it might not be that hard for us to see each other! I am nervous but also really excited!

After that, I went into vacation mode! A well deserved mode to be honest! I went to the beach a couple of times and there, I met Cole for the first time in weeks because we were to busy to go out and we could enjoy some time together even though we were not alone and could never spend more than 2 hours or so together.

Then I ended up going to my grandma’s other house on the countryside. I went with my mom and Lucas for 5 days. I took my dog with me and she slept on my bed which was very comfy. The mattress wasn’t but she was very cute sleeping on my feet through the night.

Our days went by just waking up, having breakfast and going to the river for a swim and kayaking for a couple of hours. Even grandma tried it! And she loved it! At 80 years old, she finally tried something that she would normally be scared of doing and she had a lot of fun!

After I came back, I enjoyed some more time with Cole but always near by and taking things slow. We came to meet me and usually we enjoyed some part of the morning exploring some places. For example one day, we decided to explore a mountain and took some pictures there. It was really fun but we got so tired that we just wanted to have lunch so we went to have some pizza!

We though that would be the last time we saw each other in weeks but we ended up being together 2 times more. One with Summer because we went shopping and the other before where we got to spend a couple of hours at the beach. It was awesome!

Today we went to the book market on my city. At first I didn’t think we would be able to go due to the virus but turns out we could go as long as we wore a mask and kept a distance from other people. I got a couple of books and then I got us ice cream and persuade him to go to the place where we were together for the first time. It has a garden around and a beautiful view over the river and the city.

And then I thought I only needed 5 seconds of courage and just kissed Cole. My first kiss ever! He was caught by surprise but then... he grabbed me and kissed me back. And it was just the best moment in my life! I smiled so much that my cheeks hurted! And then I kissed him again and again and again...

And being who he is, he asked me to be his girlfriend and obviously I said yes. I love him and I will never give up on him and he loves me so much that I sometimes wonder how in the hell was I so lucky! And no way I am going to disappoint him. Ever!

After that we went and had luch and just went on a walk to be together the few more hours we had. As all good things it had to end but today, it was great and more days will come but I want to remember this one forever.

Time to go now! I have got a tv show to watch with my boyfriend! Love you guys. Bye!

[talonsandleaves]

61. I am back... and I have so much going on!

Hello everyone! Long time no see! I have been very busy during the past month. Exams are done (almost) and my final presentation is coming and I am on a pile of nerves. That is probably why this post is taking two days to write. That and for another reason.

My name is Nora and I want to remember yesterday forever and ever!

First of all, how have you been? Things have been a bit confusing here. People are starting to go out and places are now opened for a longer period of time. Life is slowly going back to normal even though we are a bit nervous and scared.

And now, the main reason for this post. I want to remember that day forever so I am going to write it down as many times as I need.

Finally, yesterday, I saw Cole for the first time since March and since he told me he was in love with me. It was really difficult because there were other people we know around us and we didn’t want them to know that we are kind of dating.

So first we kind of didn’t noticed each other on purpose and waited for our work to be done. But when we finally managed to be alone... I need to write this so bad! I want to remember it forever!

He just got close to me and opened his arms asking “may I?”. And as soon as I nooded, he hugged me with all the streght he had in himself. I felt the air being pulled out of my lungs but in such a good way that I just hugged him back.

First it felt a bit weird because I am used to being by myself the entire time and he just started to walk side by side with me. But soon enough he just wrapped his arm around my shoulder but he was super shy about it at first and so was I. I will never forget that I raised my hand still not sure of what I was doing, and the way I wrapped my fingers around his just to feel him close and how real he was and how he was mine... And the little kisses on my cheek were adorable!

I actually ended up taking us to a garden near by. I used to go there to read all the time when I had time and the weather was nice. We kind of started to walk and sat on a bench but a couple of people started to stare at us so we switched to another place where we could see if someone was coming close.

I must sound super cliche by saying this but he just leaned against a wall to be kind of sitted and I just rested against him. I made a huge deal acting like I was mad because he is taller than me but that is actually quite nice because as I am as high as his shoulder, it’s very comfortable and sweet. I can just rest my arms around his neck and hide my face there and he can hold me on my waist pretty easily.

This might sound silly but we were happy just by holding each other. At least I was very happy to do so. Although we didn’t kiss, I was just melting like butter. Cole treated me like a princess the whole time. He even spinned around with me like a  crazy  person but to see his smile for doing that, my heart just exploded.

But like all good things, it had to come to and end and as we are sort of hiding from our parents as well, we had to go back after only 3 hours. I kind of hugged him and didn’t want to go (any tears he remembers are only in his imagination) and then we left the garden. The rest of the time we had to run while we tried to hold hands and as Cole is a gentleman he makes sure to slow down so that I can keep up (I never thought of myself as short but dear lord I must have tiny legs or he is even taller than I thought).

When we reached the place where our parents where to pick us up, I told him to go first but I didn’t resist to call him one last time and to kiss his jawline. It might sound silly but he smiled so much that I started to chuckle and he kissed my neck.

And then he had to go and I waited for a minute before going as well. We got home and we were still missing each other... And we will always be. Because we worked for what we have. I feel it in my heart. Cole is my one and only. And I love him!

I just needed to keep this day in my mind forever. The first day I got to be with the boy I love and that loves me back!

[talonsandleaves]

60. I need you more than you know!

You know when you feel so comfortable with someone that you can tell that person whatever you want? And that when you notice, you have been talking for a long time and even feel a bit embarassed because you probably bored that person but when you look at them they are just sort of smiling with a look of tenderness in their eyes and you are ashamed but at the same time you smile, blush and just melt?

My name is Nora and bookish boyfriends are real!

Hello beautiful people! How have you been lately? Studying a lot like me? Watching movies in the comfort of your bed? Rocking your pajamas? I need to read more for the exams next week and I have a test next Saturday. I might be going crazy!

But on the better side, I am going out tomorrow for the first time in 3 months and I am super excited! I really needed that. And Nora here is getting her hair dyed finally!

On the topic I mentioned above, I had a very nice conversation with Cole. I was in the mood to talk a lot and Cole just let me do it without interrupting and it felt so nice. He doesn’t do it to please me in anyway and to try to get me to like him more. He does it because he is a great guy and he loves to take care of anyone.

And he talked to me in a way people normally don’t care enough to do. I might look strong and tough on the outside but... deep down, sometimes I just want someone to tell me I will be okay and to hold me. And he did just that.

I hope we work together as a couple. But no matter what, I am eternally grateful for ever having him in my life. He is the best thing I could ever wish for. I need him and I want him. I just hope that he wants me as well.

Well, that is it. Sweet dreams and I will talk to you later. Bye bye.

[talonsandleaves]

59. Reflecting a bit for a change...

What do you do when you are stuck at home and have no place to go due to a pandemic? You think and think a bit more and end up checking your entire life and judge some very doubtful choice you made in the past.

My name is Nora and I can’t wait to go out into the world!

4 months! 4 entire months stuck at home due to the coronavirus! Even though I know this is the right thing to do, it’s still awful to be stuck! And college is not making it any easier. There is so much work to do! And exams are so close!

So much happened in my (let us hope so) last year in college... And I felt like reflecting a bit about it since I need to talk to Cole next about some of these things troubling my mind.

With the end of college to me, I am leaving and going to another university to get my Master’s Degree. I won’t be far... A few kilometers away from college but it’s not much. I can take the bus to visit Cole if I want to... I just need to tell him that my classes will have a different schedule. He will probably be in college from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. and I am going to study from 5 p.m. to 9 p.m.. It sucks! I hate having classes late but it’s what I get...

And I need to talk to him so that I am sure this won’t stop us from being together. We can do it right? We can have lunch together from time to time, if he has a free period we can go to the movies or take a walk... something that allows me to be close to him a bit. And we also have weekends so it can work well, right?

I really need to check this with him... I know him! He is kind and he just wants me to be happy no matter what. We had already mentioned this and he seemed okay with it. I just want to be sure.

We can only be together next months so this is making us putting our hearts and souls into this relationship so that we can be as stable as possible. Passion and love are good but are not enough and we need to work to keep falling in love everyday.

So this is it for now. Hope to write more soon, Stay safe guys and remember to be happy.

[talonsandleaves]

58. Insecurities are a bitch!

Exams are so close and I really need to start studying and memorizing everything important as soon as possible. And I have my planner right next to me so I can start working on my schedule. And I have so much to do!

My name is Nora and as you might have realized from the title, I am a very insecure person!

Why can’t I just enjoy the good in things? Why am I always considering what might happen in the future?

So yesterday I fell asleep with a very worrying thought in mind. That Cole and I might not have enough in common to help our relationship. And that scares me a lot.

I am investing in getting to know what he loves so that it doesn’t happen and I am hoping it will be good for us. But to be honest, I am a bit sad that he has a harder time on trying what I love. Nothing wrong with that. But it’s still a bit sad that I can’t get him into books and all that stuff.

I still adore him but I think we need to work on that.

This was a really short update but it’s the best I can do for now. Hope you are all safe and healthy and be careful. I will be back soon!

[talonsandleaves]

57. Going out?

Hi there. How are you? Enjoying a nice book? Perhaps binge watching a TV show on your couch? Or learning how to cook a new dish? It’s starting to be more difficult for me to find other things to focus on.

My name is Nora and I might have a few questions.

So I don’t know about you guys but since we were allowed to go out (with some rules like social distance, use of mask and wash our hands) I am still afraid and didn’t leave the house.

Are you in my situation? I know that I will have to go out eventually even for my finals in July but I am still not confident that I will be okay even if I get sick. And at the same time I miss my old life. Having my hair done, buying things, going for a walk on the beach, go to the movies with Summer or Rose, having lunch with Erica and Lucy...

It’s like one side of my brain says to go and have fun and the other tells me to stay put.

What would you do in my situation? Go or wait a bit more?

Stay home and safe and please wash your hands.

[talonsandleaves]

56. Of course something had to happen...

Hello beautiful people! Welcome to another post written on the comfort of my home during this quarantine. I am currently having a break on my studying session and trying to find the courage to send a very needed email.

My name is Nora and... I had a bit of a drama last night.

So... I was already expecting this at some point but maybe not as soon as it happened. I knew Cole from the beginning Cole was one of these guys that are instantly attracted to beauty easily. He loves pretty things and that is very clear to me. Anyway, I know there were other girls he had interest in... but they didn’t want anything to do with him and are far away.

Except for one that rejected him all the time and... I know he finds her very beautiful and I know she tried to mess with him. And I know also he says he likes me but... I am scared. I am scared not of how he feels about me but of what she might want from him.

I might be cute but she... I know she is more beautiful than I will ever be. And I am trying to be the best version of myself I can be but it’s hard. And I can’t lose him...

So this was it. I know I sound a bit crazy but... that is just how I feel. Hope you are all okay and stay home and safe as much as you can.

[talonsandleaves]

55. Trust

So another update on what is going on around here. Life is slowly trying to get back to normal. Things are starting to open and we are a bit nervous of what this may turn into but we are making it work.

My name is Nora and I can’t wait for this nightmare to be over!

So the weekend is over and we are back at another week if working from home. Work still builds up like crazy and I need some time to finish my final project but it has not been easy. I don’t feel the inspiration to work and it is more painful than ever trying to focus on work.

And I did something really dumb because I never learn. I texted Will... just to check on him. I might have given up but I can’t just leave him alone and not do a thing like we are no longer friends. It would not be fair... And he is okay! He sounds okay! And he knows about Cole and that I chose him... He is a bit weird but he understands and knows it was for my own good and because he told me he didn’t have that sort of interest in me sooooo...

He is actuallu curious about Cole and me so I might later tell him what he wants to know. I just don’t feel like doing it right away because it might be painful for him. His words were “I am not right for you. You deserve better”, so the last thing I want to do is hurting him.

I ended up telling Cole this and he is okay with it. Trust me! He is the sweetest guy in the world and he trusts me in a way other guys wouldn’t. He knows what Will meant to me and still doesn’t even try to stop me from doing this because he knows how I am.

And speaking of Cole, I have to call him. Stay safe guys. Bye bye!

[talonsandleaves]

54. Spring cleaning!

Happy Thursday! I don’t know about you but I ended up using this entire day to clean my room a bit. And turn it upside down in some areas.

My name is Nora and I really needed to clean my room!

So went to bed yesterday with a very clear thought in my mind: to organize every centimeter of my room in the next day. So right after a good breakfast, I started to work!

It took me 5 hours to organize everything but I managed to do so and I couldn’t be more proud of all of my hard work. My room looks so beautiful that even my mom was surprised by the change. I even Improved my fairy lights decorations! I still have a light to fix but I can’t! But I will!

I then came downstairs and enjoyed a well deserved snack while going on pinterest looking for inspiration for my workouts. Because somehow, I have been able to workout a bit everyday. Legs and arms mostly to start and sometimes, abs but I can’t still finish an entire workout of those... But I am already able to see differences in my body. I look less squichy and more healthy. My skin is also improving, so that is also nice!

Tomorrow I have to study to compensate for the hours I spent today. Hope I can do that without people interrupting me. Wish me luck! And hope you have a wonderful week. Wash your hands and stay home!

[talonsandleaves]

53. The Long Game

Another day stuck at home and a test creepying on the horizon... Life has become a bit boring for most of us and really sad too. And how are we all dealing with this? Making plans for when we are finally free to walk around?

My name is Nora and I keep hoping for better days!

I also need to start working a bit more today because this has not been productive at all! I don’t feel like doing anything and I can’t focus. I tried like a hundred times and nothing.

And today, I really feel the need to be outside enjoying the sun for a couple hours in a park but unfotunately, we should not do so. I am even more of a Fall/Winter person but I miss those days.

And it’s been already two months since I am at home. It has been very hard. I miss so many people but Cole is one of the worst. And I feel so bad that I can’t even be away from him for more than a couple hours. Yeah, I am like Maya playing it cool around Josh and giving up in like 2 minutes hahaha.

It’s so weird that our relationship has everything to work except that we are now apart (and we also have another similarity with the ship above but let us not mention it).  But I am trying to hold it together because, we are in it for the long game.

That is it guys. Stay home and safe please. Wash your hands and I will se you in a couple days.

[talonsandleaves]

Questions and answers #5

Another Q&A coming up! It’s short but no matter what, I am doing it. So here it is!

1. Movie you loved during this quarantine.

A couple of weeks agos, I rewatched all the Star Wars movies so probably episode IV because it was the first I watched.

2. If you could go out right now who would you see?

If I could leave my house, I would see my grandma and Cole. I haven’t seen them in 2 months and I really miss them both. I miss having lunch with my grandma at the restaurant and I miss Cole because... well, you get it.

3. Tea or coffee?

Peppermint tea (even though I love coffee with almond milk and that is exactly what I am drinking now!).

4. Books on your TBR.

So many... but I am looking foward to get to the The Winner’s Curse but work has not left me a lot of time to read.

5. Chose a pet you would love to have.

I would love to have a wolf. They are just too pretty and magical! Or a fox!

5. Change one thing about you.

I would become a permanent red head.

[talonsandleaves]

52. Distance

Hello, everybody! How is this week going for you? Mine has been okay except for one or two unfortunate events. But mostly good I have to say.

My name is Nora and this late night conversations turned out to be the best part of my day!

How is it already been two months since I am locked at home? Sweet baby Thor, time flies for sure! Stores, hair saloons and restaurants opened up this week. I am still a bit scared at the impact of those but we have to wait and see how it goes.

Even I am needing a day at the hair saloon but I prefer to wait a bit more just to make sure things go okay. Even though, we are using masks, I am still a bit scared to catch the virus. Because if I catch it, I really can’t see Cole and I really reaaaaaaaaaally want to see him!

For now, all we can do is talk and make sure each one is doing okay and we try not to be over the top doing it but we end up calling each other for hours at night and... I never want it to stop!

This is just making me more intense about everything and I won’t be very able to stay away from him. Whyyyyyy? I was never so careless in my life. I don’t feel the need of hiding things from him or to be stronger. I can let my guard down every now and then and he doesn’t judge me on that.

And for the first time, the idea of a relationship feels perfect. It has some things in the way but mostly we feel good for having each other and can’t wait to be together again. This distance is so painful for both! And we have to see each other, be able to touch, hug... I want to comfort him whenever he is not okay but is a bit hard to do it so far away. And we need each other more than ever.

I will do a Q&A this week probably so see you soon. Tell me what you are up to and stay safe guys. Wash your hands and keep yourself at home if you can. Kisses

[talonsandleaves]

51. Lost Stars

Hello, people! How have you been? Here things started to open today and we are all a bit nervous to see how this will turn out. But let us hope that it works so later in Summer I can leave the house a bit.

My name is Nora and I feel hope again.

First of all, Happy Star Wars day! May the Force be with you!

I watched a bit of A New Hope today to celebrate but work got in the way so I will probably end watching it later if I can.

How was your day? Mine was spent studying and working out. I really need to do the second one more often because I enjoyed it and felt so much better after I do so.

What I really miss is talking to Cole... Not that I don’t do so but because I truly appreciate speaking with him. I just feel better when we talk! I like to go a bit outside at night and sit on the balcony. I just have my dog to keep me company and I don’t know why but I find it so much better to be looking at the sky when we talk...

We are far from each other and we can’t really be together so I just like to comfort myself by thinking that when we are outside and look up, we see the same thing. It makes me feel a bit more close to him.

I understand now how people deal with this distance. The fact that we can’t be together and that when we will be able to do so, we can’t touch each other is just driving me crazy. 

Won’t that be more difficult? Seeing him but not being able to hug him or anything...

And how are you all? Missing many people in your life I imagine... This has been very difficult for all of us. A terrible challange to our strenght to stay way from those we love. I never thought this would happen!

I was never a person to touch others. I feel more comfortable inside my own bubble but I miss kissing my grandma when I had lunch with her, I miss visinting my other grandma and walk with her a bit, I miss Erica and Lucy at our crazy adventures, I miss going out with Summer, I miss Rose and I miss Cole until a point it hurts to even speak and listen to his voice and not being able to even hold his hand.

I just need to see him! I am not leaving my house and he is not either but this hurts so much... I feel scared for him and for what can happen before we even have a chance but at the same time he gives me hope like no one else.

He makes me feel safe and confident that our future will be different and that before I know it, we will be together and enjoying what we lost in the past two months and others to come.

And you? How are you dealing with the distance? Do you stay in touch as much as you can? I hope this goes away as soon as possible so we can all feel alive again and live our lives and appreciate our loved one.

Stay home as much as you can, wash your hands very well, stay healthy, be happy, hold on and have hope!

[talonsandleaves]

50. Enchanted!

Update on the situation here at home!

My name is Nora and I have entered my own sweet fairytale!

Things have been weird at home. The virus keeps us stuck at home, in my case for 2 months and I feel like I am getting a bit crazy. Being stuck is necessary but in no way makes me feel mentally okay.

My dog helps to keep me company because she is the most beautiful thing in the whole entire world. And she rests her head on my knees whenever I am working on my desk. She is just so happy and calming whenever she wants to.

What also helps is Cole. And I actually need to go because he is calling me so... Stay home pretty people, wash your hands, stay heathy and I will see you on the next post.