life as i know it.

tammi. 21. Miami to CenFlo. Nursing. Proverbs 19:21

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2018

1) life is crazy

2) patience is worth it

3) miracles DO happen

4) praise God for all of the above

wowowow, i’m still speechless. and in awe.

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fear.

this whole year has been filled with fear creeping at every corner and i’m so thrown off because i feel like i’ve been so fearless my whole life.

when i say this, i mean in the sense of having faith in Christ, and His love and grace for me. finding comfort in that being more than enough to combat any “fears” i’ve had before.

it’s so crazy, this tug of war pulling my heart and mind back and forth. it’s a whisper that comes at any moment, and i hate it because for that split second, i believe it’s real.

the way its hindering me from my potential is what pisses me off too. what is going on right now, tam.

i know God is real, at my core.

and i will hold on to that, until faith fills my entire being again, with no room for fear or doubt.

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when it rains, it pours

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Guysssss life is so interesting and hard and fun and different and man. I’m learning.

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i’m not saaaaaaaad.

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unaccountable accountability is so disappointing.

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I need to hustle harder. Stay motivated.

[jaesbum]

well then…

[itsladymarie]

LOL look its me and tam

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this really speaks to me.

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I saw a glimpse of something of the future that felt so real and it broke my heart. Be thankful people.

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It could always be worse.

It really could be. What upset me, showed what I prioritized. And man, my priorities were outta line. But thanks God, for these little "inconveniences" in life. Thanks for testing my endurance and for testing my strength. Thanks for answering my prayers of asking for strength and wisdom, by testing me in those exact areas. Thanks for "breaking me down" through these external circumstances, just to build me up piece by piece internally.

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Thanks God.

For everything.

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I got sick. And outta nowhere. Then I had to work 2 nights, then deal with assignments due right after. It sucked. . But there is just something so humbling about getting sick. Not being able to get up and do what you want to do. Or NEED to do. Feeling like crap in a body that’s not fully functioning, so all you really have is what’s going on inside your head. That gives you a lot of time to think, especially when you’re just in bed, going in and out of sleep.

And I mean, there’s nothing you can really do to fix it, you can’t force your body to get better. You kinda have to just go through with it. The coughing, the countless tissues to blow your nose, the fatigue. Ohhhhh the fatigue. You gotta let your body just go through it’s battle even if it means being inconvenienced and behind in your daily commitments. But I’m thankful. I’m forced to take a break.  And this is a physical sign that my body is LITERALLY telling me to slow down, reminding me to not forget about myself. Cause if I don’t take care of myself, how am I gonna take care of others?

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happy SWEET SIXTY mama!! 💕 I thank God so much that we got to celebrate your birthday with people who value and care for you just like I do. I really, really, really love you and aspire to be at least half the woman you are. You're so beautiful, strong, talented, graceful and everything a daughter looks up to her mom for (even tho i'm taller hehe). But really, i love you ma. Happy birthday!! 🎂🎂

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I’m just really, really thankful. 

It’s possible to be in distress, and still be thankful.

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And with my mom.  As we’re preparing for her 60th, it’s been ...busy...lately. As in today, all at once, on my day off. As you can see, I sounded...bitter. I’m so disappointed bc I was being a lil brat earlier, but then I realized in the bigger picture.. we’re celebrating her birthday, but that also means she’s getting older. Like, in 10 years, she’d be 70. Each year, counts. Each DAY, each MOMENT. Why didn’t I just see it like that earlier.

So that changed my mindset on going about today.  And it made it so much better. Be thankful for what and WHO you have while you still have them. The little problems really are LITTLE, I gotta make sure I don’t make them bigger than they actually are. I gotta change my mindset, and how I react, and life will go by a LOT better.

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Every time I talk talk to my dad, he reminds me to keep striving, keep moving. I constantly struggle between the Asian vs. American mindset, work hard no matter what vs. do what makes you happy. But after talking to my dad about this struggle, I gotta stop being a little baby and keep working. Keep striving, remember what motivates you. And if you don’t know what that is, find out. Like dang, I complain about the stupidest crap. Life keeps moving, Tam. It won’t stop for you, so keep going. Breathe, take a step back, breathe again, then keep walking.

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Having so much fun in Rio for these summer Olympics!!! #olympics #phelpswhereuat #iheardZacEfronishere #riodejaneiro (at Parque Olímpico Rio 2016)