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it doesnt matter if you find me.

you have probably fallen out of love with me. i would say that's fine but it's about half the truth. you leave me grieving constantly. i don't think anyone will stay and love me.

you love someone else now. can you tell me when you're okay for me to go?

the thing is that i understand and this is a good thing. this is your matespr!t and i am your moiraiI, basically. (terrible way of putting it lmao) i don't feel romantic attraction so this is good. im glad your needs are getting met.

#its not jealousy insofar as like. understanding that he /is/ better than us.#if you're getting everything you need from him and we become like. dead weight. feel free to tell us to go yknow?#im sorry we're not enough. i wish we could be but we can't. but we're glad you're getting that elsewhere. that's all.

hiccups. okay. okay we're fine.

#h

sobs.

#cries for a thousand years #i want to go home i want to go home

shot to death.

i hope im killed. i hope im fucking killed. i hope i die. i need to die.

cries quietly

I NEED TO DIE

if i could do it all again and perfect it

i ruined it i think. i fucked everything up. we just had to open our fucking mouth. now everything is different.

i don't want to be a part of this anymore. i don't want to be a system. it was easier before.