My thoughts & creations

Thoughts and creations all apart of my desperations

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Perfect

He is perfect in every way ❤️

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There’s something peaceful about running away to the middle of nowhere, no one knowing where you are, nothing familiar in sight.

Just escape from everything for a bit.

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Bitter sweet ex’s

Do you ever just see a photo of someone that mentally and emotionally ruined you and just think wow, you, you were the person that caused me so much pain, so much anxiety and self-suppression.

It’s funny looking back on it now because that experience made me stronger but it also took its toll because every wound may heal but in its place takes a scar. A scar that inhibits the use of that once soft tender flesh, never to be used the same again.

So thank you for making me stronger but fuck you for making it harder for me to love 😶

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Never again

In my dream I had him saved as never again... yet I still texted him...

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Contrarium

Contrarium means opposite in Latin and that is what I feel I am right now.

I am have become the opposite person I was a year ago.

And that statement is so empowering and frightening at the same time...

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Starting to feel that lost feeling again..

What to do with my life, art or work, it’s such a hard choice because I have little to no experience in either

Only time will tell 🤷‍♀️

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There’s so much I want to say to you but I don’t because I’m not sure what I want. I like you. But I’m not sure how much. I’m attracted to you. But I don’t know how much. Your literally the perfect person for me, such a kind soul and so creative and fun. Yet I can’t tell if I could spend the rest of my days with you or not.... I dunno 🤷‍♀️

So ima just put this here

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I am going to be on stage! Performing this year!

Brendon Tapscott

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I’m sitting here telling myself to move... but I can’t

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Hallelujah I’m free.... well at least I thought I was

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Angry at me or him?

Get angry at me?

because you angry at him?

Angry at yourself for wanting him?

This anger is the pain you cannot process

Why?

Because you don’t want to progress

Why?

Because without him you are lifeless

Your stuck in a cycle

A vicious one

Round and round your never done

Don’t hate me because your blind

Wake up before your hatred binds

Binds to our friendship

And then it sinks ships

Wake up boy and relax your mind

Don’t be an idiot but you’ll find

That I’ll still be here

A loyal friend till the end of time ✌️

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First love...

I should miss him but I do, the love, company and warmth he gave me was exactly what I wanted. That is why he still pops up in my head, because he gave me everything I desired and now when I desire it he is the direct thought related to those desires.

This is why your first love is always your hardest...

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Weird dream

Dreamt that I woke up next to Fraser and didn't realise it was him the we were about to have sex and then nathan walked in.... maybe I should talk to nathan...

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To do before the end of 2017

-get back Into martial arts -get a more stable job -make a YouTube channel -Reach 4000 on Insta -make a better life outside the "scene" -get better at dancing

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Forgive or forget

Like the old saying goes "forgive and forget" but in reality most of us just forget and take that as forgiveness. We think that because we have simply forgotten what a person has done to us means that we have forgiven them. When in reality the fire they have caused is now a smouldering pile of coals waiting to be reignited and to burn again! True forgiveness is when the coals of a once burning fire, have been put out to the point where they can no be longer reignited 🔥

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Why do people have to message me bringing up things I'm trying to forget and making them worse by adding more shit to the pile! The last thing I needed

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