Challenge day..
If you really knew me ... I don't take criticism well from family members , I think my body is ugly , I struggle in school, I think that I will never be able to make a solid decision on what I want in life, I don't take any shit from people besides my family , I am horrible at standing up for myself , I cant control my emotions when I am alone , I don't share my emotions well because of how I was raised, I don't want help , I don't need help, I don't like when people don't give me enough time to make my own decision, I don't like when I say something and someone important to me tells me it's a stupid idea, I don't like when people make stupid Asian jokes at me even though I'm not even full Asian, I don't like fat jokes from my mom and Edi, I don't like when they gang up on me and when I start to cry they just tell me to grow up and stop being a baby. Things I am grateful for ... I am grateful for my dad and mom staying together and working things out , I am grateful for my friends who support me though everything, I am grateful for the life I am living , my car, my room, my clothes, my family, even though I don't deserve a lot of this stuff it is still given to me, I am grateful for my parents working their asses off to pay the bills , feeding me, paying for my gas, I am grateful they let me use their car, that they trust that I will be a responsible kid/adult, I am grateful that they are going to try their hardest to help pay for my college , I am grateful that I get to share so much laughter with my family at the kitchen table, I am grateful that my dad always makes me smile after we get into a really big argument and always gives me a hug and tells me he loves me , and knows that I will not that mistake again, I am grateful for my dad showing me that I can do anything and I don't need anyone's help, I am capable of making my own decisions, I am grateful for cole, he's a pain in my ass but he just makes me so warm inside and I am truly happy with him, i am grateful for music , i can always count on it when I want to block out my troubles , I am grateful for my parents because they have make me for who I am today.
