Abuse of all types is insidious and effects our lives in ways we can not anticipate until we experience that wall of nope.
My goal (approved by my therapist) was to get to the event without a panic attack and I 100% surpassed that and I’m very proud of myself. Did the drive there twice for two different days with no anxiety.
Even though I was triggered and had to leave in the middle of ritual I was prepared to stay at the event until my partner reminded me that “we can’t process while triggered” and took me home.
If you’re constantly in a state of fight or flight and constantly in a triggered place you’re never truly able to heal. It’s like when you keep picking at a scab.
Spiritual abuse is ugly and not spoken of much. But know you’re not alone.













