This four leaf clover's all but useless now

“I’m outrageously loud and painfully shy and it’s difficult finding a balance between the two.” -Contramonte..... bits and pieces of my life and what I like

[hopekidoki]

jin’s happiness list no.8 

[fyeahkhloe-deactivated20260212]

[worthless-misery]

"Sorry if I'm up and down a lot. Sorry that I think I'm not enough. And sorry if I say sorry way too much. You can go ahead and call me selfish... But after all this damage I can't help it."

Ariana Grande, "needy"

[tatarimoke]

I think Karma is coming back and bitting me for everything I deserve

[my-best-gift-isyou]

[my-best-gift-isyou]

[nardack]

スモールレディ

[nijimurasx]

『Shounen Jump Girls』

[silent-and-lonely-deactivated20]

I hate first impressions because the first impression I always give people is “the girl who doesn’t talk”

[haleyincarnate]

more than time by R. Reddy 

[sailor-moon-rei]

by  x___x_o3o

[tatarimoke]

This is gonna be quite a TMI post. You have been warned

Lately my eating disorder thoughts have been getting quite active again after I had managed to get them under control. I hadn’t binged and purged in a long time, but since arriving to Barcelona, many external factors have triggered it and my self image is just getting bad. Also thanks to the fact that winted made me gain like 4 extra kilos, so you do the math. The thing is that I’ve been dealing with plenty of anxiety and depressive issues that have lead me to binge and purge several times in the past months and I don’t know what to do. I’ve noticed that I do it mostly when I’m stuck home alone without much to do, I’m just left here with my thoughts and I end up floating over to the kitchen where I just end up eating whatever I have in my pantry or fridge and... well things happen. 

I know I need therapy, I’m well aware and I honestly I’m looking for a professional who can help me. The thing is that for me it’s expensive and I’m currently jobless. Sadly wanting to have a healthy mental state is quite expensive... 

But yeah, I just hate that I’m going back to old, toxic habits that I had managed to control for a while. I hate that I’m relapsing, I hate that I have to live with this monster inside my head that is bulimia, I fucking hate it and I wish I could just get rid of it entirely. But I know it’s impossible. I know that therapy helps and I’m hoping to find some soon enough cause this is the worst. Honestly I don’t ever wish this upon anyone, ever. 

[bnmxfld]

take your time. you will get there.

[wheeloffortune-design]

I want to apologise to

- Britney for making fun of her when she had her breakdown

- Monica Lewinski for judging her when she was a 22year old temp sexually assaulted by the most powerful man in the world

- Ke$ha for ever thinking she was trashy when all she wanted to do was make party music

- Kristen Stewart for ever thinking she was dumb when she’s actually one of the coolest people ever

- Megan Fox for ever thinking she was just a slut when actually she was an actress being harassed by her employer. 

- Hating all the women who made a career out of having a hot body. Being is shape is hard, beauty is a weapon and auto promotion is hard work. 

- All the Mary-Sues, who exist because young girls everywhere want to be part of a story they love so much

- All the female characters I ever snobbed because they got in the way of my ship.

- Hating the color pink during my teenage years, when it’s actually a lovely color and what I resented was society’s pressure to perform femininity. 

[jetsetter-life]

[vanish]

[mxnrique]

Juice by Lizzo would be as big as Uptown Funk if society didn’t hate fat black women

[richbourger-deactivated20200702]

If you haven’t seen the video, go give it some love, she is so talented and this song is so good omg

[whimsicalpersephone-deactivated]

uptown funk has nothing on this bop

[tange1a]

Okay but honestly ya, this song is a fucking bop and is so much better than uptown funk or finesse. It’s just a feel good in your skin type of song.