I just wanna love you

Tatiana Kane. 24. Copycat. Cheerleader.

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fearofthefox:

His head falls against hers, his hand lazily rubbing her back to offer her some comfort. His whole life, he never felt he belonged. When he left to go to college or even to the woods behind his house–only then did he feel at home. With Tatiana, he started to feel it again. She was becoming on of his best friends, she felt like home and that terrified him. “You know I’d do anything for you, Tati.  But you need to sleep. Try ‘em it might help.” Either that or he’d steal her some sleeping pills–he wasn’t above it.

“I don’t want to,” she says stubbornly. She didn’t want to think of that dreamworld again; of what she became or who she was. Or how she died. “Can we.....I don’t know. Something? Something else.” She thinks for a moment. “Hold me for a little....and I’ll try.”

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fearofthefox:

“Dont,” he laughed, placing his hand on her back as he started to rub it softly. “I’m used to it,” And he was. Given his abilities, everything was overwhelming and in many ways–far too much for him. He stayed on edge and did his best to play it off. But he was grateful, not only for the friendship he found with her, but the company she was willing to give him. Even if neither slept due to nightmares, they had a friend to help them through the night. “I figured,” he sighs, biting the inside of his lip. “Wish I could–you know, stop ‘em. Could try leaving the light on for once or my iPod–block out the noise. It’s better than this. ”

She leans her head on his shoulder. “You’re too good to me....” Who knew she would find someone here who made her feel as relaxed as her old friends did? She had never been through anything like STAR before, and she needed more support that she thought she did. “It’s alright. You already do so much. Just but staying here with me....It means a lot.”

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fearofthefox:

With a soft groan, it wasn’t as if he were getting much sleep anyway. The facility was always far too loud. He pulls himself up–seeing the room as clearly as he would if it were lit. He listens to her heart beat for a moment–something was troubling her, but it wasn’t something he could fully place. “Sit down, you’re makin’ me nervous. Talk to me–” He offers, hoping he can be of some help to her. “I want to help,”

Tatiana takes a deep breath before doing what he says. She sits next to him and gives him a smile in the dark. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to make you nervous....” She felt bad. There “sleepovers” were always wrecked with Tatiana not being able to sleep. “I.....still have those nightmares...”

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@tatianakane

“Hey, “ his sleep ridden voice breaking though the darkness around the to catch her. “Where you goin’? It’s late. It can wait.”

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Tatiana sighs. “I can’t sleep,” she whispers, pacing back and forth. “I just....I don’t know. I just need to do something...”

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Alex cringed as he watched the fight between the two Deviants in the arena. “Good thing I wasn’t chosen this round or I would be dead right now.”

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“Good thing I’m not involved or I would be dead right now.” She wrinkles her nose. “I am not made to fight others!”

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dougalaurora:

That was easy and almost a bit disappointing. Aurora could use a good fight with someone to get rid of her frustration but she supposed Tatiana wasn’t going o indulge her in that. She took Tatiana’s place but couldn’t help herself to look over her shoulder at the girl. The images of them kissing haunting her mind. It was very confusing and it angered her in some way.

Tatiana could feel Aurora staring at her. She tries to ignore it, but she was never very good at  ignoring problems until they went away. She wasn’t one to fight people either, but that nightmare had her on edge. “Why are you staring at me?” she asks, a little bit of edge to her voice. “I moved like you wanted me to.”

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all caught up | tatiana & zadrian

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zadriandougal:

“Look…I know we had the same dream.” It was a known fact around the facility that whatever happened the other night was experienced by a lot of people, and the exact same sort of things were seen by many. Still, when Zadrian saw Tatiana, he couldn’t help but feel bad for the girl. He wasn’t the monster that he was in the dreamlike world, and though he probably was selfish, he would never stoop that low. But, the more he had reflected on it, it seemed that maybe if Aurora had left him for this girl, maybe he would be more inclined to think so utterly low. “I’m not like I was in that world…”

Tatiana nods her head. She supposes she shouldn’t be surprised that he was trying to reassure her that this was all a dream, but she was. She didn’t know him and all she had was her dream. “That’s reassuring,” she says with a smile. “And I’m not really like I was in that dream too....I promise I’m a softer person! Nicer. Yeah.”

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fearofthefox:

He was never one to trust blindly, but given his gift–whatever she was scheming was mostly harmless for what he could gather. And given who it was might have helped some as well. He laughed softly as they came to the door, one they found themselves hiding in not even a week ago even if it felt like decades now. This time they weren’t running from the guards, but they were running from something else. “We’ve got bedrooms, but if you want to get high school on me–” He chuckles as he’s pulled into the dark, bleach ridden closet. He can see everything perfectly, the dark did not have the same affect on him as it once did. “That’s the difference between you and me. I can’t alone, but choose to be–” He steps closer to her, resting his hand under her chin. “But you, why would you want to be?”

Tatiana’s breath hitches and she takes a moment to let herself enjoy this small moment. She didn’t know what she wanted; she didn’t know if she believed in this place like she did in the beginning. But she did know that this was nice. And so she let it stay nice. “I like to be alone because that nightmare put some stuff in perspective. I don’t want anyone bugging us in our rooms and I don’t want anyone finding us....I just want to spend some time with you. Because you don’t put me on edge like everyone else is now.....Is that okay with you?”

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all caught up | tatiana & zadrian

Zadrian had been too caught up with his own death that he hadn’t even thought about the girl he had made murder herself in cold blood. It was an act he wasn’t proud of, and in fact, it had caused some major problems in his own psyche. However, he wasn’t aware that the girl would actually show up in his life to a degree where he would actually be made to feel something for her. The second he saw Tatiana, he found himself wanting to run away before he met her eyes, and sheepishly sighed. “You’re…Tatiana…” He struggled to get out before finally dropping his gaze. It wasn’t every day that he was brought so low by someone that didn’t come form his family.

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Tatiana freezes when she sees Zadrian. He was the one who killed her...except he wasn’t at the same time. He was just the guy that made her do it to herself. To say she has recovered from that would be a lie. She honestly didn’t know if she ever would. It took a bit to register that he spoke to her, but eventually she nods her head silently. Get it together, Tati. Just. Smile. She gives the smallest smile she’s ever gave anyone and looks at the ground. “Yeah.....you’re Zadrian....”

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Sleep was something that was nonexistent.  He’d gotten it as a child but since the dream walking began, he can’t remember the last time he actually had a dream of his own. His every waking hour and every sleeping hour was spent entirely conscious. This was one such occasion. He’d laid down to rest his body. Before he closed his eyes, he could see the ceiling of his living room. Silence fell on him and he felt light. Like the laws of gravity no longer confined him and he was free from the world and its problems. He opened his eyes and a shock of vibrant colors greeted him. He was in a dream. It looked somewhat pleasant but in his experience he learned nightmares can even have beautiful scenery.

This was his element. He could do whatever he pleased here. “Time for some fun,” he mumbled to himself as he lifted himself from the ground. He adjusted his shirt collar with a mischievous grin before setting off into the dreamworld, intent on finding who created this place.

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Tatiana hasn’t had a good dream since waking up from that nightmare. Every night now she saw herself dying, or saw herself withering away. But this night was different. Tonight she was in a space that had no windows, no landscape, or anything other that the fact that it was a room. The colors kept changing and when she looked at herself she was in all white. There was dry blood on the end of her dress and the only thing she could think was “Am I in heaven?”

She was confused for sure, but even more confused when she noticed another person at the far end of the room. Walking towards the person slowly, she calls out, “Hey! Who are you?”

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fearofthefox:

He doesn’t hesitate to place his hands into hers. “I ain’t got a clue as to what your idea of fun is, but take me away.” He knew after the night he had he was anxious to do whatever she was willing to throw at him. 

Tatiana doesn’t say a word, just takes him out of the exercise room and down the hall. They go through a few twists and turns before arriving where Tatiana was taking him. It was the broom closet they hid in just a week or so ago. Without giving him time to question it, she picks the lock and drags him inside. Once the door was locked she laughs a little. “It’s cramped and dark, but we’ll be alone here. I find alone time a lot of fun right now.”

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madelinephillips:

“I’m just…” she shook her head, trying to wrap her mind around the possibility that the girl was talking about. She remembered feeling a lot of different things in her dreams, and for some reason she could look back at it all and perceive them as memories from some new world. “I thought I saw the future in my dreams, but last night…it felt like a past and present that never happened.”

“Weird. Not a bad weird! Just...weird.” She gives her a small smile. “My dreams were weird too. So I wouldn’t worry too much!” She was an expert at burying things that freaked her out. Like that dream. If she kept pushing it away, she would stay spunky and make the people around her feel better too. Easy as pie! “Maybe you should write it down. And then burn it!”

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dougalaurora:

When Aurora saw Tatiana a certain shock moved through her body. This had been the girl that had made her give up everything in the odd dream she and her brother both had. Apparently they had not been alone. It was obvious there had been something weird and real about that dream. This girl had made her kill her own beloved brother. Aurora couldn’t help to meet her with a certain agression. Like she to prove to both her and herself she wanted nothing of that. Perhaps most of all prove it to her brother. That she would never betray him. “Are you almost done” she snapped. “I want to use this.”

Tatiana turns around to see Aurora. She couldn’t avoid her if she wanted to now. She didn’t know how she felt looking at her. She knew that she knew too much, unless that dream wasn’t anything based on truth. Regardless, she didn’t want to cause trouble. So she smiles, moving out of the way for her. “Whatever you want!” She goes over to a different exercise mat, stretching. Her other clones were still doing their thing, but she was sure they would move if needed.

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fearofthefox:

“I didn’t think I could trust you.” His confession falls from his lips, not exactly where he was going with it. “I owe you for saving me, maybe I shouldn’t have fucking–shouldn’t have jumped to conclusion. Or blackmailed you.” He lifts his eyes, “No, but you aren’t as bad as I thought–showed me I was wrong. If we’re going to be allies, we’re going to have to help each other. That’s what I’m doing..” He lowers his head, biting the inside of his lip. “Could help you train or we could get out of here. I’m not good at this.”

“Lets get out of here,” She says quickly, giving him a small smile. “We can train later. Lets look for some fun first.” She extends her hand. “I think we’ve earned it.”

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fearofthefox:

Grayson steps closer to her. He was never good with this kind of thing, but who was? How could anyone be after what happened?  “I–yeah, I think so.” He wanted to comfort her, but he wasn’t sure if she wanted it or even if he could–he wasn’t even sure it’d be enough. “You don’t have to. I’m not here to–I’m looking for a distraction too.” He wasn’t used to honestly, but given the look on her face, they both needed someone–something to hold on to. “Maybe we could help each other with that.”

Tatiana raises an eyebrow at him. What was he getting at. “You think we could help each other out?” She says, taking a step closer to him. “This is coming from the grump who hates being around me. One dream is all it takes for you to want to help me out?” Her heart was beating fast. “What do you have in mind, hmm?”

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fearofthefox:

“Yeah, you were–a lot more like me. Cold, closed off, deadly…Something was wrong with me, the doctors had done something to me. Is that what you mean by different?” His eyes widened, this couldn’t, it couldn’t be like his. No she didn’t die in his she–he didn’t know, he didn’t see her after that fight–”Aurora, right? She was the girl and we fought over your relationship or something. I walked away. That was in mine too.” He blinked a few times, knowing this was sounding even crazier to him now, he was losing it. “No, not when we’ve had the same one.That’s not just a dream, that’s something else.”

“We had the same....dream......” Tatiana slowly takes a step back. This couldn’t be happening. “Good thing I’m not deadly! Nope this girl wouldn’t even dare to try! I’m just me.” She could hardly believe that the meaner she was, the more chance she had at a love life. Honestly that shocked her more than anything. But love did show to have its costs here. “I don’t...I don’t want to deal with it right now. I came in here to clear my head.”

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fearofthefox:

Every fiber, every instinct told him to lie. But right now, he needed someone he could trust with this. They were allies, it was partly up to him to ensure it didn’t fall apart due to secrets kept. “Yeah, yeah,” He nodded as he went on, “As good as a guy waking up thinking he’d been paralyzed from the waist down ‘cause he got stabbed in the spin could be.” His dark eyes looked up at her. “What kind of scary are you talking about? Because you were in mine and you were scared shitless.”

“I was? You were in mine! I was a lot different but....you were more different than me. I think.” She looks at the ground. “I was dating a girl here and we fought and I.....I died. It was so vivid, I felt it. I know I did. It was....horrifying. I died for this girl, but I couldn’t stop thinking about our fight. I felt like I let you both down.....” She resumes her happy face. “But it was just a dream! Silly, right?”