☾☆ nine in the afternoon

| [ kennedy tatom everett ] | — " i'll get it if you need it, i'll search if you can't see it. your thirsty? i'll be rain. you get hurt, i'll take your pain. i know you don't believe it, but i said it, and i still mean it. when you hear what i told...

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

He shook his head at her, tilting her chin up and using his thumb to gently pull her lip from her teeth.  ❝ It was perfect… ❞ his voice cracked, because it was perfect. He took a deep, shaky breath, steeling himself for the heartbreak he was about to put himself through.  ❝ Tatom…I can’t…I’m not right for you. I’ve done horrible things and I c-can’t…I can’t ruin you like I did her…❞

[tatompls-blog]

     Instead of turning her head away and hiding like she wanted to, she submitted to him while shifting her eyes up to finally meet with his again. “I’d never --.. I’d never done that before, actually.” Of course, he made her nervous. Her hand slid up to rest against the back of his neck, her thumb drawing circles into his skin while listening to his words. “Nothing you’ve done can change how I feel, Lucifer. You can talk to me --..and if that’s the case, then you can ruin me too.”

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

For the first time since the accident, he felt worthy. Worthy of forgiveness, worthy of hope. Worthy of love. He had always felt like a shattered vase, and since meeting her, Tatom had rearranged the broken mess and he could finally see a picture of what he used to be. As she responded to his kiss, he felt the pain slipping away ad in this moment, he was happy. Unfortunately, his self-loathing slowly started to creep back in under his skin and he forced himself to break the kiss. However he wasn’t able to go far, keeping less than an inch of space between them. ❝ I’m so sorry… ❞ He had torn out his heart to give it to her, and while he didn’t want it back, right now he was feeling the pain. It would be so easy to break her, and he couldn’t live with himself if he did.

[tatompls-blog]

Tatom had always resembled this pure, delicate white rose. From her very first baptism, Kennedy was the golden child of God. In that moment, kissing Lucifer, her mother would’ve told her that she was unpure. Yet, unpure had never felt so right to her. When the kiss broke, her hand’s untensed against him and she quickly cleared her throat. “I -- No -- you don’t have anything to apologize for...” Softly, she whispered to him while shaking her head. “I’m sorry.. That might’ve...That probably wasn’t a good kiss.” There was heat in her cheeks and this embarrassment that caused her head to drop. Pressing her palm flata gainst his chest, her teeth sank down into her bottom lip, “Don’t be sorry, please. I don’t want you to be.”

[onewomarshow]

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

He gave her a small, sad smile, but was soon distracted by her closeness. He wanted so badly to close the distance between them, but he felt that if he did, the blood on his hands would stain her porcelain skin and he couldn’t live with himself if he did. Even still, he couldn’t fight the pull he felt to inch just a little closer. The words slipped from his mouth before he could stop himself.  ❝ I’m sorry. ❞ he breathed, although he wasn’t sure what for. Sorry for what he had done, or what he was about to do.  ❝ I’m sorry. ❞ he repeated the words as the magnetism grew too strong and leaned in the last little bit until their lips met. It was beyond selfish of him, but didn’t he deserve a little bit of selfishness?

[tatompls-blog]

    As if she couldn’t control how close her body moved towards him, her body impulsively came closer until there wasn’t a bit of room between them. No space at all, just relaxed into each other. His stubble against her fingertips were a new feeling, but one that she wanted to get used to. Never had she ever been in such a position with a boy, especially one that she had such interest in. Her mother told her that being in such a place with a boy led to temptations of any kind --.. and her mother was right. “Why -- you -- no, what are you sorry for?” Each word came out as if she were out of breath, and she hadn’t realized how tightly she’d been holding onto him. Before she could retaliate to the second apology, she felt their lips meet and static electricity surged through her veins. Her very first kiss, was she even doing it correctly? Letting her full lips relax against his, her muscles untensed with a long exhale before she began to kiss him back.

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

Her shook his head, gently guiding her hand towards him until the smooth skin of her hand pressed against his lips. ❝ I have done terrible things, Tatom. I have earned my name. If you knew, you’d hate me as much as I hate myself. ❞  

[tatompls-blog]

    "Hey --..” Sliding her body in towards his, she felt the space between them slowly close. The ball of her thumb traced against his lips before speaking again, “Luce, you don’t know that. Nothing you have ever done or will ever do will cause me to hate you. I couldn’t hate you even if I tried.” Her gaze shifted up to look into his eyes, her free hand moving up to rest against his jaw.

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

❝ I don’t deserve you. ❞ his voice was barely a whisper, and he carefully reached out and took her and in his, running his thumb along the back of her hand gently.

[tatompls-blog]

     Hearing his words caused her stomach to flutter. There was something so soothing in the way that he held her hand. “I don’t think that’s true.” Her tone matched his, words softly spoken as she brought the back of his hand up and rested it against her cheek. “You don’t give yourself enough credit, y’know?” Turning her head in, her lips gently rested against the top of his hand.

[fuckyeahselenita]

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

He grinned, shifting over to make more room for her. ❝ You’re more than welcome to, but I’m apologizing in advance. I tend to…uhm…well, have n-nightmares, and can sometimes sc-scream… ❞

[tatompls-blog]

    Once he’d began to speak about his nightmares, she paid him more attention. Resting her head against her arm while still keeping her eyes on him. “That’s okay..” She wasn’t going to hold nightmares against him. “If you do -- I’ll be right here, I promise.” Her words were followed by an assuring smile, soft-spoken words escaped her lips as her eyes trailed over him.

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

❝ I’ll make you a deal. You grab that box of candy and j-join me over here, and I promise I’ll stay awake for you. ❞

[tatompls-blog]

    “That sounds like a proper deal to me.” Her smile was enough to show the satisfaction that gave her, making her way over to the bed with the box of candy in hand. Collapsing onto the bed next to him, she rolled onto her side to glance over at him, “Though, if you do happen to fall asleep, I won’t hold it against you. I’ll probably even nap with you.”

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

❝ Next time, I’ll invite you. I promise. There is plenty of fun in that! You get all of the candy you want! Plus, my company, without all of the annoying talking! ❞

[tatompls-blog]

   “I’m going to hold you to that, especially now that you’ve promised. All you can eat candy is the best kind of candy. Though, I don’t think I’ve ever found your talking to be annoying, so I’d much rather you be awake. You’d be depriving me of conversation, that’s awfully cruel of you.”

[jessicascott-blog1]

“Hey there’s nothing wrong with getting a little sappy. There’s a lot of things I didn’t think I would do either but i’m glad that we get to expand our lives. But yes, lets go get some drinks in our system!”

[tatompls-blog]

    “i’m always such a sap, it shouldn’t be a surprise to anyone when i get into my sentimental moments. this trip has the capability of doing that to a person, though. yes, drinks, that’s much better.”

[loganoshea-blog]

“okay well i have a great idea, how about we pretend you saw nothing - and move on with our lives? we could also get some food whilst we are at it.”

[tatompls-blog]

    “ --... saw what? you had me at food.”

[findingangel-deactivated2016050]

Angel smiled enthusiastically at the sight of her signing her response, glad to know that someone here also knew signed language. “You know ASL too?” He asked, his smile growing wider. “I’m glad someone here besides me knows it, now I don’t look so strange moving my hands as I speak.” He signed with a grin.

[tatompls-blog]

Although her mother had helped teach her sign language, she never had many opportunities to put it to use until now. Nodding her head, her smile matched the one on his face before she began to sign as she spoke, “My mother taught me when I was young.” Bringing her hand up to tuck some hair out of her face, “I’m glad I can help you feel a little more at ease.”

[justaliittlefaster-blog]

❝ I didn’t invite anyone, but if I had, it would have been you. Or, you eat all of my candy and let me sleep. ❞

[tatompls-blog]

     “I wish you would’ve invited me. I’ll invite myself the next time and tag along. Though, knowing that it would’ve been me does make a girl feel pretty special. What’s the fun in that, though?”

[fuckyeahselenita]

[findingangel-deactivated2016050]

“Do you mind looking at me when you speak?” Angel asked, speaking slowly and hoping that the other person could understand him. “I can’t hear you, but I can read your lips.” He said, signing the words out of habit.

[tatompls-blog]

When she’d noticed his signing, her face lit up and she quickly began to nod her head. “Of course, sorry --” With each word that came from her mouth, her hands immediately moved to sign. Her mother had urged her to learn sign language, but it was always something that she enjoyed. 

[ikwydts-hq-blog]

“Toxins, drugs, alcohol, the good stuff basically. I just don’t like how clean it feels, makes me gag.”

[tatompls-blog]

“Oh --... well, I’m sorry to have brought it up. Maybe, eventually, you’ll come to think of the clean feeling as a good thing.”