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I'm going through a lot of life changes right now. A lot has been going on in my personal life and with school. Sometimes I feel really overwhelmed and like I have nothing in control and other times I feel really calm and completely in control. However, I do strongly believe that everything happens for a reason, when one door closes another door opens, and all that. Some people think it is bullshit, but I cannot help but hope that what has happened did happen for a reason. Another opportunity will come around and for that to come, I needed to go through these changes. I think that life is just one big adventure that we do not really have much control over. I am just taking it one step at a time, patiently waiting until life decides to throw another curve ball at me.

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I am happy that it is getting cold, but I wish it would snow! I love the snow! I love when it's cold enough to snow and does. But I absolutely hate when it is just cold and windy. I think snow is beautiful. It's just so fluffy and white and makes everything look beautiful. In my hometown, it never really snowed that much. I think that has a lot to do with why I love it so much now. As a kid, I would always get so excited when it was in the forecast to snow. I loved watching the flakes fall from the sky and start layering on the ground. I loved playing outside in it with my brothers. These feelings of happiness as a child came to be associated with snow so now, even though I'm not a child anymore, I still find that little bit of joy I felt as a kid.

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Winding Down...

The semester is winding down. I cannot believe that there are only like 10 more days left before exams. This semester has gone by so quickly. Although, I hate to wish time away, I am glad that it is almost over. I really need a break from school. Like real bad. It'll be nice to have more than a few days in a row that I do not have to worry about school. No homework or studying or going to class or projects or writing papers. It is going to be so nice.

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Bucket List

A Condensed Version of my Bucket List:

Visit at least one thing in every state

Go skydiving

Compete in an eating contest

Own a boat

Rescue an animal

Backpack across Europe

Hold a sloth

Go skiing in Montana

Hike down the Grand Canyon

Climb a mountain

Make a difference in someone’s life

Take a spontaneous vacation

Go to an Irish pub in Ireland

See the Northern Lights

Learn to scuba dive

Learn to speak/read Hebrew

Go on a cruise

Swim in every ocean

Go bungee jumping

Learn to play an instrument

There are many, many more things I have on my bucket list, but these are just a few. There is so much in this world that I want to see and experience. I want to do as much as possible with my life so that when I'm 90 years old I will look back and be completely satisfied with the life that I lived.

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Bad Days

I hate those days where it just seems like everything is working against you. One bad thing happens, then another, then another, and so on. It's really annoying. Well that is what happened to me today. Just one thing after another... When I woke up this morning, I was already for today to be over. I'm already stressed out enough with things in my personal life, the last thing I need right now is a series of unfortunate events. Even when little things, that would usually be overlooked, happen they just seem so awful because of everything else. I always try to stay positive, but it is really hard some days. Sometimes you just have bad days and want to complain about things, which, of course, always makes you feel better.

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“Choose with no regret”

Throughout my life I have learned to live with little regret. Everything happens for a reason, and we must learn from our mistakes. The way I see it is what’s done is done, and you cannot change the past. Rather than constantly living with regret for what you have done in the past, it is best to move on. I have made many mistakes that I regret in my life, but instead of letting it bring me down I live with it and learn from it. The decisions I have made and will make define who I am, and I am learning to choose with no regret.

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Charter sucks so much. I always have such an issue with them. My cable and internet have not been working for a couple days. So I called them today to see if they could help with some troubleshooting and of course nothing they said to do worked. One lady that I spoke to said that something is probably wrong with the equipment they gave me. Well thanks a lot Charter for giving me equipment that does not work! Now I have to wait another day for them to come out here and see if they can fix it. Ugh. This is not the first time I’ve had this problem either. I hope this does not turn into a reoccurring thing. I just get so frustrated with them. Sorry for my rant.

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Last night I went to an open dance class taught by this guy I know. It was so much fun! I am so happy I went because it felt so good to dance again. I cannot even describe to you guys how it made me feel. It just… Well it just made me so happy. Like seriously, after I left, for the rest of the night, I was in such a good mood. I felt good. I have not danced like that in almost two years. It is crazy to me how something that consumed my life so much throughout my entire life before college is something that I very rarely do anymore.

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Weekend Travels

This past weekend I got to travel with my family up to Tennessee, where we met up with my aunt and uncle. It was actually a really fun trip. When I first found out we were going to Pigeon Forge/Gatlinburg, I was kind of disappointed because I've been there a lot in the past (for dance nationals) and there isn't too much to do there other than walk around and go in the little shops. But the trip turned out to be great. We kept busy the whole trip and had a lot of fun. I think it helped a lot that I haven't been there in like 6 or 7 years. I really enjoyed spending time with my family! Whenever we all get together, it's always a blast. I'm glad my family is so close and we can do things like this. Now that I am away and I don't get to see them as much, I really appreciate the time I get to spend with my family that much more.

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Socks and Mugs

Socks and mugs are two random things that I kind of have weird obsessions with. I love them both so much. I love mugs and I love socks! Those are two things I always want more of. I don't really know why I love mugs so much, but I do. I really just like all different kinds of cups in general, but mugs are my favorite. I like finding cute ones with different patterns or I'll get them from the different places I travel to. I at least think I know why I love socks so much. I especially love really soft socks or fuzzy ones. They are just so cozy and keep my toes warm in the winter. I love finding crazy patterened ones or really, really soft ones. Writing this blog is really making me want to go out and find some more cool mugs and soft, cozy socks. Haha.

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Fall Break

Fall break is almost here! Yay! I can't tell you how much I need a break from school right now. I'm excited to be able to sleep in a little bit, be lazy when I want to be, and do fun things that I can't do during school because I never have time. I want to go up to the parkway because now is the prettiest time to go. All the leaves are changing colors and everything is starting to look so beautiful. I want to get up there before the all the leaves fall off the trees and I'm afraid if I don't do it during the break I'm not going to have time when school starts back. I'm so looking forward to this break. It's much needed!

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New Girl

New Girl is probably one of my favorite shows on tv right now. I absolutely love Zooey Deschanel. I think she is so cute and quirky. This show is about her life after she moves in with three guys and their adventures together. It follows their relationships with each other and significant others. I think the show is really funny and so cute. Every Tuesday, my roommate and I, and sometimes our boyfriends, cook dinner together and watch the new episode of New Girl, which I really enjoy doing. I like knowing all day Tuesday that I'm not just going home to sit on the couch and watch tv or do homework like every other night of the week. Even though it is something small, it gives me something to sort of look forward to throughout the day.

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Go, Go, Go....

I really want to go on a road trip somewhere. I don’t know where. I just want to get in the car and go. I’m so tired of everyday being the same. I go to school, I go to work, and then I go home. I feel like my life is so boring. I feel like I’m missing out on so many opportunities. I feel like I’m not really living because my life right now is so monotonous. I want more adventure! I want to do something fun! I want to just get in my car and drive somewhere. No thinking or planning, just going and doing.

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Home

So this past weekend I got to go home and see my little brother, Caleb, for his birthday. He just turned 12. It was really nice to see him and the rest of my family. It was also really nice because our older brother, Aaron, got to come home as well. He has a job that requires him to work like everyday of the week so it has been hard for him to make it home. But he was able to get the day off and we got to go home and surprise Caleb. He was so happy, which made me really happy. We got to watch his soccer game (which he played very well in) and spend the rest of the day hanging out and eating lots of delicious food and birthday cake! I always enjoy going home to see my family. We have all always been so close, which I really do appreciate. I don’t know what I would do without them.

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Food Shows

I absolutely love watching cooking shows. Diners, Drive Ins, and Dives, Chopped, Bizarre Foods, I will watch them all. My tv is all the time on Food Network or the Travel Channel. I think I like them so much because I secretly wish I could be a really awesome chef and I just really love food. I really like watching the shows that go different places all over the U.S. and the world and try all these different foods. It is cool to see all the diverse foods out there. The only downfall is that it makes me want to eat all the time though and I always want the foods I see on the tv. But I still love watching them.

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The Struggle

Today, the struggle is real.

It has been such a Monday. I am so happy to be finally home and (sort of) relaxing. I don't even know what exactly made today so long and not enjoyable... But all day I have just felt so blah. I'm so tired and have been all day. I guess it's just one of those days for everyone because pretty much every one I've talked to today feels the exact same way too. I'm glad I get to sleep soon and this Monday is about to be over.

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Cooler Weather

It’s getting chilly again. It seems to have come a little early this year. It’s time to pull out the sweaters and long sleeved t-shirts. While I do love the summer, by this time of the year I am ready for it to cool off. I am looking forward to wearing cozy sweaters and scarves and fuzzy socks. I cannot wait for it to be cold enough for snow! I love snow! But there is one thing I am not looking forward to that comes with cold weather and that is sickness. I know so many people who have already been sick/are sick right now and it is just now starting to get cooler. I actually think I am starting to get sick myself. I’m praying that I don’t though because I hate being sick and I really don’t have time for it right now.