This month we are supporting @olaferwana! You can donate to her campaign here. Ola is a mother stranded without her partner in Gaza, and has been surviving with her 3 children throughout the genocide in Gaza. If you donate either $15 or $30 to her campaign, and send me a screenshot, I'll give you the discount code to get your 6 month subscription for free!
Jack off to my content and know that you're doing good in the world when you do it! Each month I'll be working on a new campaign to support. I'm so grateful we have our local blog Gaza Vetters and their spreadsheet here to give peace of mind to folks donating to Palestinian families in need. Please go ahead and check them out if you'd like to vet the system I work with!
Thank you to everyone who donates. I know it's a dystopian hellscape for us to donate to families affected by genocide for a porn reward, but with how many people are suffering in Gaza with very little being done to support them, we have to do what we can for others. I encourage you even if you can't afford this deal to forward it along to other horny folks that might enjoy some of my content!
I love my Trans Tape! It makes photoshoot sessions so much more fun for me dysphoria wise 💖 Also oh my god! I have my top surgery consult in 3 weeks!!! I'm so scared and excited haha~
My life is a porn, but sometimes chronic illness likes to come to play ❤️🩹 And somehow it's weirdly comforting to me now that I've been coming to terms with disability~😊
A VERY HONEST look into the sexual life of a disabled transmasc and his sexual dynamic with Sir. We both are hyper sexually active, and struggle with trying not to injure each other with how horny we both are 😭 This time we went too hard, and we're both working hard to heal back to full health ❤️🩹
Potential triggers: description of injuries to our genitals, medical descriptions about vaginal health, surprise chastity play, descriptions of having a period and experiencing dysphoria, and potentially dysphoria-inducing anatomical words used to describe my body.
And finally, the weird back and forth of writing smut while talking about some kind of heavy shit, and still feeling soft and joyful while I talk about it. It's hard, but it's been a bit easier to love my disabled body and let my body explore sexuality safely ❤️🩹
My pussy* has been going THROUGH IT oh my goodness! I got my first yeast infection in my life, the kind where there's (thankfully) no weird juices or smell. It just HURTS and itches terribly, I needed to rest for 2 days because I was so uncomfortable. My doctor is pretty sure that because my cunt is currently more susceptible to issues, my bits lost the fight against bacteria.
The background is that I've been using aquaphor on my cunt for a week, because both of our bits are quite chafed from a week long arc of being too horny and fucking 2-3x a day 🥵 Sir's dick has small raises wounds on the head from hitting my cervix, and wounded skin broken on their shaft. My cunt has small microfissues and a bruised cervix, and my ass is suffering from my G.I. issues. So I had aquaphor to try to let it heal, but I think I used too much and made a moist environment 😬
And then, for some reason, my body tossed me into my period. Uh-oh! It was day 3 of my suffering and then I got slapped with dysphoria and an angry uterus out for blood loll 😭 Luckily, I finally got my insurance issues fixed, and I have testosterone in my system again, I got estrogen for my cunt, medicine for my infection, new birth control after a year of not having it, and all my pills are refreshed ☺️ Getting farther in the process for applying for disabilities has honestly made a good impact in my life, I think I'll be doing much better once we finalize the process~
In the meantime, Sir and I are dying. We both just want to mess each other up so badly, but it hurts too much to be worth it, and we just want to heal so we can try to find a better balance again~
So we make it easier to not jump each other's bones~~ We jerk off together and rile each other up without penetration~ I caarefully used clit sucker toys to let myself cum a little bit~ I've topped Sir a couple times too!
I had to be more delicate with my cunt for the first 3 days of medication, but I'm slowly getting better now, and escalating hedonism levels in safe ways~
Yesterday and today, we had 2 healing fuck sessions, it was such a relief to find relief in each other ❤️🩹
One time, Sir made out with me and clawed into my skin while I had a suction toy on my cock head~ Sir growlsd in my ears enough and dug their fingernails into my skin until it felt like it might break skin and bruise my ribs... And then they fully relaxed, and laved their tongue against mine until I was dizzy~ I was breathless, and had such a stuttering moan as they trailed a stripe to my ear 🫠
And today, we both woke up horny, exhausted, and in pain... But there's still joy in it~ I got to sit together with Sir and our partner, and we were sad. It's been a painful few weeks with Sir's dental pains, with them struggling to eat or sleep until their surgery in 2 Fridays. But we know there's a light at the end of the tunnel now, we caught a reward for our hard work, and have a small boost in funding to finally have an opportunity have some financial slack for a moment!
So we're a sitting together, sitting in the sadness, but slowly pulling out of that to offer some intimacy and relief from the constant edging while we joke about the day, and talking about our little special interests~ Sir eventually pulled his cock out, looked at me with amused hunger, and asked if we wanted some anal before they had to leave for work 🫠
My tongue immediately started salivating, and I became conscious of my dick and my cunt pulsing with need... I smiled and I immediately fold "Honestly that would be so lovely, I've been dying for the past 4 days I've been so good~" and I gently reached out to stroke their cock in tandem with them.
Our partner is grey-ace, so they chuckled and said they were impressed with how hedonistic we were, and that they were happy for us lol 🩶🤍💜
We both got up to go to the bedroom, and I felt silly so I reached out to their hard cock, and pulled at their cock and whispered "Look, I'm literally leading you by your dick." They chuckled and played along with me, and let me pull them into the bedroom so they could fuck my ass up~
We fucked each other so hard, and I used my magic want toy to distract from the skin irritation in my cunt, and use my magic wand to vibrate and numb the skin~~ I was such an absolute puddle afterwards and finally got a day of more peace, and I felt satiated for a couple hours until I got horny again~
And through it all, my body was still going through pain! But it feels more comfortable now. I feel a little less despairing. I think it's because of the recent improvements to our financial situation.
I feel like I get to breath a little bit. It's not going to last, but it's a good time to regroup and take care of my body as hard as I can! So for now, I'm fitting my life around my body. I'm still working. I'm still fighting, but I let my body lead me to what's possible for me~
So even when I was in terribly itchy and painful flare-ups, we would make out, tease each other, have fun when pain was low, and comfort each other with intimacy and gentle tlc when our bodies have fallen apart.
I do feel myself rambling. I might try to revisit this another time, but all in all, I love my relationship with my partner, and I love my growing relationship to my body ❤️🩹
If you've read all of this, I'd love to hear about any experiences like this that y'all might have. Sexuality is so fun, and getting the opportunity to explore it is so gratifying and beautiful 🫠🥰
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*please no referring to my cunt as a pussy! ❤️🩹 I only feel comfy when I'm the only one allowed to say that, and I'm still exploring what feels good about ⁰terminology~
Seeing a boys cunt for the first time is always fun. Watching him hide his face or bite his lip as you pull down his boxers and seeing how shy he gets as he spreads his legs for you. And you can see him twitch and clench his hole and you just know he's aching for it. To be touched, sucked, fucked, taken... Love that.
Holllly fuck my partner and I were just truly fucked senseless. We were taking a nap and I needed some stimulation, so I put an egg toy in me, and my partner started rutting against me whining half asleep... and eventually they slipped inside me and we were both half asleep and blissed out...
Eventually I woke up and couldn't take it anymore, so I grabbed our ohnuts (we've been fucking like 2-3 times a day and both of our bits are chafed, so it helps my partner not hit my cervix as badly lol), slipped the ohnuts onto them while they moaned and rutted, and started riding them senseless... I always love fucking them half asleep, even though they're penetrating me it feels like I'm the one topping, and they're always so desperate~~
Eventually they were too overstimulated, and flipped me over fucking me into oblivion until their dick was too damaged, and I grabbed the strap~ I slid into them so effortlessly and they grabbed their soft dick and started humping against me trying to go deeper, and eventually begged for more, so I put a condom on my hand, and went so deep inside them~ it was soooo close to fisting, my thumb and middle knuckle couldn't make it inside, but then they started panting as I hit their prostate~
After about 15 minutes of this, my hand was tired and I had an idea... so I put my other hand in them, making it so that 7 fingers were inside them~ they cried out and rutted, and finally spurted out in orgasm and I tried to catch as much as I could with my mouth~~
After a cuddle puddle and a hot shower, we both are now wobbly legged and mushy... and it's time to actually do something with our Sunday lol~
I still have some chest dysphoria, but it's been so incredible actually not hating my body since starting hormone therapy! I'm looking to get top surgery this year, but now the focus is less because I hate my chest and more knowing that I will feel anxious if I'm not doing something to reduce the number of people who misgender me, and binding for so long is so bad for my body 😬 Good luck to future me! My family is historically very bad with infecting post-surgery, which is why I've postponed this for so long... but it's time dammit 💖
