A/N: This is a mess lmao sorry, maybe some of you will enjoy it, though <3Â
âDonât forget about your initial discussion posts that are due by the end of this week, everyone!â, the professor bellows as everyone rushes to shove their belongings inside of their bag. You, however, took your time, making sure not to crinkle any of the carefully highlighted and sorted stacks of notes youâd made during the class period.Â
While holding your pencil between your teeth, you were unaware of the wavering eyes of Heo Hyunjoon, admiring your every move softly as he struggled to put his materials away,himself. He cursed himself mentally for not taking that seat next to you that always seemed to be empty, for not passing a note to you like he was back in grade school. His fear that he would make a mistake in his words or actions halted his desire to utter a single syllable in your direction.Â
Sighing, he shoves whatâs left of his books into his slightly worn backpack, not even bothering to zip it up before sliding his hands through his hair without giving it much thought.Frustrated at himself, he storms out of the classroom, a cool rush of air hitting your face as he passes by you, making you look up before once again returning to what you were doing.Â
âYou said you wanted pizza, why arenât you eating any of it?â, Juyeon shoves Hyunjoon softly with his shoulder, mouth filled to the brim with his lunch, a smear of Tomato sauce on his lips. Hyunjoon picks at the crust, rolling his eyes before letting out a slightly over dramatic sigh, sulkily picking up the now cold piece of pizza, taking a bite, if you could even call it such.Â
âI dunno, guess Iâm just not as hungry as I thought I wasâ, he mumbles, head clouded with self doubt as well as ideas to get the person in his class to notice without him making a fool of himself. He exhales, fingers skimming his scalp as he runs his hands through his thick head of hair, which was in dyer need of a wash, if he was honest with himself.Â
Picking up his bag, he waves to his friend, slightly guilty as he makes the quiet trek back to his apartment. He kicks at a small rock, chuckling to himself when he kicked it farther than the last attempt. Eventually, he pulls his key out of his pocket, turning the handle to let himself inside, blindly tossing his backpack to the floor, and it lands softly on the carpet below with a âthudâ.Â
The next day, was one he wishes he could rewind and start over like those kinds of movies you watch and think, âBetter him than meâ. Hyunjoon had fallen asleep before setting his alarm, waking up several hours later than he had initially planned. He quickly slipped his shoes on, forgetting socks and breakfast as a result. In addition, Heâd missed his first two lectures, and just barely made it on time to his third, out of breath from running as he slumped down in his chair.Â
He found it hard to stay awake as the teacher droned on about Sixteenth Century Englishmen, his head lulling back and forth as he caught himself just in time before face planting the desk. You watched, giggling every once in a while when he was awake just long enough to jot down a few notes. Biting your lip, you tore the next clean page out of your notepad, scribbling something down before getting up, making your way over to him, taking a seat to his left.Â
He bats his eyelashes, and he swears heâs dreaming as you look over at him, a small smile on your face as you slide the note over to him, never taking your gaze away from him as he sits up in his seat, rubbing the sleep from his eyes before unfolding it, his attention now fixated upon the words youâve written intended for him to read. When he becomes fully aware of what heâs doing, heâs able to recognize that what heâs reading is a list, one pertaining to things youâve noticed about himâŚthese things including, but not limited to,Â
1. when you get nervous, you run your hands through your hair. 2. You always look like youâve not slept more than two hours when you walk into class. 3. you have really kind eyes, gentle ones. 4. You always look like youâre about to say somethingâŚso why donât you? I wonât bite, you know..
He looks over to you once more, and without missing a beat, he grabs his pen from the table, scratching something in response to what youâve written, giving it back to you, smiling when youâve taken from him, unfolding it.Â
You see, I canât, because youâve stolen all of my words - HyunjoonÂ