Recurring Chapters @tc-loveletters - Tumblr Blog

Graduated, but always musing

#g - ex-teacher, forever-feels

#r - a year older than g. Boyfriend

#P1 - ex boss (noticed, but FUCK THIS GUY UGH!)

#doodle - my art about my experience

#mine - any original thoughts

Struggling to find a general-public friendly article for a topic still under-researched that only has a few heavy research papers for it is a special kind of hell

#one of those freaking extra credit projects for introducing general public to a concept #academia

I miss my homoerotic friendships hhhhhhhhhhhhh

#consider this a coming out post

bttrflyreboot

coming home for a weekend of my summer in between classes and work has me remembering why I worked so hard to get out of this house!

the guilt never ends because I live in my cozy tastefully decorated dorm but my family still lives in poverty where the house is barely held together sigh. It can’t be helped with all my siblings and my moms bad habits that eat into my dads wallet. I wish I was established enough to buy my family a home that is in good condition so every shower and sleep and breath is comfortable.

I have to stay focused on studies if I want it to happen, I know. I think I lost sight of that determination when I was getting so busy and comfortable with life on campus. I worked so hard and spent as much time at school as I possibly could back then, just to get away and forgot why I worked so hard to get here.

Honestly it opens my eyes as to why I was so attached to g from a distance, then to my boyfriend r despite his age since he had all to offer what I didn’t have.

Anyway I guess I’ll study for my online summer course exams due tomorrow

#diary #mine

weltenwellen

Wildness Before Something Sublime Leila Chatti

#academic comeback here I come

questionablemoral

Okay I've calmed down a bit after what happened

And now I can calmly add that when I asked him to maybe kiss me, he exhaled and quietly said that he "doesn’t think it’s right" while looking at me with puppy eyes full of craving and that phrase at that moment was the most arousing thing anyone had ever said to me 🥀🥀 (I had to bite my lip to keep from saying it to his face)

#dreamy sigh